Congrats purple 😊
I understand how you feel I really wanted a girl this time and I did feel sad when I found out I'm having a boy. I feel bad even saying that now, and I know not everyone understands gender disappointment - it's not that I didn't want a boy, I just really really wanted a girl. It will get easier - I feel a lot better about it now that I've got used to the idea and I know as soon as I meet him his gender won't matter one tiny bit.
But don't be hard on yourself - we can't help how we feel and hormones etc etc don't help!! Delighted all is well with your little man and welcome to team blue xx