Oh my god night feeds are killing me. The day was a total disaster, for whatever reason (I think her lady bits were a bit infected or thrushy) she just would not settle to feed. So she was screaming and crying, thrashing her body around and me and her are naked doing skin to skin in bed, her thrashing around got so violent that at three days old she knocked off her umbilical stump and instantly blood poured from it so now I'm inconsolably crying as well (fortunately OH was in the room to try and calm the situation). We applied pressure and called the midwife who said To call my GP. Meanwhile Ivy is screaming her head off and had instantly wet herself in panic too and I'm crying that I think she is dying when in actual fact the blood stopped after the initial gush. The car journey to theGP got her quiet but when we get there they are closed for lunch. I manage to do a sort of half feed in th car while we wait for them to reopen. While there an feeding support worker calls me as midwife has asked her to call me and she says can she come out to see me today so I say yes please after we see the doctor. Dr says everything is fine and calms me down a bit as I explain baby blues have set in big time.
So get back home and feeding lady arrives and is a godsend. She properly explains all the stages of Breast feeding so I know exactly what stage she has reached in the feed and she helps me optimise my attachment. She watched a whole feed on one side and was just so nice. When she left I did a good feed from the other side and Ivy then slept for three hours. Then I did another good feed later on too.
However the middle of the night is a problem, basically she just seems to want to feed co to help from 1 til 5 and it's killing me! But I think I might be going about it wrong. I've been trying to do it in bed so I can get it done in comfort and fall back asleep myself after. But I think the answer is I need to go to the living room and watch something to keep me properly awake so the feed is done properly and just accept that I can't be sleepy myself in those hours or I don't give her all my attention.
So that's where I am. Difficult day but trying to stay positive! How are you doing goat? X