Ttc shit boat - long term ttcers

[snowbee]

Hmm my opk today is not quite as dark as yesterday. And I've got brown spotting. Not sure what that is all about, I think there is too much for it to be bleeding for ov.

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm sorry I so hope its ov bleeding. Sometimes I've had that.. just started a reallyy light brown af around when ov was meant to be/just after. Driives me insane as ive also had midcycle spotting that was just random and meant nothing so never know what to think. Hopefully its ov spotting for you espesh if your opk was nearly positive xxxx

 

[Bridger]

I'm still here...Trying to keep a low profile of late though and not checking forums or nasty google so much lately as struggling a bit at the mo. My friend had a baby last week, my sister in law is due any day, and I've heard two more pregnancy announcements in the last two days...so unfair

 

[millielaura]

So sorry Bridger its so crap hearing announcements! Xx

 

[snowbee]

So randomly I seem to be CD1 today. Bizarre as I was sure I was about to ov this weekend, had a nearly pos opk and ewcm and hadn't had a positive opk beforehand and I started testing as soon as af finished. Oh well, at least it gives me a nearly normal cycle length of 25 days. No 2015 baby for us

 

[millielaura]

Oh I'm so sorry about it being CD1 its so frustrating when that happens and you think youve just ovd then AF comes!
Fingers crossed for a new year baby xxx

 

[Bridger]

Thank you Millie...the green eyed monster us awful!

Sorry for CD1 Snowbee, but as you say on the upside a better cycle length. I'm CD9 and no 2015 baby for me either, sucks doesn't it?!

 

[millielaura]

It is isn't it! I always feel so jealous seeing facebook announcements!!

Xx

 

[Bridger]

Make that 3 announcements in 3 days...I really need to stay away from Facebook!

 

[millielaura]

Oh gosh thats horrid. I always want to hide people from my feed when they announce but then I can't help fb stalking them and wishing it was me too haha! Xx

 

[Bridger]

I so know what you mean...really glad I'm not the only one lol! x

 

[Sugarpop]

My usual response is "not again" or "f**k sake". I sound horrid!

 

[Bridger]

No you don't Sugarpop...just remember we're all out there thinking the same! x

 

[millielaura]

You don't sound horrid sugarpop, we def all think the same xxxx

A guy at OH's work announced his gf is pregnant and when OH told me I cried and said I hated him and I've not even met him lmao. It's so weird I don't get like that about people on the forum, i'm really happy for them espech ltttc's but if its anyone I hear of in real life I feel mad lol! I shouldn't be so horrible but its hard not to be mega jealous!
OH's friend.. bam straight after trying first time on honeymoon.. he and his wife were preg. They've now had the baby and the friend writes some really horrid (in my opinion) status's complaining about the baby. Makes me mad and I refuse to go anywhere he is now lol! Xx

 

[Blueflower]

I'm still here too. Yesterday I found out my neighbour is pregnant with her 2nd, the first was a surprise and they were going to move house but decided to have a baby instead and hey presto they have one. It was awful because I was looking at what I thought was a scan of their son but turned out to be a new baby. It was the same date I was having my egg collection, drugged and sore but full of hope. But it didn't even work and she is already20 weeks. All my positivity and non envy just dissolved. Its crap. Why can some people just get pregnant but we can't? What have we done wrong?

I'm not usually like this but I 'm definitely in the shit boat at the moment.

 

[Bridger]

Really sorry to hear that BlueFlower. Easter is clearly the season for everyone else's pregnancy announcements...if only it would happen for the residents of this boat

 

[Bethyboo87]

I always check in on you guys still... hope you don't mind me commenting. Lots of love and positive vibes your way xx

 

[FBTTN8079]

I'm still here too. Yesterday I found out my neighbour is pregnant with her 2nd, the first was a surprise and they were going to move house but decided to have a baby instead and hey presto they have one. It was awful because I was looking at what I thought was a scan of their son but turned out to be a new baby. It was the same date I was having my egg collection, drugged and sore but full of hope. But it didn't even work and she is already20 weeks. All my positivity and non envy just dissolved. Its crap. Why can some people just get pregnant but we can't? What have we done wrong?

I'm not usually like this but I 'm definitely in the shit boat at the moment.

Oh honey I'm so sorry and what a crap way to find out too it's so damn hard isn't it ! I was the same when I found out my SIL was accidentally pregnant and it happened same time as our treatment ! MIL told her the baby had been given to the wrong person!

It seems so easy for some people it's so hard to get our heads around that for sure and your good people and deserve it so much, it's hard to hold positivity when everything comes from all directions knocking you back but hold onto that positivity as much as you can, it will happen, it has to happen and we won't accept any other option x. Big hugs sweetie x x

 

[Blueflower]

Thanks! That's funny what your MIL said! How did your SIL take it?! I felt the same when I found out about their first one, we'd been trying for a year, married for 2 & nearly finished our house whereas they'd only just got married, moved house and wanted some time on their own first. And that time I found out whilst trying not to cry in the doctors waiting room after being handed a leaflet on infertility only to hear her make a midwife appointment!

Maybe in the future if we do finally get our family we will be happier than them? We will definitely be more grateful!

 

[millielaura]

I often think that too Blueflower

I wonder whether people who struggle make more patient and happier parents? I did read a blog post once and the woman had 3 kids after struggling to conceive her first child and she said whenever she feels herself getting annoyed at all the mess/the children not listening she closes her eyes and thinks of how much she dreamt and prayed for this. And said she doesn't know how people who didn't suffer from infertility cope with parenthood haha as thats the only thing that keeps her sane sometimes is appreciating how lucky she is and how she once felt not having a child. I do think this has all made me a lot more appreciative and patient in general. I think it is true that the more you fight for something the more you appreciate it and are happier when you get it. If I had fallen pregnant straight away I know I would of complained about feeling rubbish etc and stressed about all the things we need to buy etc and now I couldn't care less lol I'm going to be a much happier person in general once I'm pregnant and have a baby I think! Xx