Hi ladies,
It’s lovely to see all of your updates on here, but my thoughts are with you ladies who have lost your babies
It’s been a bit up and down for us for the last couple of weeks. I started bleeding last Thursday (20th), so went straight to the Early Pregnancy Clinic. They scanned me and said all looks well, however I am looking like I’m earlier than we thought, approx 5-5.5 weeks. They couldn’t see a baby, but could see everything before it all develops into a baby - sorry I’m not too confident with the medical terms of everything lol! They were all very happy and confident that everything was fine, and the bleeding is just baby settling in or something like that. They’ve booked me in for another scan on the 3rd January just to make sure everything is ok, however we do have a private scan booked on the 30th December which we are still going to.
I have been an absolute mess if I’m honest. The bleeding stopped a couple of days ago, but I can’t help but feel like we have lost our baby. We had a missed miscarriage in October and the bleeding looks similar to then. I’m trying to come to terms with the fact we’ve lost the baby before the scans so that I’m as emotionally prepared as I can, but it’s just so hard! I feel like I’m never going to have a baby, and maybe it’s just not meant for us.
Sorry for the huge message ladies (especially on Christmas Eve!) but it’s just the only place I feel I can really rant.
I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas xxx