Thank you so much xxx
I don't think he actually realises how much it is going to take out of me emotionally and how the drugs will probably make me feel physically ill. For me, it starts the day of the scratch as that's gearing my body up for it. And we are going to be spending money on the optional extras so can't really afford to go to a party that I absolutely do not want to go to anyway. I think he thinks, "ooo, party" and then has a very one-track mind. He doesn't think of the consequences or what other people may want and if we had kids then he wouldn't just be able to go out like that. In that respect, he is very immature and likes to think he's still 18.
But that's enough of my moaning. I can't stop him going. X