muppetmummy
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Ive had several attempts at writing this post but keep deleting it as I end up with a whining self pitying sounding essay which makes me sound like a drama queen. I can't even put how I feel into words very well any way cos I don't understand how I'm feeling.
Basically I had been feeling fine until week 11 when the breastfeeding came to an abrupt end and my period returned. Since then I've been feeling down more and more frequently. I can feel fine one minute and the next it feels like a fog has decended on me and I feel depressed and can't shake it off. When I'm feeling like this I can't face people. A couple weeks ago I went to my baby massage class feeling fine, then left without saying goodbye to anyone as my mood suddenly crashed and I had an overwhelming feeling of being disliked, left out and felt a huge desire to get away and hide away at home. It's not every day I feel depressed but it does seem to be happening more and more frequently.
I normall go to baby clinic every week but couldnt be bethered this week, I cant be bothered to send my wedding invites out, and feel generally flat and uninterested in stuff.
I had been losing weight but have started putting on weight again recently as I've started comfort eating, though I don't know what I'm trying to get comfort from.
I still feel fully bonded and loving towards the boys, though I have noticed myself being more snappy with James and OH recently. I think I'm coping ok in general with looking after them but some days I do feel overwhelmed when both Logan and James are wanting attention at the same time. Logan is feeding a lot at the moment (every 2 hours during the day and is taking ages over his bottle) and has been a bit unsettled so I don't think thats helping.
MIL and friends have offered to baby sit Logan but I dont want to leave him with them. In fact MIL has taken James away this week for a holiday and I've spent all day crying and feeling depressed cos I miss him. I dont know whats making me feel down and then feel more down for being down over nothing. Im sleeping fine, just having issues with my mood, moping, lack of motivation, and overeating. I love having Logan and he does lift my mood when he smiles or laughs.
Ive taken the edinburgh test online a few times and its come back ok, though my score has been creeping up over the weeks from 0 to about 10. Maybe this is related to my hormones from stopping breastfeeding or my period returning?
I think I'll mention it to the hv if I still feel like this next week, I think Ive been in denial a bit up to now
Basically I had been feeling fine until week 11 when the breastfeeding came to an abrupt end and my period returned. Since then I've been feeling down more and more frequently. I can feel fine one minute and the next it feels like a fog has decended on me and I feel depressed and can't shake it off. When I'm feeling like this I can't face people. A couple weeks ago I went to my baby massage class feeling fine, then left without saying goodbye to anyone as my mood suddenly crashed and I had an overwhelming feeling of being disliked, left out and felt a huge desire to get away and hide away at home. It's not every day I feel depressed but it does seem to be happening more and more frequently.
I normall go to baby clinic every week but couldnt be bethered this week, I cant be bothered to send my wedding invites out, and feel generally flat and uninterested in stuff.
I had been losing weight but have started putting on weight again recently as I've started comfort eating, though I don't know what I'm trying to get comfort from.
I still feel fully bonded and loving towards the boys, though I have noticed myself being more snappy with James and OH recently. I think I'm coping ok in general with looking after them but some days I do feel overwhelmed when both Logan and James are wanting attention at the same time. Logan is feeding a lot at the moment (every 2 hours during the day and is taking ages over his bottle) and has been a bit unsettled so I don't think thats helping.
MIL and friends have offered to baby sit Logan but I dont want to leave him with them. In fact MIL has taken James away this week for a holiday and I've spent all day crying and feeling depressed cos I miss him. I dont know whats making me feel down and then feel more down for being down over nothing. Im sleeping fine, just having issues with my mood, moping, lack of motivation, and overeating. I love having Logan and he does lift my mood when he smiles or laughs.
Ive taken the edinburgh test online a few times and its come back ok, though my score has been creeping up over the weeks from 0 to about 10. Maybe this is related to my hormones from stopping breastfeeding or my period returning?
I think I'll mention it to the hv if I still feel like this next week, I think Ive been in denial a bit up to now