Ttc shit boat - long term ttcers

[lisey]

Dee, I felt so lost when my boy first went to school too, he was my little sidekick. I hope this IUI works for you and then you're pregnant just after Nancy has started school. I hope she is enjoying it?

Welcome back Claire

Sarah, just a couple of days until you're a MRS Must be so exciting, looking forward to some pics, I love weddings.

Stace, I have thought about leaving, I think about it all the time but more so since we have been back from the Summer holidays, I felt less stressed through the holidays and I actually feel depressed now I am back. The people are plain nasty, one woman who I used to be friends with and who knows about two of my miscarriages will often go on about how fertile she is and that she is going to try for another baby, she also says it wont take her long cos shes so fertile etc...I stopped being friendly with her over a year ago when she stabbed me in the back with some stuff, I just distanced myself but she used to tell me that when she wanted to upset people she would boast about things she has, that they don't. So I know what shes doing with me. Even goes on about how 'independent' her children are and its great they can go out on their own now (because I used to tell her my worries about my son needing a carer forever). People may think I am reading into it, but I know how she works. I feel like I need to leave, it feels like a form of bullying. I can't say anything either as she is assistant manager! Very professional. I just feel drained. I am scared to go for another job, what if the people are the same?
Wow, that was a long rant, just had an awful day at work so need to get it out xx

 

[snowbee]

lisey she sounds awful. I would change jobs, is there anything else you have seen that you might enjoy more? I don't know what needs your son has but I would like to give you a little hope, my sister is special needs and my mum thought that she would need a carer forever - but she moved into her own bungalow and has been there for 3 years now. She has people come and help her with things but she doesn't need a live in carer or someone there all the time. We honestly never thought she would be able to live like that, even fairly soon before she moved out we had our doubts about her being able to cope but she has so don't give up hope.

Ohh a wedding how exciting! Hope it all goes well

 

[lisey]

Ahhh thanks snowbee, that's lovely and I am so pleased for your sister. My son has autism with learning difficulties too.
I honestly don't know what I would like to do, I am restricted as I need to be home for my son during summer holidays and half terms etc. I would be willing to just be unemployed for a while and use some savings to get by for a bit. Better than being in that environment xx

 

[snowbee]

CD20 now and still no ov. Going to up my dose of soy next cycle.

 

[sandygems]

Hi everyone, I used to come on the forum everyday but iv been fining the past few months a real struggle. Sorry to hear other people are hitting those bumpy waters too (ha ha my phone just auto corrected that to say humpy waters! That made me laugh!)

I'm rather sick of this ttc lark now. My life is just one big joke I'm sure. I started counselling on tues and the therapist say woah I feel like I'm on a roller coaster and I want off! So I rang in sick since yesterday an had a good old cry. It's helped but now I don't want to go back! Having to admit I'm not coping is soooo hard! An ironically I work in mental health so all my colleagues will understand but iv always been the one who copes, the strong one and I'm frightened to let the mask slip. We've now officially reached the 12 month ttc mark, tho in reality it's over 2 years since we began trying for a family, last time took three months for our bfp but sadly our little angel couldn't stay with us. Iv had 21 and 5 day bloods done n. They were fine, my oh keeps putting off his sa test but says he I going to do it next week and I'm sure he will. He is so worried the problem lies with him, which is ironic as it was my body which failed us daughter so I can't see how it isn't me! But once we have the results then we can at least get some help in one way or another.

I think the thing that's made me struggle more lately is a lady at work is 3 months pregnant, fell first month grrr. I'm pleased for her but soooo jealous an. Just can't face the next 5 months of a growing bump in the office and all the excitement from everyone. And know another royal baby in the news - they've had two pregnancies whilst we've been trying! I just feel like life is so unfair, we are nice people but being handed a very shit hand.

Wow, sorry for the huge self indulgent post! I find it hard to say this stuff to my nearest an dearest but I know you all understand. I'm wishing all of you so much baby dust - in fact if someone could steal this ship through a baby dust storm that would be amazing!!! X

 

[snowbee]

Hi sandygems welcome on board, hope your stay here isn't too long.

