Ttc shit boat - long term ttcers

[Dee28]

Ooh millielaura, exciting! How many dpo are you? X

 

[millielaura]

I'm not entirely sure haha af was due anytime between sat gone and this thurs so going in the middle with 14dpo xxx

 

[Dee28]

I just saw your line spot post, it's VERY clear! Congratulations!! Xx

 

[mylullaby]

Think it's time I joined you ladies now I'm in my 15th pill-free cycle. Have a docs appointment next week to talk about tests. Never thought it would come to this. Feeling a bit down if I'm honest.

Haven't talked to anyone other than DH about ttc (although no-one would be surprised if we said we were trying) - I'm quite a private person and would only talk to my closest friends and family about it, but they've all fallen pregnant either quickly or accidentally. I don't think they'd understand. Not really sure what I'd want them to understand. Not sure how I feel myself most of the time - never mind expecting someone else to figure it out! I've kinda stopped talking to DH about things really too if I'm honest. It was easier at the start when he was full of optimism and a casual "it will happen when it happens..." outlook, but I'm struggling with seeing his disappointment every month now that he's realised that not everyone gets pregnant quickly. Finding that harder and harder.

Congratulations to the recent bfps. Good to have some positive success stories floating around here. xxx

 

[snowbee]

Welcome on board mylullaby, hope your stay is a short one.

millie how exciting! Eek maybe this is the start of a mass evacuation of the wretched boat!

I'm between 11 and 7 dpo (maybe lol). I've had some brown spotting today so not sure if AF is heading my way early or what.

 

[PurpleCloud]

Welcome mylullaby. Like snowbee said, I hope your stay is short. Just know you're not alone. I'm currently in my 15th month of TTC. I have endometriosis and 3 miscarriages behind me but I'm trying to stay positive and I know my time will come. As will yours! 😊 xx

 

[mylullaby]

Thanks ladies. So sad to hear about those who've has losses Am definitely determined to stay positive but just having a bit of a needy/emotional woe-is-me moment before picking myself up, dusting myself off and cracking on with things. 10dpo today. Tested (first time I've caved and tested early in months) and bfn yesterday morning. Waiting for the witch now, due Fri/Sat. DH will be away so I'll probs stay in, drink wine and have a mope over the weekend. xx

 

[Sugarpop]

I know how you all feel. The topic of mc came up at work so I talked about mine but no one really knew what to say. Only two friends know we are trying. Most people just know I don't use contraception and it will take a miracle!

Congrats Mrs!! Hopefully there is a mass ship dive in the not so distant future for us on the shit ship

 

[millielaura]

Think I'l be doing a funny type of splits atm lol one foot in the bost still and the other nervously creeping ashore haha!! Once I'm sure I wont be having a chemical then I'm ready to jump out and capsize the boat so everyone has to leave with bfps lol!
Defo the start of a mass evacuation!

I hope the spotting isnt af coming snowbee.. hopefully could be ib? Fingers crossed
Sorry for the bfn mylullaby but you are defo not out yet!
Xxx

 

[snowbee]

It would be great it if was ib... It has pretty much gone today. I think I ovd around the 1st March, give or take a couple of days so would be about the right time? How long after would a test show positive?!

Are you saving your fmu for your frer this afternoon millie? Really good lines so far so fx it is a sticky for you!

10dpo is pretty early mylullaby so you are still in with a chance

 

[millielaura]

Ooh snowbee that sounds so promising that it was brown cm that has now gone!! . Ooh I'm not sure how quick it would show up after ib. Maybe a few days?

I used my fmu with some more cheapies. They looked the same as the ones yesterday but my darkest ones have been 3 I did around mid day yesterday. Trying not to obsess about it and just take each minute as it comes haha but hopefully I just have better levels around midday. I have heard people getting better lines with smu than fmu. I used both frers yesterday so off to get some more today and will do another with fmu tomorrow morn . Really nervous about a chemical. Especially because I blabbed to the asthma nurse about my bfp yesterday just as we where reviewing treatment and she said id have to cancel fertility appt when it came through and think she wrote it down. I don't want it cancelled if I have a chemical as my cycles are still everywhere so if it happens I think I'l be phoning the docs up begging to keep my appt. Hopefully they haven't cancelled it and when it comes through it'l either be up to me to cancel hopefully or if I did have a chemical I'd just keep appt. That is okay to do isn't it? I feel kinda bad as some people getting referred never get a hint of a line but it's just cause my cycles are so all over and because I've been told I have scar tissue from my op I mainly would want to be referred just to get everything checked. Getting ahead of myself though.. praying I don't need it anymore!

Mylullaby you are def still in as I had a total bfn on saturday xxxx

 

[snowbee]

When we had our bfp last time I hardly ever had a line with fmu, my lines were always better in the evening. I also was half way through our fertility referral when I got pg and then mc, it didn't affect it at all other than delaying some of the tests. We just picked up where we left off. You need the pregnancy 'registered' with them as you may need different tests and help with different things. You can only get mc testing done after 3 mcs here too so making sure they know about all pregnancies is quite important. Anyway enough negativity, this will be a sticky one for you millie!

I did an ic, thought I could see a hint of a line within the time but nothing there now it is dry an hour later. Poop.

