trixipaws said:my boyf said i was beautiful when i was very pregnant and a bit fat too and weighed 11 and a half st- at the time he did- but now he admits i was "a bit massive" and used to cut off his blood supply when i sat on his knee
its sweet of him to lie for me like that, but he doesnt do the same when i'm underweight. he openly says i look "too thin" and when i was under 7 st even "hideous". its not enough for me tho no matter how cutting his remarks it wont make me gain weight in response- in fact i use comments about how "bad/ill" i look as markers that i am THIN which IMO is a GOOD thing- i take them as compliments
he thinks i am most beautiful around 8 st. but i think thats chunky on me anyway
i am miserable (about my weight) when i'm skinny- but a lot less miserable than i am when i'm not skinny. i cant bear it. but hopefully this weill change soon, when i am fixed
trixipaws said:f**k.
just shared a choccie orange with my boyf- it was yummy, but just read that 3 segments has one hundred and twentysomething cals! ARGH! effing 3 segments! i just had half an effing orange, f**k knows how many segments
panicking now
weighed 101 pounds this morning, i dread what my next reading might be
grr why does this bother me anyway
p*ssed off now going to bed! sorry for my negative post this is my rant thread, it helps me a bit thanx for putting up with it