Feel free to rant away here, sorry to hear you have had such an awful time. Maybe the boat hitting those humpy waters will help lol.

 

[lisey]

Hey sandygems,

I can really feel your heartache reading that, I'm sure we can all relate to your feelings. Its just exhausting and seeing other peoples pregnancy news is really difficult. I thought the same about william and kate, 2 pregnancies in the time we have been trying. It feels so unfair.
I did like the humpy waters, quite appropriate for a ttc forum lol. I hope there are smoother waters soon xx

 

[sandygems]

Thanks snowbee - maybe that where we've been going wrong, keep trying to go in calm waters instead of the humpy waters! X

 

[sandygems]

Thanks lisey - u hit the nail on the head - it exhausting!!! And then pretending to others that it's not I exhausting too. Here's hoping we all get some positives very soon x

 

[lisey]

Oh yeah, keeping the happy face up is draining. Dodging the 'when are you going to have a baby' questions is heart-breaking too. I am sick of pretending, sometimes I feel like being honest with people just to shut them up xx

 

[dolly26]

Hey ladies sorry to read we have hit bumpy waters hope ur all ok (big hugs)

Well I had my mum on the phone today and she told me a girl I used to work (we got really close cause be both knew the heartache of ttc) with is pregnant but she told me to give me hope as the girl had been ttc for a long time went down fertility and was told there was nothing they could do for her and they got pregnant naturally. I hope this gives u all a little hope like it did for me xx

 

[claire2602]

My sister gave birth to a little.girl yesterday. Her second child - both concieved and born whiollst ive been ttc. Its so hard but we will all get there! Xxx

 

[sandygems]

Oh Clair that's really tough how r u doing? Do ur family
Know ur ttc or will u now get lots of smiles and nudges and 'you'll be nexts'? X

 

[stacesl3]

Hey sandygems and claire, welcome on board I hope you're not here for long. Sorry for the bumpy/humpy waters, hopefully we will be venturing into calmer waters soonn.

I have 2 girls at work with bumps One of them is on her second and I think she conceived really quickly again, not sure about the other girl. I'm happy for them but cant help feeling/wishing it should have been me first!!

I got a super strong ov test yesterday (the test line was WAY darker than control line) so managed to BD and again this morning....i'm shattered though hopefully its done the trick!

 

[lisey]

That's great timing for the bding with the super strong opk, I really hope this is your month xx

 

[Dee28]

Good luck staces xx and big hugs Claire, that must be really tough for you xx

 

[Sugarpop]

AF arrived and now trying to figure out if I should try soy again!

 

[claire2602]

Oh Clair that's really tough how r u doing? Do ur family
Know ur ttc or will u now get lots of smiles and nudges and 'you'll be nexts'? X

My sister knows but only becquse i had a melt down on her! other than that only a few close friends know which makes it harder because i cant even vent! xxx

 

[Clementine]

Husband is away tonight, I'm bored .. Just discovered I can add an Emoticon Keyboard to my iPhone and you know how I love my picture posts

Wonder will it work on PF .... can u see them

I'm sitting in this bloody boat 🚣 sailing out to sea-dom 🚢wondering should
I take the leap and 🏊 swim my way to freedom.
It's been very stormy ⚡☔ this last week and we've been feeling blue 😰
So I'm sitting home 🏡 alone tonight wondering what to do? 🙆
I don't have a crystal ball 🔮or a magic pill 💊
But I know I have great shipmates 👧👩👸 so I'll never lose my will ! 🙅
Let's raise our glasses🍸🍹🍷to some good luck 🍀💫and lots of BFP's
By Christmas 🎄🎅 we'll be on dry land 🌇& off these bloody seas 🌊

to all

Ps a few of my favourites in times of a meltdown 💐🍫🍧
Pps I'll never make a poet !!

 

[Dee28]

Haha! Very artistically demonstrated! My emoticons don't seem to show up on here