I have eight confirmed miscarriages and at least two suspected additional miscarriages. I've never carried to term. I haven't been able to conceive since 2011 and have had several doctors tell me that it is extremely unlikely I would ever be able to conceive again. I have endometriosis, thrombophilia, a lot of internal scar tissue from assault and trauma.. as well as scar tissue from my prior pregnancies. I am 36 years old and was considered extremely high risk at 30. Somehow.. I'm pregnant! I had the first exam, my second round of HCG testing and the first introvaginal ultrasound, done yesterday. This is a viable, uterine pregnancy with fetal development and a yolk sac (not ectopic or nonviable)! I'm 6 weeks and one day! I've started daily lovenox, progesterone and aspirin... In hopes of keeping my body from attacking the baby and triggering a miscarriage. I want so badly to be excited, but I am simply terrified that history will repeat itself! Does this anxiety, or fear, ever go away?