June mummies loss thread

[russellmuscle]

Im harassed today!

Although almost 5pm and I will go home and hopefully OH has a lovely dinner up his sleeve as I am hank marving!

Bleeding slowing could be good - meaning your hormone will be reducing too perhaps. I refused to test for a week and a bit because I didnt want a BFP that I knew wasnt real - but then that was before I wanted to properly TTC.. so its a hard one.

xxxx

 

[Eryinera]

I'm just eager to know things are back to normal I don't know I've dealt with the loss I guess I think I cried inside until the told me it was at the 7 week mark again and then it all felt so routine and familiar. I don't know. I'm gutted obviously. But at the same time I feel like there is a cause that just needs fixing. Everything seems to be pointing at an immune disorder. I think I'd cry a lot if my bloods came back normal. Im just ploughing my attention into finding the reason.

Yay for nearly home time sounds like you've had a rough day. For tea my darling hubby to be is cooking bacon sausage carrots peas and boiled pots which I'm gonna mash and gravy yum yum yum!

 

[Redhead]

Hi Everyone,

Sorry ive been a bit awol, havent really felt up to writing on here. Hope everyone is ok?

I went back to work today, despite the whole process not being over - the scan on monday told me there was still clots and stuff left that needed to come out, and it could take a couple of weeks. Im bleeding very lightly, so a bit frustrated its drawn out. Work are letting me work when I want for however long I want, they didnt expect me back this week at all, but I felt like I needed to do something so its nice that they are supporting me.

Im a bit emotionally all over the place and I really dislike the lack of control, not just over my body but my emotions. Has anyone else had problems with being out of control of it all?

Also when the rest comes out should I be expecting pain again like it was last week?

Thanks,
xxx

 

[LyndseyB]

Hi ladies, thank you all so much for sending me wishes for today, they are all very much appreciated.
I've had a lot of sore cramping through the day and a bit of blood but certainly not excessive, have only been getting small cramps for the last hour or so and so I'm feeling frustrated again as I'm assuming this isn't going to work! And the pain meds (Dihydrocodeine) have made me very sleepy and feeling weird.

Snowbee, you are not making him feel like that, this is nothing you have done sweetheart so please don't be thinking like that. I think he would be very upset to think that you are blaming yourself for him being upset, please make sure to keep talking to each other as you can both help each other through this

Sorry to not comment about any other posts, I find it difficult to keep up using my phone and cannot find the energy to cross the room for the iPad lol. Will be back on later to catch up properly and hopefully have better news about these tablets working xx

 

[russellmuscle]

Enjoy the dihydrocodiene I had this early labour and slept through till 5cm lol.

xxx

 

[BunnyN]

Sorry you are having a hard time redhead. I found waiting for things to start really hard but I didn't have much of a wait. Still have to do a follow up scan to see that there isn't anything left but blood flow has slowed right down so hoping that's it.

Have you had any progress Lyndsey?

 

[LyndseyB]

Do you have an appointment for your follow up scan yet Bunny? I do hope that's it over for you as you've certainly not had an easy time with this.

No progress unfortunately, feeling utterly deflated as I really had not anticipated this not working, and it wasn't the easiest decision to make in the first place.
Hubby has just got us some ice cream and put Home Alone on so I'm going to take my mind off this for an hour or so hopefully. I hope you are all doing ok xx

 

[LyndseyB]

Quick update from me..well not an update actually as nothing is happening. I have a mixed bag of emotions today mostly between anger and sadness.
Some of the anger is aimed at my husband, I mean how difficult would it be for him to get some milk and empty the rubbish bin? Seriously he got up this morning and made himself a nice latte and f*cked off to work knowing he left about 10ml of milk in the fridge! Something as simple as that is really testing my patience, he just has no idea!!

Sorry about that... Just waiting on the nurse to call so we can discuss what to do next, sounds like another try at medical management I think.

How is everyone doing? Let's talk Christmas or something lol xx

 

[MrsS15]

Aw Lyndsey, men are just thoughtless at the best of times. Since the m/c I've felt so super sensitive, things DH would say/do to me before that wouldn't bother me I now find I'm near tears. Anger and sadness are totally normal, I'm only 2 weeks post m/c and still have moments often where I'm totally overcome with sadness and why me? thoughts! Sending you a big hug

Can't talk Christmas, I haven't bought a single present and I've got 14 nieces and nephews to buy for. I really should start!! xx

 

[LyndseyB]

Thanks MrsS and sorry to hear that you are still finding it difficult, was this your first pregnancy? I hope it continues to get easier for you, it's always been said that time is a healer so let's hope that is true for all of us.

