Rose, honestly like the others have said you're doing so well and if it's any help at all it sounds like what you're going through is all normal. The night times always seem to be the worst because I think we're so exhausted and don't have the energy to stay awake. For the first two weeks I just camped out in the living room so that I ciuld watch tv and stay awake as I was so tired and due to section I couldn't lie down and feed her. But it kept me sane in all honesty, I didn't feel lonely and I wasn't clock watching. I promise it gets better it just takes a little while, I would say a good 6-7 weeks for them to go much longer between feeds but they're all different. But the cluster feeding can be so draining so make sure you stock up on water and snacks. If you find she's getting gassy take a look at your diet as my kids were sensitive to gassy vegetables, chocolate and spicy food, gave them awful trapped wind.
You're honestly doing so well!
HD yes that's normal! I remember thinking my boobs were broken when that happened.
I wonder how newmom is doing!!
Merry Christmas ladies, new babies and bumps! Hope you all have a happy and merry one!xxx