Lost my angel - 35+6

[Simoneh00]

Everyone thinks its so rare but 11 babies in UK are still born / neo natal deaths every DAY! that's an astounding figure. Even whilst we were in hospital another family were admitted onto our ward with a loss. We only know this as we saw the midwife go in with the same memory box we had. Also the amount of friends of friends who have told me its happened is scary.
I think its more rare to happen quite as far into pregnancy as I was. Luna was perfect. Had they delivered her at 35 weeks she would've needed no help breathing or anything. Think that makes it slightly more shocking.

Luna has given me belief in myself again. I want to make her proud of me


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Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

 

[LoopyLouize]

Simone you really are an amazing strong person. I am inspired by you myself! I am really happy that you have taken such a bad experience and turned it around to become a positive one. You and Luna have touched so many xxx


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[redbear]

Everyone thinks its so rare but 11 babies in UK are still born / neo natal deaths every DAY! that's an astounding figure. Even whilst we were in hospital another family were admitted onto our ward with a loss. We only know this as we saw the midwife go in with the same memory box we had. Also the amount of friends of friends who have told me its happened is scary.
I think its more rare to happen quite as far into pregnancy as I was. Luna was perfect. Had they delivered her at 35 weeks she would've needed no help breathing or anything. Think that makes it slightly more shocking.

Luna has given me belief in myself again. I want to make her proud of me


Tapatalking excuse any typos!
Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

I know my grandma lost a baby at 8 month just falling in the snow, my auntie lost a baby boy at 7 month but he had a condition where his skull didnt form (they didn't know until after birth) so he wouldn't have survived at full term. But Luna was so far along it must be hard wondering why, you are so strong and amazing to be thinking of the positive way she will touch your lives i don't think many people would be as brave as you and seeing that although she left too soon she was sent for a reason and if that's to make you strong and believe in yourself then that's a wonderful reason.

I want to tell you that Luna has touched my life even though we have never met. I spend so much time talking to my unborn daughter and trying to bond with her because Luna has shown me you never know, i can't put it off until later. I never could do that with Alice i always struggled to bond with a baby i couldn't see. Luna has helped me get over that that this time - she will touch so many peoples lives she really is an amazing little girl. xxx

 

[BunnyN]

I haven't been on in a few days but just wanted to say I was thinking of you on Monday. The flowers were really beautiful.

 

[Simoneh00]

I know my grandma lost a baby at 8 month just falling in the snow, my auntie lost a baby boy at 7 month but he had a condition where his skull didnt form (they didn't know until after birth) so he wouldn't have survived at full term. But Luna was so far along it must be hard wondering why, you are so strong and amazing to be thinking of the positive way she will touch your lives i don't think many people would be as brave as you and seeing that although she left too soon she was sent for a reason and if that's to make you strong and believe in yourself then that's a wonderful reason.

I want to tell you that Luna has touched my life even though we have never met. I spend so much time talking to my unborn daughter and trying to bond with her because Luna has shown me you never know, i can't put it off until later. I never could do that with Alice i always struggled to bond with a baby i couldn't see. Luna has helped me get over that that this time - she will touch so many peoples lives she really is an amazing little girl. xxx

I'm glad you're bonding. Its such a special time where your baby can hear you and feel you and its just you both together. No one else will ever have that special time that you're getting. Its just for you.

I think Luna was sent for many reasons. One of which I hope will be that my midwife will realise that the rule of 'if its the same dad you won't get pre-eclamsia again' is outdated and wrong. And also that the smallest of signs are early warnings. All the signs were there that things were going wrong and she chose to send me home thinking it was fine.

She was incredibly special. I'm just grateful I had her for her short time here. I'm incredibly lucky that I got to see her and hold her, that I felt her inside me, that we had our time in our own little bubble xx

Tapatalking excuse any typos!
Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

 

[tinks77]

It's heartbreaking how often these things happen, my sister lost her baby boy at 39 weeks. This was 10 years ago and we all still think of him quite often

Your are being amazingly brave & strong and I'm sure it's Luna looking down on you to give you that extra boost you need xxx


Mummy to Gracie 26/10/11

 

[Froslass]

Your pics are gorgeous xx

It is true it's rarer in later pregnancy, my nana (mums mum) lost a little girl at 41 weeks..

She bent over to chase the cat from under the table and felt an odd sensation. After that she felt no movement...was very sad as my papa had cleared the house of all things before she got home and arranged the funeral which she missed as she was poorly in hospital so she didnt get a chance to grieve properly.

Your such a strong lady and your special little lady will be so proud to have such a wonderful mummy and daddy to look after xx

 

[Wilson28]

Have you thought about doing anything in her name like charity work for special baby care work or still birth, xx

 

[Simoneh00]

I have thought about it and I will once I'm back to full fitness. Still can't make a full asda run without having to go sit down so I need to still take it easy. I want to raise money for another cold cot for my hospital. They enable parents to keep their baby with them for so much longer than just an ordinary hospital cot as they keep the temperature very cool. Its like a fridge in disguise of a Moses basket xx

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Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

 

[Wilson28]

Aww bless thats lovely, how are u feeling in yrself now, you are defo an angel yourself with unbelievable strength xx

 

[Simoneh00]

I'm actually ok. Think I've pulled something in my side and my scar is pretty sore but apart from that I feel good.