The nurse said earlier that I should wait 24 hours and call them at 10am tomorrow to discuss the next step if nothing is happening still, I headed out to the shops and for a coffee with my sister this afternoon, it felt soooo good to get out the house and I started having a lot of cramps which have continued since and more bleeding so hopefully this will be it tonight!

Oh gosh that is a lot of kids to buy for, still plenty of time don't worry, the biggest problem is that the shops generally get ridiculously busy from now, even on weekdays! xx

 

[russellmuscle]

I have bugger all in.

We did a photoshoot for Xmas with SIL and BIL (I say we, I forked out for half the bill) and their kids for their grand parents canvas as like a joint thing, because after 10 years of me gift buying they are so hard to get for - and dont need much tbh. But the photo is as far as I have got and thats only because SIL is super organised.

I need to get a new tree, one my cats wont destroy - some decs - cards. Thats getting done next week at pay day. Then I only really have Jackson's xmas/birthday and OH's xmas/birthday. Everyone else gets a few bits but Jackson is my main concern. Every year I put myself out and not that I give to receive but other people don't bother their arse. I am still waiting on Jackson's Christmas present last year from my mum (long story - I dont have ... the best of mums shall we say.. ) So I wont bother a great deal. Sounds awful to say that - but its true. My grampa married someone else last year and doesn't bother his arse with us - my other grandpa hasnt spoken to us in years... so its really just Me, D, J the cats then we are going to FIL/MILs for a big fam gathering.

xxxx

 

[Redhead]

Lyndsey, I dont know what it is with our husbands, I dont blame you for being angry!

I dont want to sound smug, but ive almost done all my xmas shopping, I did a lot of online shopping while I was off last week. Only got a couple of people left. woo hoo!

Russelmuscle, I have stopped spending and worrying as much about a lot of people this year, I used to spend a long time getting something sentimental, or something they really like, to be given a boots 3 for 2 smellies set. Not this year- not wasting my time on them. I hope that doesnt sound ungrateful :/
I love the photo shoot idea though.

Hope everyones doing ok xxx

 

[snowbee]

I love Christmas (even though it is a yearly reminder that we don't have our baby yet). I've done most of my Christmas shopping, I haven't got anything for my mum though, any ideas?!

 

[Redhead]

spa day voucher? Got that for my mum last year and it was really nice to be able to spend time with her after the craziness of christmas.

 

[MrsS15]

Thanks MrsS and sorry to hear that you are still finding it difficult, was this your first pregnancy? I hope it continues to get easier for you, it's always been said that time is a healer so let's hope that is true for all of us.

The nurse said earlier that I should wait 24 hours and call them at 10am tomorrow to discuss the next step if nothing is happening still, I headed out to the shops and for a coffee with my sister this afternoon, it felt soooo good to get out the house and I started having a lot of cramps which have continued since and more bleeding so hopefully this will be it tonight!

Oh gosh that is a lot of kids to buy for, still plenty of time don't worry, the biggest problem is that the shops generally get ridiculously busy from now, even on weekdays! xx

No Lyndsey, I have a 7 year old son. We waited a long time to TTC so just felt heartbroken thinking it had happened and that not being the case. Onto month 7 of trying, we will get our baby! I'm sure time will be a healer, it's getting better all the time. I hope you're feeling the same! I'm glad you got out with your sister and feel better. I hope things progressed overnight xx

 

[Eryinera]

I hope everyone is doing OK. I think my mc is now at can end. I feel a bit lost on this site at the moment I don't really know where I belong. My mc is over I guess and I'm feeling OK about it. I don't feel like I belong in ltttc as I keep getting pregnant. I'm not in secondary infertility. I wish there was a more active recurrent miscarriage area as I know I don't fancy going into tri 1 again. I dunno. I'll stick to me journal. Ive got the dentist very soon. Got a killer headache.

 

[BunnyN]

I hope something happens for you Lyndsey.

I haven't done my competition scan yet. I am actually thinking its not all over. Despite all the bleeding I dont think I passed a sac or anything. Bleeding is light now and nothing much seemed to be happening but today I started getting really crampy again.

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

I know what you mean about not belonging. I'm still pregnant so can't go to ttc I've not lost it yet so don't really belong here and tri1 I don't feel I belong there either as I know soon my baby will be gone. So where do I go?
This whole thing sucks and am sorry we all have to go through it xxx

 

[millielaura]

Can I come in here? Lost baby today at 12+2 so heartbroken xx

 

[BunnyN]

Can I come in here? Lost baby today at 12+2 so heartbroken xx

So sorry to see you here. I had hoped I would be the last to bring bad news to the June mummies. A loss at any stage is awful but just after 12 weeks seems cruel .