 

[millielaura]

Ooh that's okay then. Well the doctor I'm now seeing is so lovely so even if they did cancel it I'm sure she'd understand and help put me through again. I had a m/c 4 years ago and then had 2 chemicals and a m/c when trying this time so I don't know if they count chemicals or anything but hopefully that added with my irreular cycles and scar tissue would mean they'd still want to see me. Hopefully I wont need to at all though but I think I am finding it difficult to be as positive as I was in the tww. Once I've got to 5 weeks I think I'l feel tons better. I don't know whether this would be relevent but when I got my day 21 progesterone my level was borderline - she said 10.2 and the level for ov was 10. Does that just indicate that last month I didn't have a great ov or does it indicate something about my progesterone levels being borderline in general? I'm pretty clueless about it but I have seen people needing progesterone in preg to prevent m/c. Not sure if thats when its reallly low though. Gonna ring docs today just to clear it up I think and might ask if they will give me a blood test. I spotted on and off loads with last preg so kinda want the bloods done before that happens? Sorry I sound like I'm being so negative about it, I am so over the moon and feeling so blessed but can't help panicking after previous losses. I defo need Marissas pregnancy audio!!

But yes haha will stop being negative now!

Ahhh sorry about your IC although reading after 10 mins could technically work the other way round surely?if you get a line thats there then goes after a while then I dunno that could be good? Anyway even if its bfn its okay because the spotting just finished so i think if youve just implanted itl take 2-3 days for the hcg to build up so I think your in with a great chance xxx

 

[lisey]

Ooh that's okay then. Well the doctor I'm now seeing is so lovely so even if they did cancel it I'm sure she'd understand and help put me through again. I had a m/c 4 years ago and then had 2 chemicals and a m/c when trying this time so I don't know if they count chemicals or anything but hopefully that added with my irreular cycles and scar tissue would mean they'd still want to see me. Hopefully I wont need to at all though but I think I am finding it difficult to be as positive as I was in the tww. Once I've got to 5 weeks I think I'l feel tons better. I don't know whether this would be relevent but when I got my day 21 progesterone my level was borderline - she said 10.2 and the level for ov was 10. Does that just indicate that last month I didn't have a great ov or does it indicate something about my progesterone levels being borderline in general? I'm pretty clueless about it but I have seen people needing progesterone in preg to prevent m/c. Not sure if thats when its reallly low though. Gonna ring docs today just to clear it up I think and might ask if they will give me a blood test. I spotted on and off loads with last preg so kinda want the bloods done before that happens? Sorry I sound like I'm being so negative about it, I am so over the moon and feeling so bles.sed but can't help panicking after previous losses. I defo need Marissas pregnancy audio!!

But yes haha will stop being negative now!

Ahhh sorry about your IC although reading after 10 mins could technically work the other way round surely?if you get a line thats there then goes after a while then I dunno that could be good? Anyway even if its bfn its okay because the spotting just finished so i think if youve just implanted itl take 2-3 days for the hcg to build up so I think your in with a great chance xxx

Was the day 21 done this cycle or last? I have had a few of them and on the paperwork it says needs to be over 30 but the fertility consultant I saw privately said anything over 16 indicates ovulation. Yours may have been by a different measurement or could have been done on the wrong day, the consultant said even a day can make a difference. Its clear you ovulated so the tests are clearly not too accurate all the time. If you are worried about progesterone (as I was) then worth asking. GPs don't tend to be that great in regards to fertility though and may fob you off. I had to go private to get a progesterone prescription as I spotted a lot between cycles. Another consultant also said that the day 21 bloods don't indicate how progesterone will be in pregnancy, its just to check ovulation so try not to worry too much xx

 

[snowbee]

I was told over 30 indicates ov and a good chance of pregnancy, over 10 indicates ov but no chance of pregnancy as the lining won't be suitable for implantation? Who knows. The best mine have been is 29 but that was done a day out due to weekends and just one day out makes a big difference to the results.

I'm spotting dark brown cm again now. Got a bit excited earlier but now it is back not so hopeful. I'm sure I didn't ov any sooner though and I'm never early with AF. Weird.

 

[millielaura]

These bloods where last cycle so I'm guessing progesterone must of been higher this cycle then!
So guessing that shows I didn't have a chance of preg last month, I def think something going on with my short cycles lol but doesn't matter atm, just trying to keep positive

Snowbee it could still be IB, think people can have it for quite a few days and it's a good sign it's brown? xxx

 

[snowbee]

I'm thinking I'm out and this is AF coming early. Still spotting dark brown but it now has a pink tint and is still coming. Poop, looks like 2015 isn't going to be our year after all as unless I have a short (normal!) cycle I'm not going to ov in time to be in with a chance of a 2015 due date

 

[mylullaby]

Unless that is normal for you when af arrives, I would take it as a good sign! If it is ib you won't test positive for a while yet. Fingers crossed its a good sign xxx

 

[millielaura]

I've got my fingers crossed it's IB for you. And if it is then it would still be bfn so your defo not out

I'm also defo not taking one foot from out this boat yet. My frer today was bfn. It was only an hour and a half hold but my ic's where pos after an hour hold. I am trying to stay positive but I'm not feeling great about it!

xxx

 

[mylullaby]

How many dpo are you now millie? I can see why you'd be nervous but try not to worry too much. Try again with fmu in the morning and see what happens xx hopefully it's just a dodgy test trying to spoil your excitement!! xx