I want to do lots of little things though. A sponsored run, coffee morning,etc. So I need to be fit. The more things I do the more awareness I can raise about what happened to us and the signs to never ignore. And also getting more people talking might stop someone in the future being avoided by family and friends because they don't know what to say xx

Tapatalking excuse any typos!
Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

 

[Wilson28]

Aww im glad you feel like that, im glad its brought a positive side out, maybe she was an angel that came to help raise aweareness knowing her mummy would do a fab job at it and teach us sll something xx

 

[Lolly85x]

I'm sure Luna will be very proud of you, the way you are talking you should be very proud of yourself. So positive about what you are going to do going forward, in memory of Luna. I hope you are recovering as best as you can.xxxx

 

[Loula]

You really are an inspiration to us all Simone. Ive been reading your story and i am proud to have seen pictures of your beautiful Luna and you will meet again.
Take it easy easier said then done and it looks like youve got so much coming up in the future.
A friend of mine went into hospital the day before her induction due to lack of movement 14 days post due date and had to deliver a sleeping beautiful baby boy. xx

 

[redbear]

your right its a beautiful time and so nice that you get lots of little moments to yourself that no one else can feel. i think there needs to be more awareness of the signs of pre eclampsia and the midwifes to take problems more seriously not rushing to send us home. xxx

 

[PurplePixi]

Hi Simone

I have just read this entire thread and just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. You sound like an amazing mum and very strong women, Little Luna seems to have touched a lot of people on here.


Take care xxxxxxxx

 

[Pudds86]

Wow simone, im so proud of you. Truly incredible how you're healing emotionally. I hope you are still taking everything in and taking the time to grieve.

I too am not taking anything for granted with this baby, i am trying to bond so much after hearing about Luna because you truly never know.

I don't know if i missed your story prior finding no Luna had no heartbeat but im really interested in what signs you had that the midwife ignored? What did she mean about it being the same dad / pre eclampsia? I hope you don't mind me asking but i would like to gain knowledge from you raising awareness Xx

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[Flips4]

Wow simone, im so proud of you. Truly incredible how you're healing emotionally. I hope you are still taking everything in and taking the time to grieve.

I too am not taking anything for granted with this baby, i am trying to bond so much after hearing about Luna because you truly never know.

I don't know if i missed your story prior finding no Luna had no heartbeat but im really interested in what signs you had that the midwife ignored? What did she mean about it being the same dad / pre eclampsia? I hope you don't mind me asking but i would like to gain knowledge from you raising awareness Xx

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Simone you are amazing and I really do appreciate you taking the time out to answer my posts and offer comfort and advice when I feel so clueless and vulnerable.

I have just been diagnosed with pre-eclampsia and funnily enough wondered why the registrar was so interested in my partner and his sperm, she asked if he was the father to my older children (he's not) and if this is his first child (it is) she also asked how long it had taken us to conceive and about our previous contraception methods!? I thought it was all bizarre until I asked my consultant who stated it was ONLY a indication in the way around I am (ie first time dad, not father of previous children) and should NEVER be an indication in the reverse (ie the same father being a lower risk for subsequent pregnancies) She said it was something to do with an 'intolerance' to the fathers DNA I think but to be honest I was finding it difficult to concentrate on what she was saying!

 

[Simoneh00]

Wow simone, im so proud of you. Truly incredible how you're healing emotionally. I hope you are still taking everything in and taking the time to grieve.

I too am not taking anything for granted with this baby, i am trying to bond so much after hearing about Luna because you truly never know.

I don't know if i missed your story prior finding no Luna had no heartbeat but im really interested in what signs you had that the midwife ignored? What did she mean about it being the same dad / pre eclampsia? I hope you don't mind me asking but i would like to gain knowledge from you raising awareness Xx

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I was having visual disturbances, swelling and a general feeling of being unwell as well as pain at the top of my bump between my ribs before my blood pressure rose. I said repeatedly to do my midwife and it was brushed off.

At my midwife appointment on the Tuesday before we knew Luna had no heartbeat I had a trace of protein and a slight raise in blood pressure. My midwife said she was happy and sent me on my way but she should have sent me immediately to triage for bloods. Especially with my history.

Obviously we won't know the cause of luna's death for a few weeks but I can't help thinking it has to be related.

People need to be aware how quickly pre-eclampsia can escalate. I went from a bp of 150/82 and a trace of protein on the Tuesday late afternoon to a bp of 164/111 and 4+ protein on the Friday. My kindeys weren't functioning properly either. Only then did I start to experince swelling. Only when it was severe.
Never ignore the symptoms but also don't let it go if you feel unwell. Push them to look into it Xx

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Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4

 

[Simoneh00]

Also the thing with baby's dad.
With pre-eclampsia the doctors used to say that your first baby with a man was when you would get it. If your second baby had the same dad you'd be unlikely to get it again. That's just not the case anymore. Its happening to some women with every pregnancy, some with their 4th, etc. It doesn't really count anymore as a risk factor x

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Mummy of two, Angel mummy of one and WTT baby number 4