Shell's TTC Diary - *IVF/ICSI* - BFP!!!!

[shellbham]

Thanks petra.

Chellie - Thanks for your advice - i really appreciate it They definately only do EC 3 days a week, so if you dont fit into any of those days, i guess they would do EC a day early or make you wait. Bit scary, but they have a decent success rate so who am i to question what they do. I have since spoke to someone who has been there before and EC is done in a seperate room, it is just recovery that is with everyone else. I guess its just because its different to what i'm used to. If this was my 1st go i probably wouldn't even be worrying about all these things.

I have decided to speak to them on Monday to see if they will let me DR the way the priory did. If they say yes then it is too much money to turn down, so i will stick with them. we are also going to question their decision about us being able to pay for AH. Also want to know if we get the same sort of amount of eggs as before if they do blasts as part of your free go. It would be nice to try. I feel we need to do something different this time.

Thank you for replying,

Michelle x

 

[sarafet]

aww michelle sorry your first appointment didn't go great

i don't know much about the treatments either, but i want to give you these --->

as for your free go - go with your heart, you will know yourself what works for you now, and if this clinic are unwilling/unable to cooperate, maybe it isn't worth putting yourself through the stress of it and/or going back to the priory where they 'know' you (and will at least read your notes )

hows the acupuncture going and how are you now about poppy? hope you are a bit better anyways, got my fingers crossed for you here hun

sarah xxxxx

 

[Jollypops]

Hi,
Sorry that your going through this with your NHS treatment - sorry if you've already said but is your NHS treatment done at your local hospital? Although we did NHS treatment it was done at a private clinic so we were treated abit different to how you've just been.
Because of how long we had been trying the doctor told us if we could afford to pay extra then paying for blasts would give us a greater chance of sucess - as ours was initial NHS funded treatment i cant understand why they wont let you pay the extra.
As you know there are so many different ways that clinics process IVF treatment and unfortunately it is different for everyone which is a real pain, but if i was in your shoes i would give the NHS treatment a shot and see what happens - you never know you may get the result you've been waiting for and put your private treatment money away for the baby fund!!
I wish you all the luck in the world in whatever you choose to do and send you loads of hugs

 

[choklatemunky]

Just wanted to give you a as it seems like you have a lot on your plate at the moment

 

[Kittykins]

Hey Shell

ok, there are two ways of looking at this. One is that they're doing everything wrong, and that the treatment won't work, so is a waste of your time. You'd be better off skipping it and going straight to the next private treatment.

The second way is to say, well, the first two cycles didn't work, let's see if a completely different approach is what's needed here... The private clinic thinks the best way forward is to keep the eggs out as long as possible and try to 'hatch' them artificially - so as this is your freebie 'bonus' cycle, try the opposite, stick them back in as soon as possible and see what happens. If it does't work, you won't have lost anything. You may think you've lost time, but you haven't - you've gained experience. At least you'd know not to go down that route on your next paid-for attempt!

Personally, I think if you feel strongly that it won't work, then you're pretty much guaranteeing that it won't, and you're right, it will be a waste of time. However, if you can keep an open mind, and keep reminding yourself that as this is the 'free' go, you'll try anything, you may be able to view it positively that the NHS has such a different approach to the private clinic. Let's face it, if they did exactly the same thing as before, you'd probably be thinking "well, that didn't work then, so why should it now?". So the most important thing you have to do is talk it through with your DH and decide whether it's possible for you to be positive about it, or whether you're already feeling so negative that it's not worth it. Right now, it's all about attitude. This whole situation is already so emotionally stressful for you that you cannot afford the emotional expense of negativity, even if the financial cost is zero.

But it sounds to me like you both do have enough hope left in you, and enough faith in the success rate of the clinic that you can be positive about it. By all means ask your questions - but be prepared to accept the responses.

Good luck!

 

[chellieboo]

Did you manage to speak to them yesterday honey? how did you get on?

 

[shellbham]

Thank you to everyone that posted their opinions.

We are going to go ahead with the NHS. There is too much money involved with all this to waste a 'free' attempt. They have reassured us about all our concerns. They will do extra scans for me and monitor me closely with blood tests if necessary. They are also thinking about alternating between 2 different drug doses to try to improve quality. So i am as happy as i can be at the moment. There is still the issue of what day to start DR but i will deal with that when we get to it. The drugs are arriving tuesday!

I went to acupuncture on Friday and he asked if i was sure i wasn't pregnant!! I am still temp charting so i dont think its a possibility as according to my temps i haven't even ovulated yet. Apparantly, the week before he did some acu points on me that should definately have given me a period and he thinks its very strange that i haven't responded. He wants to leave 2 weeks between my next appointment so that we can see if i notice any changes. I have had some EWCM today so i hope something is finally going to happen. DH goes away for a week on tuesday so hopefully this is perfect timing! We are putting off the starting DR til after he gets back or if i am about to ovulate hopefully i wont need to have IVF!

Some good news........i have a new kitty!!



