@Alexis2017 not until the end of the year, probably about October/November time...my area is 3 years trying before you can get nhs ivf. I fully expect to have to go through ivf now and I don’t expect it to happen naturally but it still sucks getting af. I am so so pleased for you though alexis and was even telling my husband about your news this morning! Every time a long termer gets a bfp it gives me hope!
@SugaryIris its so crappy isn’t it. Not only are we down about getting af, we have to put up with intense pains too! I’ve forced myself to go for a walk which I didn’t feel like doing and it has helped along with the paracetamol. At least I’ve come on today...last month I had a couple of days of cramping before af. I wasn’t expecting af until Monday (I use opk strips but didn’t get a really dark line this month so had to take a guess as I must have missed my surge) so didn’t think it would arrive today. The bubble bath sounds like a good idea though
I have treated myself to some chocolate too! If you can’t have chocolate on a day like today, when can you?!!
On a positive note, I am proud of myself that I am handling the arrival of af so much better than I was say a year ago! It’s like recently I’ve come to accept that af is going to show, so I think that takes away the shock of it and therefore I’m a lot less upset about it. Don’t get me wrong, the sadness always lingers as well as the jealously of seeing all my friends getting pregnant so easily, but the intense sadness that I used to feel every month isn’t as strong anymore. I don’t think I’d ever be able to give up on the idea of having children no matter how that happens, but I’m glad I’m dealing with this part better than I was. I don’t think I could have carried on the way I was last year!
It’s weird though...even though I’m 2 and a half years in of trying, it feels a bit surreal...like it’s not actually happening to me. I don’t feel like I ‘suffer from infertility’ yet at the same time don’t expect to get pregnant anymore. I sometimes wonder if I’ve been accidentally taking the pill without realising it as it’s hard for me to understand why else it wouldn’t be happening
x
