****July 2018 Mummies - Tri 2****

[Shanivy]

Sitting in a restaurant and OH has had to leave me and run across the road to Boots to get me Gaviscon before we've even ordered . FML seriously.

Maternity swimwear search isn't going well. I'm actually fucked off big time trying on maternity clothes in general today, nothing fits right. Never had this issue with dd. As to you ladies who fit into normal swimwear I m bloody jealous! My boobs only fit into ones with cup size so most shops are no good.

DDs at her grans now too. She is definitely wanting to stay overnight. I'm okay about it now but when tonight comes I know I'm going to freak out. KHTW I feel the same way, she's not safe anywhere but with me. Stupid but I can't help it, don't think I ever will. I've told her "if you need me I'll come get you no matter what time it is" Shes just like okay lol. Going back to her grans anyway later I'm not gonna be able to leave her :/

 

[Shepherdess]

How are you doing now Shanivy? DD still happy?

Bit random but JemRose how is your sister?

 

[Shanivy]

Arghhh. I'm not coping. Just got back from MiLs house at 8, OH has had to run round again with her Alice doll we forgot to take. I've told everyone if she needs me to phone and ill come around to get her. Even if it's 4am. I sound so pathetic but I can't help it. Still my baby. She's almost 4 1/2 and I've never had a night away. Dd is cool she said love you etc and she's seemingly fine with it all. I suppose it's different for her than me. I'm never getting any sleep tonight lol xx

 

[_GG_]

Arghhh. I'm not coping. Just got back from MiLs house at 8, OH has had to run round again with her Alice doll we forgot to take. I've told everyone if she needs me to phone and ill come around to get her. Even if it's 4am. I sound so pathetic but I can't help it. Still my baby. She's almost 4 1/2 and I've never had a night away. Dd is cool she said love you etc and she's seemingly fine with it all. I suppose it's different for her than me. I'm never getting any sleep tonight lol xx

Oh Shan...I can't even imagine. Hopefully this is just the horrid night that you have to get through before she's old enough to be going for sleepovers xx

 

[_GG_]

Well, My neighbour died this afternoon. I am actually struggling with it a bit. Such a wonderful lady, I've been acting as her guardian for the past almost four years as she's infirm and lives alone in a huge farmhouse. She's been such a joy to have as a friend. She's not been in good health for some time but has always been a fighter and honestly, we all thought she had at least another year in her so it's been a bit of a shock to all of us. Her only living relative who is our landlord came down so we've been with him the past hour and we are all at least happy that she passed on the way she wanted to...on her own, in the room she was born in. That is a comfort to everyone.

Just processing now. It's going to be so odd being on the farm without her in the house.

 

[JemRose]

How are you doing now Shanivy? DD still happy?

Bit random but JemRose how is your sister?

My sister is fine. I know that sounds like a good thing, but I'm a bit worried it's not sinking it for her. Her first son had tongue tie cut and she seems to think it will be similar to that. Whether she is sugar coating it for herself I'm not sure, I just worry that when he comes she will be overwhelmed as she has downplayed it so much x

 

[JemRose]

Well, My neighbour died this afternoon. I am actually struggling with it a bit. Such a wonderful lady, I've been acting as her guardian for the past almost four years as she's infirm and lives alone in a huge farmhouse. She's been such a joy to have as a friend. She's not been in good health for some time but has always been a fighter and honestly, we all thought she had at least another year in her so it's been a bit of a shock to all of us. Her only living relative who is our landlord came down so we've been with him the past hour and we are all at least happy that she passed on the way she wanted to...on her own, in the room she was born in. That is a comfort to everyone.

Just processing now. It's going to be so odd being on the farm without her in the house.

How awful GG. Honestly you sound like a lovely person and a bit like a guardian angel. You seem to do everything and anything for anyone and it's such a lovely quality. You Don't deserve the rough ride you had to get to this point with baby, you're an angel in disguise!

 

[_GG_]

Well, I have been lying here wide awake since 4.14am when one of the dogs started barking at the rain. Yep....she's bonkers, actually brain damaged bless her and rain excites her as she likes to stand under things and jump up to catch the drips. She is also a 15 year old collie who an hear a fucking raindrop, but not the desperate screams of me and Dan for her to shut the fuck up and go to bed. Dan got up bless him and went straight back to sleep 4 minutes later. No chance for me.

