it’s just terrifying me all the time but I’m trying not to crawl into a little ball and sob about it every day. Made it to over 30 weeks, hoping to get to another week! Xx
she definitely has a great chance being born at this stage. She would probably be in neonatal care for 6-8 weeks though. I’m just hoping to get to 34 weeks, 32 at the very earliest! I’m feeling more organised now if she decides to come. My mum has all my teeny baby things so she’ll wash them as soon as needed. She’s knit some teeny hats and cardigans too. I’ve still got bigger bits to sort like the pram and buggy board, my sister is still using my crib for her little girl, but I won’t need them for a while so hopefully have time even if baby arrives to get those sorted! Christmas wrapping next xx
31 weeks tomorrow and we’re still holding on. My fluid levels have dropped even further but baby still happy in there, no infection or signs of labour. Just counting each day down as a blessing! 3 more weeks and we’ll be at our target of 34 weeks xx
on Thursday late afternoon I went to the toilet and was covered in blood. The hospital told me to come straight in, where they examined me and thankfully my cervix was still closed and baby seemed happy on the trace. They said I’d be kept in for observation just in case.. the just in case happened about half an hour later. Again I felt wet so I left the bed space to go to the toilet, by the time I got there the blood was soaked through my jeans and running down my legs. I had to call my husband to get the midwife. Next thing alarms are going off, doctors and midwives are in, fluids and drugs are getting put in my arm and I’m being wheeled to labour I was absolutely terrified. They said if my cervix had opened I’d need a section straight away. Things calmed down when the consultant came and examined me, my cervix was still closed and no labour was starting. My bloods were all okay and they couldn’t even find a reason for the bleeding. I’ve lost what little waters I had left amongst the bleeding. My little bump is super little now! I’m still in hospital and possibly getting home over the weekend if nothing drastic changes. The bleeding has slowed and is now pink, still no labour signs or any infection starting. If I wasn’t anxious before I now feel like I could explode with worry. Still desperately hoping we can get to 34 weeks but it’s feeling like a very far reach now!
it’s Graysons birthday on Thursday too!
the consultant thinks it could be coming from my placenta now. I’ve to go back in tomorrow and Tuesday for more checks. Scan on Tuesday which will hopefully tell us more. If it is the placenta then baby could be here within the week. I’m really heartbroken and praying it’s better news. But I’ve been losing waters for 24 days and bleeding for 10. I know we can’t be left like this. I’m just crossing everything we get to have Christmas first! xxx
