yep im hooked [updated with pics iv put on weight!]

[mrs_tommo22]

thanks for all ur support everyone

not received any letter yet. do u think i should fone HV?

its mad how sometimes ill look at myself and see fat- and other times ill see skinny! i havent weighed myself for at least a week now and im rele worried i dont wanna be over 7st i bet i am tho iv been eating lots! im tryna make an effort for ma boi and our little girl. its hard tho if it wasnt for them i'd be nowhere near this heavy!

But eating a lot is fantastic - your doing fab hun and no way are you heavy - im sure the few pounds you have put on youl look great.

you should post a pic!

 

[Squiglet]

thanks for all ur support everyone

not received any letter yet. do u think i should fone HV?

its mad how sometimes ill look at myself and see fat- and other times ill see skinny! i havent weighed myself for at least a week now and im rele worried i dont wanna be over 7st i bet i am tho iv been eating lots! im tryna make an effort for ma boi and our little girl. its hard tho if it wasnt for them i'd be nowhere near this heavy!

Don't weigh yourself.... scales are dangerous.... get rid of them... Just think about your lil girl ...

 

[trixipaws]

got the letter today, so can make progress.

idk if u read my post about my dad but he had a mini-stroke last nite. he mentioned today that he has been feeling stressed about me and my sister- i feel its all my fault- i could split up my parents, i could split up me and my boyf- melissa's parents- and i could kill my dad over this

feel a bit numb really. really stressed. my boyf and i had a row yesterday he called me a bitch but he's been wonderful today when i found out about my dad, gave me lots of much needed cuddles etc.

am at my folks' now just popped on to say this will be back later hopefully. *sigh* gimme strength!

 

[Eveadel]

Hiya

Ive only just seen this thread. I wanted to send your way. Ive always had abit of an issue with my weight and was always the skinniest of my friends but once I had Isabella I couldnt shift the baby weight. Im now officially back to pre-pregnancy.

I hope your referral doesnt take to long and get the help that you need

 

[fran_23]

got the letter today, so can make progress.

idk if u read my post about my dad but he had a mini-stroke last nite. he mentioned today that he has been feeling stressed about me and my sister- i feel its all my fault- i could split up my parents, i could split up me and my boyf- melissa's parents- and i could kill my dad over this

feel a bit numb really. really stressed. my boyf and i had a row yesterday he called me a bitch but he's been wonderful today when i found out about my dad, gave me lots of much needed cuddles etc.

am at my folks' now just popped on to say this will be back later hopefully. *sigh* gimme strength!

oh i'm so sorry about your dad hun- please don't blame yourself!
you have the motive and opportunity to turn it all around- your not going to split anyone up- don't let this set you back let it be your motivation..be strong glad you got your referral letter!
xx

 

[trixipaws]

i foned the number on the letter, was told it would take SIX TO EIGHT WEEKS for the appointment! dont kno what to be doing in the mean-time! just hope it dont create even more destructiveness around me

 

[Eveadel]

Have you thought about taken some form of herbal help like Kalms, etc which might help with the worry about everything?

 

[Red_Fairy]

Ive hardly ever posted in this section, as i always just forget about it, but i have been aware for a while you've been having it rough Trix
Im crap at giving any advice on this subject, as i really have no experiece at all (me or anyone ive known)

All i wanna say is your amazing, and your doing the right thing. It sounds like it's gonna take a while, but just hang on in there 6 weeks will fly by if ya keep your self busy

 

[trixipaws]

im tryna think positive today. while i cant simply make myself eat more, the will is there- i just need help to do it but i INTEND to eat better. im not at the moment only because i cant. but i am trying. iv had breakfast and lunch today (cereal both times- that yummy golden syrup instant porridge!) and iv had no sweets. so not too bad!

i weighed myself too this morning- after i'd drunk 2 or 3 cups of tea to (volume would weigh at least one pound.) and i was dreading it tbh- i thought i'd piled on loadsa weight coz iv been eating more- i was expecting to be about 105 pounds (7 and half st) but im only 99 pounds (just over 7st) so i havent put on that much- just goes to show i can eat normally and not become fat!

a bit frustrated with myself coz i cant snap out of this myself. it annoys me that i cant just stop this myself- its so destructive to those around me so i want badly to just STOP IT! but i cant why not

oh well. hopefully someday in not-too-distant future all this will be behind us!

 

[zebrastripes]

im tryna think positive today. while i cant simply make myself eat more, the will is there- i just need help to do it but i INTEND to eat better. im not at the moment only because i cant. but i am trying. iv had breakfast and lunch today (cereal both times- that yummy golden syrup instant porridge!) and iv had no sweets. so not too bad!

i weighed myself too this morning- after i'd drunk 2 or 3 cups of tea to (volume would weigh at least one pound.) and i was dreading it tbh- i thought i'd piled on loadsa weight coz iv been eating more- i was expecting to be about 105 pounds (7 and half st) but im only 99 pounds (just over 7st) so i havent put on that much- just goes to show i can eat normally and not become fat!

a bit frustrated with myself coz i cant snap out of this myself. it annoys me that i cant just stop this myself- its so destructive to those around me so i want badly to just STOP IT! but i cant why not

oh well. hopefully someday in not-too-distant future all this will be behind us!

trix, you are doing really, really well. Just take it slowly and don't push yourself too much, getting better will be a gradual and delicate process. don't get frustrated with yourself, you are doing wonderfully

 

[monster_munch]

It's hard, really hard and it's a slow slow road as well
Wish I had a magic word that would solve all youir problems, but I would say as I did in my thread to you and as Squig has said - get rid of your scales - it took me a long time to get the strenght to get rid of mine, but when they are not there you begin to slowly forget about what number you are at, weight-wise. I was obsessed with my scales, even weighing myself before and after going to the loo (1's and 2's ) just to see the difference it made and it I could get closer to whatever number I was aiming for at the time.
It doesn't seem like you are ready to be parted from your scales as you seem to be like I was and weighing yourself at every opportunity but please consider it, or even try going a few days without stepping on them

 

[valentine]

Hi trixipaws,

How are you doing sweetie? How are things going with eating and wwith weighing yourself? I am thinking of you.