She is gorgeous, she looks like a tiny tiger! We bought her home last night. She's a little nervous, but is improving already. We had some issues with the litter tray, i dont think she liked our cat litter! So we have now bought some wood based cat litter and she has happily had a wee in that!! Our other cat doesn't seem very impressed but the introductions went a lot better than when she was introduced to other kittens we have had in the past. Its so funny to see the little one hissing and growling! We have called her Jasmine.

Michelle x

 

[Petra]

Hi Michelle, so glad to hear things are moving forward for you. I hope the treatment works with you and you get your BFP soon. You deserve it babes. You are going through so much.. you are a very brave lady. Best of luck

 

[chellieboo]

your new kitty is beautiful!

 

[chellieboo]

Just popping in to see how you're getting on xxx

 

[sarafet]

hi shell, any updates? how is your new kitty??

 

[shellbham]

Back on the rollercoaster.......yet again!!

Hi Everyone

Sorry i haven't updated this. I dont know if I mentioned this before but we put our house up for sale a few weeks ago. Well it sold and the lady wants to move quite quickly so DH has been off work last week and we have been trying to find a house quick! We're moving to a completely new area, actually a new county so that he can be closer to his work so we have been doing a lot of travelling. Its so hard when you dont know what the area is like as well. I think we've found somwhere and then i start worrying about whether its the right place! Anyway we have had our offer accepted on a house so its all go now. I'm so excited, I cant wait to move, but i'm also very scared as i'm used to a city and we're moving to a little village with only a church, school, pub and shop.

Enough about that......i meant to come on last week to say i had an appointment for tuesday to have a scan and possibly start again. But tuesday is here and so now this is an update on the appointment instead. Scan went well, the lining is just over what they would like it to be but not so bad that they would need me to have AF. So i start injecting again tonight! I have mixed emotions. On one hand i'm super excited and feel sure that its got to work 3rd time. But on the other hand i'm scared of it not working again and the heartbreak.......its going to be so much worse this time. But i need to think positive. On both previous cycles i have felt quite negative, expecting it not to work thinking that it will be easier to cope if i prepare myself for the worst. So this time i have a new approach....positive, positive, positive! IT IS GOING TO WORK THIS TIME!!! Its going to hurt anyway so whats the harm in expecting something good.

My next appointment is the 4th June. This will be the baseline scan, to check that the lining hasn't thickened and that my hormones are switched off.

Kitten is doing really well. She went to the vet last week for her 1st injection and the vet was impressed with how much she had grown. She had doubled in weight in 4 weeks. She still loves her baby milk and gets excited every night when i give it her! Our other cat, Meg, is not too keen on her though. Amber wants to be next to her all the time. She wants to be left alone though. She gets very frustrated, but it is funny to watch Amber following her around! She is also obsessed with Megs tail and likes to hit it as she walks past!

Chellie - How is your treatment going? What stage are you at now?

Bye for now,

Michelle x

 

[Penstraze]

Good luck am keeping everything crossed for this cycle for you!! Great news about your house how exciting for you both

 

[sarafet]

fab news about the house shell glad kitty has settled in well too!

got everything crossed for you, and glad you decided to give this one a try

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[valleygirl24]

Hello,
Just read all of this from the start and feel for you but hope you get your BFP soon.
As for the gel you couldnt think of the name of was it emla? It is usually given for children who need to inject daily as it works as an anaesthetic (sp???) Another version of it is ametop which i have previously bought from a chemist before having a tattoo done.
You put the gel on but dont rub it in, cover it with clingfilm and seal it down with micropore and then spread the gel out through the clingfilm, about 45mins or so later the skin is numb and you can just wipe of the gel and then inject.

for you BFP
Love
Nicola

 

[chellieboo]

Woohoo, looks like we are cycling together.

my cats are the same as yours, the youngest practically wants to sit on the older one all the time, but the older one is so not interested!! sooo cute!

 

[shellbham]

Sarah - Wow! Not long left for you til baby arrives! Bet you're so excited

Nicola - Yes Emla is the cream. I didn't bother with it in the end. I think i was expecting it to feel like when you have a blood test, but the injections are actually not too bad.

Chellie - I didn't realise you had 2 cats. I thought you had a dog because of your pic.

x

 

[chellieboo]

We used to have a dog, but she died a few years back, i like to keep her photo there as a reminder of her, we got the 2nd cat about a year after she died. I think the older cat preferred the dog

 

[shellbham]

Day 5 of Down Reg

Nothing much to report. Had a funny head for the 1st few days but that has finally gone. Other than that no symptoms thankfully.

Meant to be going to a christening tomorrow, but i'm sending DH on his own. Is that really bad of me? it was only about a year and a half ago that we was at the christening for their 2nd baby and all DH's relatives were asking when we were going to ttc then. I just cant face all the questions, pretending that we dont want children yet when we've been ttc for 2 1/2 years now. Oh, and being around a highly fertile couple. I've made sure i've bought them a lovely present though to make up for it!! You can always count on me for a nice gift!! I have no idea what excuse DH can use or why i'm not there though. Sometimes i think it would be easier if everyone just knew the truth.

xxx

 

[chellieboo]

Just wanna wish you luck for your baseline tomorrow xxxx