June mummies loss thread

[Eryinera]

I'm sorry bunny x milestones are hard I've not been counting but I'm fairly sure I would have been around 13 weeks. I hope it's all over soon in the nicest possible way x x

 

[BunnyN]

Thanks, its hard for me to forget because I know my week changed on Wednesdays and it was less than 2weeks ago we found out. As far as dates go I think the only one that will be harder is my due date. Yesterday I felt pretty rubbish but today was better. It was the first time I've been out of the house which was nice. Except for going to get blood tests Monday.

 

[Eryinera]

Getting out the house helps. I've felt miles better since going out and about. The due date will be hard fortunately I have my wedding to distract me but I'm sure I'll still be thinking about things.

 

[BunnyN]

Yeh it did help. Not that I was up to much but just getting out of the house was nice. I went to my parents where I ended up so tired I fell asleep on their couch then we did a quick shop at the supermarket. I was so tired after that that I came home and fell asleep on the couch, lol. Still a week ago I was that tired just getting to the bathroom and back.

 

[BunnyN]

How are you ladies all doing? I'm feeling much stronger physically. I still need a lot of rest but I can cope with doing some normal stuff which is great. Who would have thought laundry and dishes could be a treat! Emotionally I'm improving too. I still have bad moments but went a whole day without crying yesterday!

Is anyone TTC again yet?

 

[Eryinera]

That's good bunny..I've still only shed a few tears and mostly coz oh want's to wait til I have some results to ttc I do sorta feel wrong about it. But I guess it's just coz I've already done this 3 times alreay? Believe me I'm ready to ttc so if your ready go for it. But oh is right they have found issues with my heart which I convinced myself they wouldn't but so far it's all unexplained and not too severe. I too dud laundry today it felt good i had to have a break when hb went to over 145 but least it wasn't nearly 160 like last week. When I first got out of hospital I couldn't even wash the dishes so I know how your feeling even if our causes are different! All progress is good! And had more wobbles in evening but asprin seems to help even if it us just psychological! Hope everyone else is getting on OK.

 

[millielaura]

I'm ttc again but showing no signs of oving now. Had ewcm after bleed first stopped and thought that was it but neg opks and all twinges and ewcm gone. Boooo lol! Xx

 

[BunnyN]

I got a BFN thismorning! Well actually it was more like a squinter but close enough. Its what my tests looked like 8dpo and I spent so much time squinting at them but didnt call it a BFP until 9dpo. I thought I'd feel a bit sad about a BFN but its just a huge relief. They were still a glaring positive 3 or 4 days ago when I last tested.

I hope your TTC goes well millielaura. Its nice to see things getting back to some kind of 'normal' from our group. We had a talk about TTC yesterday. OH still finds it a bit of a raw subject so we haven't decided anything yet but I think we are feeling more positive about it.

 

[Louloubelle84]

Hey Bunny. I felt the same when I got my negative hpt. Relief. My friends were worried it would make me devastated all over gain but I felt relieved my body was doing what it was meant to do and I could get back to ttc.

My cousin has announced on FB that he and his gf are having a baby. Great news and very happy for them. But their baby is due in June. Soon as I read it had a stabbing pain in my heart. Went as soon as it came, but just why oh why does it have to be a June baby? I know I sound sooooo terrible don't I? I genuinely love to hear of people having babies I think it's an amazing gift. It's not a jealousy thing. Just a painful reminder.

Good luck with ur ttc millie! Xx

 

[BunnyN]

I'd feel the same about a June baby Louloubelle. Thankfully I dont think I've got any friends or family due any time around then. After my 1st loss I cried every time I saw a pregnant woman or baby. I've not been like tha this time maybe becauase we have two wonderful LOs of our own and they are a great distraction and comfort for me. This time I'm mostly okay with pregnancy and baby related stuff but a June baby would be a bit hard to swallow.

 

[Redhead]

Hey Ladies,

Sorry ive been a bit quiet, ive just tried to stay away from the forum while i get myself together a bit more, feeling more 'normal' these days thankfully.
How is everyone else?

xxx

 

[Redhead]

Louloubelle id feel completely the same, id be crushed, so dont feel guilty, its not that you arent happy for them, its a personal feeling to do with your circumstances, which is totally understandable.

Bunny - glad you got your bfn (Bit weird to say that but i hope you know what i mean!) Hope you are doing ok xx

 

[Eryinera]

Oh yay congrats bunny lol. See knew it would happen quick! I saw a baby at work today. It didn't cut me up i was surprised. Everyone knows I mc even done who didn't low I was pregnant it's weird. I just change the subject but it's not bothering me which is good. I think the fact there is no June babies is better 1st time I mc my friend and my cousin announced they were due in same month I was due.

 

[snowbee]

I'm also dreading hearing a June baby being announced. Sounds awful but I'll be less upset if they are May or July ones! Stupid really.

We are ttc again but I've still not ovd and I'm over 8 weeks since mc now. I'm hoping to see AF asap as we can start clomid cycle 1 then. And I would love a Christmas bfp (who wouldn't!?).

 

[BunnyN]

I got bloods done today my hcg was 16.5 so not quite negative but I'm happy with that.

 

[Eryinera]

Oh nearly!! you overtook me lol. I'm going back to donate to vampires again today to see if they have dropped from 37. I think they will have.

 

[LyndseyB]

Oh ladies I've got 3 friends due in June, I had a proper breakdown when I found out as I hadn't seen it coming. I have very few friends with babies so I felt like it was a very unfair time for 3 to be announced!
And in the same breath I am genuinely happy for them, actually I think one of them is due v late May but because it's the same week I was due, that was enough to hurt too much.

Not sure my body is ready to ttc yet, if I only physically miscarried on 23rd, still bleeding but getting a bfn should I be good to go soon? Glad you are trying again Millie and I have everything crossed for a Christmas bfp.
My mother in law asked me the other day if there was anything I really wanted for Christmas and my brain instantly said 'a baby please' my in laws know nothing of the pregnancy or miscarriage so I had to pop that thought bubble very quickly!

So glad to hear that everyone is starting to feel better and long may it continue to get easier for us all xx

 

[snowbee]

Oh Lyndsey that must have really hurt to find so many June due dates in your group of friends. It is awful isn't it with the mixed emotions. With our mc last year we found out shortly afterwards my husbands best friend was having a baby with the same due date as we would have been. It is so hard seeing what they have but we lost and it is going to be a reminder forever.

 

[LyndseyB]

Oh snowbee that sounds very difficult also, especially being the same date and someone so close. Do they know about your mc? One of the announcements was also my husbands best friend but they are due 3 weeks later which makes it a bit easier, I'm now just hoping were not too far behind them but only time will tell!

 

[Eryinera]

It's so hard especially when you see the little one every day. But it's 2 years on for me and now they don't have cute baby but disobedient toddler it's easier but I still wonder what mine would have been like. I'm so convinced she's about to announce her 4th due in June I just have this feeling I keep hoping she's just gained weight lol esp coz she said she didn't want a 4th. Im glad I have my 1 so thankful but I really want my 2nd I don't want my son to be an only child 2 out of the 3 due on my first mcs due date knew about my mc but the one I see everyday didn't know I was just about to tell her when she announced. In the exact same way and same day as I would have done. It was too raw to tell her. I just burst into tears and literally ran away. Thankfully my oh covered for me and no one found out he just said I had to take a phone call.