hello all i havent really had a chance to come on here and explain everything im still finding every day so so hard i wake up crying and go to sleep crying for her, its too hard for me to put everything down about what happened at the moment, i hope you understand and i will put it all down when im feeling a little stronger.
I just want to say thank you so so much for everyones lovely messages that i have been recieving they all mean a lot to me so thank you all
i went down the hospital this arfternoon to say my final goodbye to her, we have sorted all the funeral arrangements, the hospital have agreed to cremate her for us and we are holding a memorial service after wards, in the hospital chapel of rest, we still have a few things to sort out but i wanted her cremated so she couldbe free with carrie-ann, does that make sense?
I have all these emotions just flying around my head one minute im trying to be strong the next im just breaking down im so scared because im finding this too painful and i just cant talk to steve that much, i dont want to add to her grief as well, we have talked but not properly, i just find myself being more open posting on here.
again thank you and il post next week with pics of how it all goes,
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
Have now uploaded couple of photos of chloe;s things, there are your special gifts you send me (not the rose bush yet to load) these are the things i will never part with.
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
I just want to say thank you so so much for everyones lovely messages that i have been recieving they all mean a lot to me so thank you all
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
i went down the hospital this arfternoon to say my final goodbye to her, we have sorted all the funeral arrangements, the hospital have agreed to cremate her for us and we are holding a memorial service after wards, in the hospital chapel of rest, we still have a few things to sort out but i wanted her cremated so she couldbe free with carrie-ann, does that make sense?
I have all these emotions just flying around my head one minute im trying to be strong the next im just breaking down im so scared because im finding this too painful and i just cant talk to steve that much, i dont want to add to her grief as well, we have talked but not properly, i just find myself being more open posting on here.
again thank you and il post next week with pics of how it all goes,
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
![:hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_hug.gif)
Have now uploaded couple of photos of chloe;s things, there are your special gifts you send me (not the rose bush yet to load) these are the things i will never part with.
![chloe007.jpg](/proxy.php?image=http%3A%2F%2Fi152.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fs193%2Ftracey1-photo%2Fchloe007.jpg&hash=2db9da0aabaa41524019fc849d0eb0e7)
![chloe003.jpg](/proxy.php?image=http%3A%2F%2Fi152.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fs193%2Ftracey1-photo%2Fchloe003.jpg&hash=fe8efef7ab5e7d8aacb468b7ea72894a)
![chloe001.jpg](/proxy.php?image=http%3A%2F%2Fi152.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fs193%2Ftracey1-photo%2Fchloe001.jpg&hash=f73d1ee87ab51220797cae5fd45ff4c4)