Hi all.
Sorry I haven't posted for quite a while. Hope you're all keeping well.
I'm so tired. Still doing really well with breast feeding, and at weigh in today LO is now 13lbs. She's 9 weeks 4 days and was 8lb 0.5oz born. She hardly ever sleeps during the day, health visitor and gp have said this is nothing to worry about and she'll sleep when she needs it. She sleeps when I drive somewhere or walk with her in the pram, but obviously I can't catch up on sleep then.
I feed whenever she gives me the feeding cues, so she's fed on demand. During the day she feeds roughly every 2 hours. At night I put her sleep suit on a few minutes before 9, so 9 pm I can shut the blinds in the bedroom, turn Ewan the sheep on and feed her. I always offer boob then even if she's recently fed. This is our quiet time and wind down for bed. Sometimes she's fed and asleep by 9:30 other times it takes longer (she sleeps in Moses basket next to my side of the bed). First part of the night is usually quite good with her sleeping 3-4 hours, but then it goes to pot with her waking every hour to hour and a half, which is pretty tiring.
Feeling really down today as had put 6-8 weeks check up (late I know but first date they could do) and although I kept seeing midwife and then gp and telling them how sore my episiotomy was and how long it was taking to heal, they kept saying it will heal in time. It's now feeling loads better and not painful to go to loo or walk anymore, but I can feel a bumpy but that shouldn't be there. Basically at check today doctor said where some of the stitches (I had a lot) had come undone, it had healed with part of it open so the underlaying muscle (which was also cut and stitched) is showing and there's a gap where the skin should sit together neatly and it doesn't.
So I've got to have surgery down there. It's taken so long not to be painful down there, the thought of being cut and stitched again now is horrible. Feel totally fed up and cried all the way home. I kept saying it wasn't right. Why didn't they fix it at the time when I was in pain anyway, now I have to go through all that healing process again
Sorry for such a long post xx