I'm very glad Jo got her wish to die alone but I'm also really sad there was nobody with her at the end. She wanted to be alone because she didn't want any intervention. I just wish one of us could have been holding her hand.

I'm going to get up and go to Add a to o a big shop now as no chance of sleeping and we have 30 in one booking for carvery Sunday so if I get that out of the way now while it's quiet, I can sleep later hopefully.

Thank God for this baby...it's proving to be a pretty shit year otherwise.
Baby by the way who I think is hooked on speed...can't believe I ever worried about not feeling much with anterior placenta...this little one is up to all sorts in there. The scans lied. .there's not two arms and two legs. It's got about 20 million limbs all going at me in different directions, lol

I think I'm feeling guilty as well. It has always been agreed that Dan and I will move into the big house when Jo is no longer there. Something we hoped was years away yet. My mind can't stop "going there" though, wondering and imagining and knowing how much easier it will make life as a family but I hate myself for thinking those thoughts right now.
We sat there yesterday evening in the back room and I said to Dan, "can we not tell your mum for a while". He instantly agreed. Since the day his mum found out we'd eventually be living there, she hasn't stopped asking about it. She even offered to help me feed the cat last year. I said best not to as she was a stranger to No. Her reply was to say, "but she's bed bound so she won't know if I have a look around".
So, on one hand, I don't want her knowing because her first thoughts will be about asking when we move in, saying they can stay as there will be more room etc and here I am thinking about the window that needs replacing and the sheer amount of work it needs to be okay for a baby. That makes me such a hypocrite. I just know her first thought will be about her and not the fact that we've just lost someone close to us

Ah fuck it. I need to go shop and clear my head.

Hope you all have a lovely Easter weekend xxx

 

[Shanivy]

GG I'm so sorry about your neighbour. I'm sure you don't feel any better but I hope at least your mind is a little clearer. And that you got some sleep!

Don't beat yourself up for thinking about the house, you're about to have a baby, it's normal your thoughts would go to something that would give baby a better family life. I'd be thinking the same thing. Don't feel guilty about it. As to telling Dans mum, do whatever you like about telling her. Whatever decision you make is the right one. Give youself a break hun. Hugs xxx

 

[LuckyLaura]

I'm really sorry GG big hugs xx

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[_GG_]

Thanks guys. Shan...his mum can go jump. He actually said he might tell her because he knows she will instantly say the wring thing and give him the opportunity to tell her to grow a fucking heart. I'll leave it up to him. Just god help her if she says anything inconsiderate to me.

 

[Fela]

Hope everyone is having a nice Easter. GG I’m sorry about your neighbour, it sounds like she was very important to you.

We are enjoying our weekend in the lakes, yesterday went for an ‘easy’ (according to the map) walk from Bowness on Windermere which turns out to be more.. moderate difficulty I’d say. Ended up at the top of a huge hill called Brant fell. Probably not huge normally, but it felt huge to me this time and the walk was way more tiring than it would normally have been! But I felt quite proud of myself to get to the top...

Nothing much else going on, off on another walk tomorrow and then out for an Easter roast dinner happy Easter to you all for tomorrow

 

[Shanivy]

Enjoy yourself Fela! Xx

Gg hope you're doing okay xx

Jem same to you, hope your ribs/breathing is better xx

Not much planned tomorrow. Ivy has viral conjunctivitis (of course she does ) OH had to pick her up at 4am this morning from her grans. So swimming is off and it's a baking day by the looks of it. Have some art and craft Easter things to do and an Easter egg hunt we'll probably hide around the house because of the weather. She was upset about missing out on going swimming. But now she's okay since we've compromised and said we can do it on our weekend away next week. As long as I don't catch it lol I can't cope with another thing

Baby super active today. I've ate my own weight in food I'm sure too.

