I've just had a complete meltdown! Found some energy and appetite and made myself a pretty good ham, cheese, mustard and salad baguette. Thoroughly enjoyed it as hadn't eaten at all today (byvthis time it's 3pm) got to the last mouthful and without even getting to chew it I threw the entire lot up, whilst weeing myself from the force.
Ended up covered in wee and vomit (in my last clean item of clothing as only have 3 dresses that fit me) stood in the kitchen hysterically sobbing for 20mins. I know it's hormones but it's truly been a hard and long 9months and I just can't do another day like this, or that's how it feels, I know I could have another 3 weeks and baby will come when it comes. I want this baby so badly and know how lucky I am so hate moaning but feel am at my limit today