Simone I remember the feeling so well of having to apologise to everyone, One of my biggest memories was saying sorry over and over again... Partly to anyone who would listen and partly to my little boy, I felt I'd failed and let everyone down it's natural to look for blame when awful horrific and tragic things happen but YOU have done nothing, this tragedy is as much yours as anyone else, you and your partner must be so extremely strong to have this happen to you, look to one another for comfort... remember your little girl was made from the love you share... a beautiful Angel who'll make you a stronger person and a stronger family... I'm rambling now and everyone's experience is different so I can't even imagine how much pain you feel now... Please go easy on yourself, you are an amazing mummy and your little angel would be so proud of you for being so strong... So proud to have you with her through this xxxxxxxx