Have a nice Easter Sunday everyone. And I hope all the kiddies get a good day

 

[Shepherdess]

Morning ladies

Sorry about tour neighbour GG

Shanivy I hope Ivy's eyes are a bit less gunky today. Enjoy your baking day. I'm thinking we'll have to have our easter egg hunt in the house to. Although right now it looks really nice outside. Forcast is not good though, lots of cold lambs here

Aw Fela enjoy your weekend. If it wasn't lambing time we'd probably be having a day in the lakes. We're super lucky and it's only a 1.5/2h drive away. I'm very jealous. Will be over that way for DD'S birthday next month though

Hope you all have a lovely easter, especially the kiddies. And looking forward to more of you hitting that tri 3 mark this week

 

[_GG_]

Happy Easter everyone.

Shan, that's horrible about It's eyes. Bless her. Hope it heals up quickly.

All good here. Remarkably good actually. I'm well ahead of schedule so having a great morning.

Hope you all have a lovely Sunday xxx

 

[LuckyLaura]

happy easter I spent last night answering 101 questions from my husband about easter including why there's a bunny and why do we eat chocolate eggs! He wanted the full religious breakdown too haha I always forget that he wouldn't know any of this.

Having a quiet day in today mainly cuz ive been told to rest, but tbh dreading it. My parents have decided we are having a family dinner which is never a good thing haha so basically my dad is going to "slave" away in the kitchen all day, refusing help from anyone, then moan about the fact that by the time hes made the food he doesn't fancy it, then leave half his plate untouched and complain he didn't enjoy the half he did eat. Mum will ask him passive aggressively did he "do something different..." with the gravy or potatoes (translation: why are these crap?) and then he'll snap at her that it's the same as it always is...but she'll be convinced it definitely isn't. The rest of us will awkwardly scrape around our plates until such time as we can make a break for it...while my vegetarian husband will be completely ignored and left to try to make dinner for himself, despite dad apparently needing to use every appliance and counter-space available at the exact same time which usually means he has to wait until the dinner is finished then make something for himself- whilst being made to feel inconvenient and in the way while the dishes are being done by mum and dad, again refusing help. Then I will have to try to contain the absolute rage that envelopes me when they treat my husband in such a shitty way just because he's vegetarian and apparently that's the hardest thing to overcome in the cooking world!

It's such a joy to live here truly. xx

 

[Fela]

Oh wow Laura, that sounds like a tough gig.. on these occasions, DH and I play 'family dinner bingo' quietly together . You know, mentally ticking off those predictable moments and trying not to laugh too obviously as all those moments inevitably happen.. the downside is that it can look rather like we're laughing at everyone if we aren't careful

 

[PeanutButter]

Sorry trying to catch up.
GG so sorry about your friend hun, sending hugs. Ignore his mother, anyone who'd say anything about being bed ridden and having a peak can get fked imo. Xx

Shan, ughh thats horrible to have!! Especially over the holidays poor thing. Hope it passes quickly.

The dr tried to stop my folic acid, the 5mg one. Id happily buy it but can only have a prescription for it, so had to go in on saturday cos had none left. Basically said ive been on ot 3 years and its a silly time to stop it and the dr agreed. Also convinved me to give the coil a go after birth heh.

 

[JemRose]

Laura sounds like a nightmare but funny how you can predict the whole day!

Hope everyone's having a lovely day. We've just been having a lazy day which is lovely!

I've just discovered a tiny little nipple next to my right nipple, thoroughly freaked out but OH said he read that can happen x

 

[Shanivy]

What a fucking night. DDs conjunctivitis is actually really shit. It's viral and comes with cold and flu symptoms and gave her a temp. Then that gave her a heat rash that was so hard to get rid of. She'd scratched the crap out of herself in her sleep and woke up crying her eyes out over it. Fell asleep after 3am in my bed after a night of pure drama. I mean hours of it...She's woken up like nothing ever happened this morning which is fab for her eh?

Away to get up and out to mothercare asap this morning before oh goes to work as I'm needing more maternity bras and they're 20% off. So tired

PB ohh I can't do the coil, the idea freaks me out. Don't know what I'm doing tbh been trying for so long. May just never have sex again lol xx

Laura I hope it wasn't as bad as that. I'd be soooo pissed about hubby having to sort his own food out. How rude is that?! Xx

Hope everyone had a nicer Easter than we did lol. Roll on summer seriously