Guess I belong here for now

[broody2013]

Aww sweetie I would ignore you mum she doesn't realise how much you loved this baby and how hard you fought for it. Oh dear I've started crying for you sweetie it's so horrible that you have to go through this and I am so so hopeful that you won't be TTC very long at all. It's a baby, you need time to grieve, please try to forget about what your mum said, she probably doesn't even realise how hurtful it was. Xxxxxx

 

[Blackcat]

Clover, we're all just a bunch of cells x

 

[Jellybean34]

Hugs Gail, so sorry that this is the end for this little bean, hoping Thursday brings some healing and closure and Friday is the start of something new. You'll never forget this baby and neither will other people's opinions on it change its importance to you.

Will be thinking of you. Xxx

 

[Clover]

Morning girls
I've been feeling really down the past few days, and the kick in the teeth is that my pregnancy symptoms have been increasing, have felt really nauseaus the past few mornings and so tired, boobs have been really sore too, I know my hormones must still be rising or at least staying the same
I wouldn't mind the symptoms if it was for a good reason
Shouldn't moan lol

Thanks for all you kind words, I know my mum didn't mean to upset me I'm just a bit sensitive at the moment I think

Big hugs to you all

xxxxxx

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[J9nine]

It's so weird that you feel that way but have nothing show on the scans. Do the drs talk about HCG levels in your situation and why they could be rising?

I so want this to end up as a happy ending that I am clutching at straws and hoping the drs are wrong! I am sure you must be feeling it to the nth degree!!

x

 

[Clover]

Hey Janine
My scans show a 5/6 week pregnancy I should be 10 weeks today, it has grown every week but only by a millimeter so in a way I'm still pregnant but because it's not developing it's not viable ...my hormones are still high as I did a Digi the other day and it was 3+

I know they can't be wrong, I know it's over but thanks for the positivity my lovely
You have been a great friend

xxxxxxx


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[J9nine]

So sad, big hugs sweetie xx

 

[Gem892]

Hi Clover,
I'm so sorry for the difficult time you are going through. I have been watching your story for a while as it is very similar to mine, minus the spotting. I was so touched by you that I actually re requested my password so I could log in and actually post!! Lol.
I had medical management in October last year following a missed miscarriage of 6.5 weeks at 9.5 weeks. I know that lots of people say the medical is great and the way forward but I would not recommed it. For me it was full blown labour at home with little pain relief. In America they admit you and give you pethadine and Gas and air. I wish I had had surgical.
For me it was important in my grieving process to remember my pregnancy was a baby. We called it peanut and myself and my husband even had a remembrance service in the garden. May sound mad but we needed to actually say goodbye. I also referred to my miscarriage as the loss of my baby, as that's what it was. I realise you mum was trying to be helpful but I felt I had to say goodbye to someone, not a bunch of cells. I think being allowed to grieve properly actually made the grieving easier and less confusing.
On a positive note I'm now pregnant again and it's been really hard as I was always waiting for it to go wrong but up to now we are ok! Fingers crossed for you in what ever you choose to do. Sorry for the rant but I've been wanting to post to you for ages, but lost my password!! Big hugs xx

 

[Clover]

Hi Gem
Thanks so much for taking the time to change your password and log on so you could post on my thread, I'm very hounored!
I'm glad you've shared your story, I'm so sorry you had to go though the trauma of medical management , I've heard really bad things about the effects of the tablets they give you, one of my colleagues daughter had a very bad experience, she had really bad contractions, and had a hemorrhage at home she was rushed into hospital had to have a blood transfusion and Surgical management as there were still retained products, but it took them 5 days to get her to theatre so ended up getting an infection too and was on Iv antibiotics
So I really didn't want to go down that route even though the nurse tried to pursuade me that was the best option

I'm really glad you're pregnant again, it really gives me hope, the past few weeks I've been considering giving up TTC, but the urge to have another baby is so strong, I wish in a way I could just switch off and not want to have another but I just can't

Thanks for being so kind hun, I can't believe the amazing support I've had on here I am so grateful

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[Demerera]

I agree, I had medical management once and won't do that again... They give you anti sickness tablets but when they wear off its another kick in the teeth feeling so sick, on top of the heavy cramping...

Are you all set for the op tomorrow Gail? Have Thursday in my head, hope I've got the right day!! I'll be thinking of you loads. Do you know what time it is? Take some trashy magazines as there's lots of hanging around... And you can't eat which is rubbish... Will be so good to hear you're out the other side... Massive hugs hugs lovely X X X X X

 

[Clover]

Hey Becky
Yeah its tomorrow afternoon, so have to fast I can eat up to 7.30am and drink water up to 10.30am
I will download a book to my kindle to read, my hubby and Mil coming with me but don't know how long they will be able to stay with me?

I'm just going to go in the bath and get clean and shaved ready for the op, funny how I'm concerned about my bikini line!!!

Really nervous

xxxxxxx

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[scn]

Will be thinking of you tomorrow. I wasn't allowed anyone to stay with me, drop off and pick up only. Hope it's different where you are as I really could have done with the support xx

 

[Clover]

I think I may of just passed my baby

xxxx



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[Charlotte9]

Gail, what happened???? Are you ok? x

 

[Clover]

I've just been to the loo and wiped there was a large clot shaped like a sac and lots of blood
I'm cramping a bit bit not much
I'm supposed to be picking my daughter up from work in an hour

I've kept it wrapped in tissue

xxxxx

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[MrsS15]

Oh Gail, that's sounding likely. You've done the right thing keeping what you passed. Are you okay? (As okay as can be) xx

 

[Charlotte9]

Oh Gail, sweetie. May be that was the moment and the sac is now out? (((((

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[Demerera]

Aw Gail... What timing! How's the bleeding? There will be quite a lot of clots if you are mcing... Are the cramps quite strong? Can anyone help and get your daughter for you? X X X

 

[Clover]

I've no cramping now, and ive only passed one clot, so I may not have passed it yet
I'm not sure
I'm going to ring EPU in the morning to see what they say

I feel well enough to go get her
Hubby has had half a bottle of vodka so he can't drive

xxxxxx

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[Demerera]

Might be the start of it hun, though I would think you'd have heavy cramps before it comes on properly... It might be that it holds off until you can have the op tomorrow, not sure what you'd rather...

Tell you hubby to stop drinking now, you may need some support in the night!! Bless you, it's awful not knowing... Can't wait for tomorrow to be over....

X X X X