I officially declare......baby making now on hold :)

[tinselcat]

Hey Kezza

Hope you are not feeling so sad today hunny, men just don't get it sometimes do they!!!

I saw how much you paid off in July and that amount alone is A-MAZ-ING!!! It's so lovely to see your debts shooting down like that, you should feel very proud of yourself!!

xx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Morning girls

How's everyone today?

Thank you all so much for helping me through yesterday, I wasn't the happiest at all but today is a better & brighter new day

I went out for a few drinks with my supervisor after work & did me the world of good, the OH was busy anyway so I thought I'm not gonna hang around for you mister!!!

We had a chat when I got home & he realised what a numpty he had been yesterday, he knows that through everything I've always given him support, encouragement & motivation with everything he has done, I love him & will always be behind him & his decisions & he finally understood & realises that he doesn't do the same for me & apologised at how he made me feel yesterday

He said I'm one of the most inspirational people he's met as I never lose hope through the good & bad, I continue to get to where I want to be & never give up, he's so proud of what I've achieved in the last few months & even more proud I'm tackling things head on, he said that through all my hard work with the early starts & getting home late & looking after him, I never complain about not having anything & the thing that made me cry was, he said that he feels proud, humbled & privileged that he has the honour of becoming my husband

He said he really is going to try to be a bit more attentive & understanding with things I decide & choose to do as it's only fair he gives the same respect back..........So I think we got somewhere in the end

xxxxxx

 

[Amyrose]

aw hun i am so happy it all worked out for you i knew once you had a chat you to would sort it out as you are a very strong couple. you are an inspiration to a lot of people me included. Im so happy i have got to know you. Have a super fab day to make up for yesterday chat to you soon xxxxxxx

 

[Nurse 26]

aww so glad things are better

 

[Kezzamunster]

Awwwwww hun

If through my journey it help's someone else whether it be in a small or big way then that would be amazing

The last year, year & a half has been a struggle & at times thought what's the point but I wouldn't change any of it tbh cos look where I am today

xxxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Also been thinking a lot more about operation boobies & have happily come to a compromise with Stu, it will eventually happen but am happy to pop on hold for the time being

The more I thought about things the more I realised I was being a bit hasty in my decision, I've been working so so hard to get things sorted financially for our future so we can start saving for a deposit on a house & to start a family & that's one of the reasons we cancelled the UK wedding as was costing too much when in the fact we could use that money more practically then I choose to spend £6,000 on a pair of implants so based on that can see why Stu got upset

I also need to sort my thinking out as I have many issues with my weight & body image & as Stu said he's worried that even if I have the lift & implants done I may still not be happy & he has a good point there

I think I'm going to work on my confidence & self esteem in order to love myself again & the person I am, if it means counselling or something then so be it, I have a lot of things I need to work through to be completely entirely happy if that makes sense

xxxxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Along with my lovely Primark purchases today, I've also spent £2 & having my Credit Report posted to me

I'm gonna sit through it with a fine tooth comb & check everything is how it should be

Then in January/February I'll get another one to make sure everything is showing as settled & closed

xxx

 

[Amyrose]

 

[Kezzamunster]

Everything just feels better & lighter if that makes sense so will be an amazing feeling in December

How you doing poppet?

xxxx

 

[Amyrose]

thats good hun sometimes you just need time to clear your head wot makes sense at the time changes as you do.

im ok hun had a poo afternoon my little boy jack caught his fingers in the door and has an open fracture on one and the other is fairly mangled. they look awful poor little thing was so brave whilst i was shaking like a leaf pretending to be calm.

 

[Kezzamunster]

Ouch that sounds really sore but very brave indeed, good for him

Hope he can make a super speedy recovery

You ok though? Can't imagine how scary it was, make sure you have your shake tonight poppet

xxxxx

 

[Amyrose]

yeh im cool i should be well seasoned in kiddie catastrophes at this stage i just hate to see them hurt. the nurse asked him wot his address was and he said England lol im having my shake now xxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Hehehe how cute is he, bless

Ah good for you hun, I'm waiting for Stu to get back then we getting dinner, normally wouldn't mind waiting but he's down in Hampshire so he still has to drive home

xxx

 

[Amyrose]

god i hate waiting im sooooo impatient. Now im on these shakes i get so crabby when anyone interrupts me while im drinking them im like a woman possessed lol
mmmmmmmm wots for tea anything nice?

 

[Kezzamunster]

Im getting really frustrated now cos god knows what the traffic is going to be like as well......grrrrr!!!!

Tonight is kebab night, Stu will be having a large lamb shish in pitta with salad & large chips & I'm having a combo of lamb kofte & chicken shish with salad & extra salad but no chips or pitta

Think it's kinda ok on the calorie content but then not done my shakes either so not too fussed & had heaps of water

xxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Well I thought as I am using my thread to update on the money situation, I thought I would do the same with my weight loss & fitness journey as well

I started Slimfast back in May so here's the stats so far

6th May - Starting weight: 11st 4lb
3rd June - 1st weigh in: 10st 4lb
1st July - 2nd weigh in: 10st

Total loss to date = 1st 4lb/18lbs/8.18KG

My next weigh in won't be until just before my holiday then I will post a piccie of when I was at my biggest & what I am now

I have also started doing some exercise as well, on the cardio front I have to keep it to speed walking as running or anything to heavy causes my shin splints to flare up & causes me to be in absolute agony

Here is what I have been doing since last week

Monday 4th July
3.4 miles walked

Tuesday 5th July
3.4 miles walked

Wednesday 6th July
7.4 miles walked

Thursday 7th July
3.4 miles walked

Friday 8th July
3.4 miles walked

Monday 11th July
3.4 miles walked

Tuesday 12th July
5.78 miles walked
Abs exercises - 20 x left side bridges
20 x right side bridges
20 x crunches
20 x leg raises
20 x bum lifts
Leg exercises - 20 x deep squats
Arm exercises - 20 x push ups
20 x tricep push ups
20 x left upper cuts (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x right upper cuts (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x left jabs (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x right jabs (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x left crosses (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x right crosses (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x left overheads (Boxing/Body Combat move)
20 x right overheads (Boxing/Body Combat move)

I will update today's either tonight or first thing tomorrow

If I continue with this between now & my holiday then it should hopefully help me to tone up

xxxxxx

 

[Rayoflight]

Kezza I am SERIOUSLY impressed with your efforts at getting rid of your debt. You should be so so proud of yourself.

The weight loss is brilliant, exercise looks great.

You're a true inspiration my dear xxxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Awwwww thanks hun I'm at reception & got a lil teary eyed then, you words are so kind & really do mean a lot to me

I was struggling a lil bit the other day & just felt a bit blurgh with everything but it's amazing that within a few days the happiness just seems to have come from nowhere about my life & myself

xxxxx

 

[Amyrose]

look at my little kezza balboa!!! im so proud of you chick xxxxxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Oh Amy, your such a lovie
xxxx