I knew i was going to have to write this today.
Yestaday i had to go to hospital had bloods taken and was checked. the dr said my cervix was closed and i was fine even though i had a lot of discharge that was brown and some fresh blood to.
I was booked in for a scan this morning to make sure the baby was ok. she couldnt find anything with the normal scan and had to do an interal. I knew what she was going to say.
The sac was there but my baby wasnt she couldnt find anything.
I burst in to tears straight away i knew last week he had gone.
I went straight to my mum and dads I didnt know how the hell i was going to tell them. My mum had already knitted a blanket and was half way through a second.
The awful thing was seeing my dad cry, i had only ever seen him do it once before when my brother went missing.
The thing i cant get around the most is my baby is dead inside me and there is nothing i can do about it.
There are no words i can say to descibe how i feel right now. after nearly a year of trying to compleate our family we were absolutly in heaven thinking our little one would be hear by the end of the year.
I feel so numb and just cant stop crying. I feel absolutly useless.
My Oh has got me flowers and has lit a candle he is being so caring and i hate to see him cry. he had to phone his mum as she lives quite far away, he couldnt even speak on the phone and started crying straight away.
I havnt got a bloody clue what i am going to tell our little girl, she was so excited to be getting a brother or sister, she had drawn pictures to put in the babys box of things. she is going to be so heartbroken i cant bare to tell her.
I have to go back in two weeks for another scan but i just feel whats the point my baby is gone.
Good bye my baby you wont be forgotten xxx
Yestaday i had to go to hospital had bloods taken and was checked. the dr said my cervix was closed and i was fine even though i had a lot of discharge that was brown and some fresh blood to.
I was booked in for a scan this morning to make sure the baby was ok. she couldnt find anything with the normal scan and had to do an interal. I knew what she was going to say.
The sac was there but my baby wasnt she couldnt find anything.
I burst in to tears straight away i knew last week he had gone.
I went straight to my mum and dads I didnt know how the hell i was going to tell them. My mum had already knitted a blanket and was half way through a second.
The awful thing was seeing my dad cry, i had only ever seen him do it once before when my brother went missing.
The thing i cant get around the most is my baby is dead inside me and there is nothing i can do about it.
There are no words i can say to descibe how i feel right now. after nearly a year of trying to compleate our family we were absolutly in heaven thinking our little one would be hear by the end of the year.
I feel so numb and just cant stop crying. I feel absolutly useless.
My Oh has got me flowers and has lit a candle he is being so caring and i hate to see him cry. he had to phone his mum as she lives quite far away, he couldnt even speak on the phone and started crying straight away.
I havnt got a bloody clue what i am going to tell our little girl, she was so excited to be getting a brother or sister, she had drawn pictures to put in the babys box of things. she is going to be so heartbroken i cant bare to tell her.
I have to go back in two weeks for another scan but i just feel whats the point my baby is gone.
Good bye my baby you wont be forgotten xxx
look after yourself xxx
..It sounds as tho your OH is taking really good care of you.. Take care xx
