This ago This just mean. Up at 2.30 with the worst heartburn I've ever known...made me sick a little in my mouth. Been sat on sofa for an hour, afraid to go back to bed in case lying down kicks it off again. I've had Gavsicon but bloody run out now.
Really wanted a good sleep tonight. Mickey and a liveries horse are being shot today (sounds horrific but it is by far the best method for the horse, I've seen enough of this and injection to know shooting truly instant and the horses only know they have their head in a bucket of food.)
But, it never gets any easier and I am so worried about Dan. He loves the bones of Mickey. If you're not horsey, it's impossible to understand but they connect with humans in a way that no other animals can, not even cats and dogs. It's a truly soul deep connection when it's there, it's why they are used as therapy animals so successfully. It's why I can walk into the field pregnant and all of them are extra gentle around me. Mickey showed Dan this side of horses. They have a really strong bond and I am so sad for Dan. He's been with me for a few going now as it's part of running a livery for older and injured horses and was floored by how affected I was when my old mare was put to sleep 4 years ago, but now it's him who will feel that and I am dreading watching him go through it. These horses are our family, especially Mickey.
Please god let me sleep some more. This past 12 hours I have been so fucking uncomfortable. No position seems to help. Baby kicks the living shit out of me in most positions. Is this a pre warning of what's to come in tri 3?
I will be on the phone to the midwife first thing for a gaviscon big bottle prescription.
Jem, hope your sister has settled back at home. Such a worry for you all.