1st time Soy! FX'd

[CockerMum]

Won't he want to know about appointments etc?

Yeh I kinda just wave off ttc talk. He worry that if he becomes stressed about it he won't be able to perform and also I don't want the well I have 2 kids it will happen. Sure he thinks it will happen because of him, he doesn't understand that all women are diff.

I am tired again today. Sick of te weather other than that I am Okies lol xx

 

[Charlotte9]

Well I won't tell him about docs appointments. He does not know where I am during the day. He works everyday anyway.
So if he asks me anything I will answer that everything is fine. I won't share any details with him even if he begs me. Cause he hurt me by not letting me talk about it .
He kept saying yesterday that he has now done everything I asked him to. Took those pills (vits) and now sperm test. I felt like shit. But its done now. Guess what. I won't even ask him for his results. I won't nudge him to call his gp to check if the results are available.
What are you up to today? x

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[CockerMum]

Tbh I would prob clam up if my oh said he didn't want to know

I am going to meet my friend soon for coffee, vote then go see family for a BBQ but will prob be indoors as the weather is so pants xx

 

[Charlotte9]

I have completely shut down now. Reached the lowest point.
Enjoy your coffee and BBQ xxx

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[CockerMum]

I am so sorry you feel like this

I wasn't long in my GP app. She didn't say much. Look at my notes asked a few questions then said keep losing weight and if not successful in a few months come back and they will do bloods. She didn't mention anything about std checks. She asked about OPKs and I said I did last month and got a positive she said I am most liking ovulating and to try BD every other night and then kinda shooed me out. Will go back in 2 months of no BFP if I don't get what I want will change gps. Trying not to get sad about it or angry just shoved it to the back of my head and will just try to stay positive this cycle. They did say it can take up to 18-24 months after the depo, which shocked me as thought it was about a year.

I can't afford to go private.

Going to BBQ soon keep my mind off things xx

 

[Charlotte9]

AW sweetie so sorry. But here is what you need to do. Book an appointment in 2 months time and make sure you don't go to the same gp. Then when you get there say that previous told you to come back to do blood tests.
Your first test will be CD 1-5.
I kept going back to gp and in the end my usual gp was busy so I saw someone else and got got referred to the hospital x


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[CockerMum]

That's what I was thinking Charlotte. Going to a diff GP and saying well they told me to come back and do bloods etc. Proper blag it so to speak.

How are you feeling honey? Xx

 

[Charlotte9]

Yep thats how you will get forward. 2 months and you can book an appointment. Make sure you book way before Cd1-5 just in time to do blood test. I hope you don't need to do it and get pg before that.
I'm better thank you. I have decided to keep my mouth shut and relax this cycle. I used to do every day. Now will only do ever other day. x

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[CockerMum]

Fingers crossed for us both

I can't find my other bottle of soy so only done 3 nights this month - never mind. Stupid me for misplacing them! Xx

 

[Charlotte9]

So you could not find another bottle of soy? You can get it from tesco and continue today? x

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[CockerMum]

I brought 3 for 2 at tesco when I first started and only used 1 bottle but can't find my other 2, going to hunt them down today but don't know if to do my last night tonight or do another 2 nights?

How are you today? Xx

 

[Charlotte9]

Try to find them and then do an extra day. I'm ok. AF is so painful I can't even sit. Had pain killers but it's so strong. I'm at work.
How are you ? x

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[CockerMum]

Will hunt for them today

Aww sweets I hate painful AF mine was partially nasty one this cycle. Regular painkillers - paracetamol and ibuprofen. Doesn't help that your at work

I am good. Saw your comment about gemstones. My pic is of a moonstone elephant. I keep looking into them. Where are you going to buy yours from? Xx

 

[Charlotte9]

I made my moonstone bracelet months ago. That is an old thread. I was wearing it for months and now keep it under my pillow. I bought beads and loose gemstones on eBay and Amazon.
I can't wait to go home. AF pain very bad. Had 2 tablets already. Mine is strong prescription ones. Still feel very rough x

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[CockerMum]

When are you finishing work? Can't you skip off early? Xx

 

[Charlotte9]

I finish at 5. 4 hours to go. Can't wait to go home and chill on the sofa x

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[CockerMum]

Nearly there sweety. Keep on the countdown

We having a sofa day. Still tired from nights and oh has a bad cough he's been up since 4 even the dog is tired from yesterday lol xx

 

[Charlotte9]

Yes not long now. I'm craving water melon every day. Will get some after work.
Went for a walk lunch time with pregnant colleague. She is pregnant and I have period.
Oh well. Felt a bit low.
AW it's nice you are relaxing on sofa with your oh and a dog. Nice ha ha xxxxx

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[CockerMum]

We shall try to stay positive this month

I can't wait til the fertile window, hoping we have overcome the tiredness by then. Will be checking my cm properly this cycle aswell Bob to my cervix position as mine was high all the way through.

Starting OPKs CD10 aswell.

We will get our BFP xx

 

[Charlotte9]

I'm taking very relaxed approach this month. I'm not rushing af. Let it take its time.
I won't be doing opks. I will just have sex CD 8 onwards and will try to do every other day.
I tried every day during fertile days for the past 3 months. Now I want chill a bit x
Have you got opks ready? x

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