Valentine Xxx

 

[Dee1985]

Hi , Hun i have not read through all the posts but its good you notice there is a problem. I have always batteled with my weight when im happy and content i eat and its fine but the moment i am upset or angry i starve myself sometimes for days and days.
Me and Kris went thoruhg a real bad patch at the begining of the year i remeber going 7 days with out eating 1 thing not a drop of food i was so away with it i didnt even realise untill i started seeing speckles of glitter at everything i looked at. i was hooked on slimming pills i lost 2st in a few months and the buz i got every time i stood on the scales was addictive i am not underweight though i am 8.13 which is fine for me as im medium build and 5.4 but i still do find it hard to not take slimming pills but i am happy again now and eating more i still dont eat normal but its better then nothing. but the fear of gaining weight is hard to overcome!

Your not alone its an illness i will try and reread all the posts and catch up on how your getting on

 

[Eveadel]

Hi , Hun i have not read through all the posts but its good you notice there is a problem. I have always batteled with my weight when im happy and content i eat and its fine but the moment i am upset or angry i starve myself sometimes for days and days.
Me and Kris went thoruhg a real bad patch at the begining of the year i remeber going 7 days with out eating 1 thing not a drop of food i was so away with it i didnt even realise untill i started seeing speckles of glitter at everything i looked at. i was hooked on slimming pills i lost 2st in a few months and the buz i got every time i stood on the scales was addictive i am not underweight though i am 8.13 which is fine for me as im medium build and 5.4 but i still do find it hard to not take slimming pills but i am happy again now and eating more i still dont eat normal but its better then nothing. but the fear of gaining weight is hard to overcome!

Your not alone its an illness i will try and reread all the posts and catch up on how your getting on

Hi Dionne

Great to see you back.

Sorry to hear you went through a rough patch but have come out ok the other side. R you and Kris ok now?

Hows the kids?

 

[Sherlock]

Hey trix

I've caught up on things with you and so pleased you are taking steps forward and doing well Porridge is scrummy and a really good slow release energy food. Just what you need! Glad you are liking it.

Don't give up on the referral. I know its a while away but it soon passes and you have people here who will help support you and keep you going till then (and beyond).

Anytime you want to drop me a PM feel free. I'm always happy to lend an ear or a shoulder

 

[Lou]

I hope you get the help you need soon. I've had weight problems most of my adult life so feel free to pm me if you want a chat or a shoulder

 

[Tillytots]

hey Trix

I havent read through the whole thread but welldone hunni for taking steps in getting help.

I have been where you are now. Losing weight IS addictive. I lost 4stone a few years ago and once I hit 7 and half stone where I wanted to be I just kept going and got down to 6 stone 9. I was skeletal To me though I couldnt see it No matter what anyone told me Id still think I could do with losing a few more pounds and wouldnt dare eat more because I didnt want to be fat. In reality I was no-where near fat! The only thing I did notice was that I was covered in bruises all over my body. I also had bruised hip bones where Id constantly bang them because they stuck out so much The time came when I tried to get pregnant and I just couldnt. My body was in such a state that I couldnt concieve. I wanted a baby so much so I ate. I got to 8 and half stone and got my BFP! I piled the weight on when I was preggo.....up to 13 and half stone Ive now got just under 3 and a half to lose to be 7 and half again and this time I will try to stop when I can fit into my clothes. Watch this space.

Good luck hun, I know its hard to break this habit youve got into because to you it feels like you're undoing all the hard work you've done. You'll look a million times hotter than you think you will when you put on a few pounds babe xxx

 

[mamichuli]

Aww Trix, well done! I hadnt seen this thread but have read thru it and wanted to say how proud I am of you! You are really making progress, and I bet you are looking lovely with a bit more weight...I dont know what I can say to make you feel better about yourself, but you are a GREAT MUM and you are doing the best thing for your daughter by seeking help



A few more hugs for yr collection

Lisa

 

[trixipaws]

well, iv been on and off, some days iv been good and eaten rele well but other days iv just been terrible and had no meals at all but eaten crap and stuff; i think iv put on loads of weight i feel like i have and it makes me feel panicky tbh i kno it shouldnt.

i havent weighed myself since melissa's birthday week when i was 99lbs (7st) and part of me dont want to coz ill just feel soooooooooo rubbish if its gone up until i get this counselling thing sorted out- but part of me is itching to do it- just so i know- what do u think should i do it?! or should i stay away from the scale?!

 

[Sherlock]

Stay off of them.

I'd go one step further and say throw them out altogether. Awful things as tbh they never really give a correct weight as it can fluctuate by 2lb on any given day. Nothing to do with weight loss or gain there, just how are bodies are. So weighing daily is a futile thing.