Long termers 6 months or more

[Nikkibiscuit]

Today was tough ladies. The latest mat leave goer brought her baby in. Everyine had a good of the baby and baby chat and everyine talked about their babies while I was the infertile failure in the corner. I felt awkward as hell and It was torturerous.

As for talking about it being the women's fault I feel like that all the time het I hardly drink, I don't smoke I look after must. I'm not over weight yet hubby is on the e cig...he drinks loads beer , he stays up late and drinks so much coffee and even though we are due to hit 2 years trying in December and start IVF between Dec-Jan theres no commitment with making improvement. The doc told him to take supplements luke zinc and multi vits just as an added help but he hasn't. We have our screening test appt 23rd and protocol bloods. We didn't even try last cycle. AF is just about gone and then it's count down to one of our last month's naturally ttc.

I hope everyone is hanging on in there..this will be my 3rd xmas ttc as we started just before Xmas 2016 but was 1st cycle across dec/Jan.

I have almost got 20k for my friends charity and I've raised 1k for a homelessness spincership sleep out in December ! Keeping busy with jewellery orders and our new rescue dog from Serbia comes over and of Nov.

Mat visit sounds awful Alexis...it's such a shame that what should be a happy thing becomes so sad for us all.

We have loads of new BHS stock in at work that we are selling off and we have lots of kids and babywear....I've been working with the team pricing it all the past few days and the little romper suits just break my heart. Let alone the accompanied conversation of staff saying don't you want kids....your turn next....etc etc.

Amazing on the charity fundraise that's incredible!!

So excited for your new fur baby....hope u will share pics xx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

@moomin thanks for the tip

At least i can rest easy a little as it's says that I would qualify for 3 cycles and 1 cycle is defined as 1 fresh cycle plus any viable frozen embryos transferred.

I really feel uncomfortable at the thought of IVF I don't know why....in the beginning I thought I would do anything to have our family....and I still will I just get frightened about how I would cope putting my body through so much before even being pregnant x

 

[MoominGirl]

@moomin thanks for the tip

At least i can rest easy a little as it's says that I would qualify for 3 cycles and 1 cycle is defined as 1 fresh cycle plus any viable frozen embryos transferred.

I really feel uncomfortable at the thought of IVF I don't know why....in the beginning I thought I would do anything to have our family....and I still will I just get frightened about how I would cope putting my body through so much before even being pregnant x

I'm glad it was helpful as I hoped it would have given you far more reassurance than it did me from a financial point of view.

Honestly your comment about feeling uncomfortable with IVF I could have written myself when we were at the same point you are now. I think for me, I had to be completely comfortable that we had done everything possible first. As we would only have been offered one fresh transfer only on the NHS, it really did feel like a final shot that could all have been for nothing. I really did seriously consider not doing it as I just didn't know how I would have coped. OH was totally supportive of whatever I decided but he did say to me would I have truly given it everything if I didn't at least try? That stayed in the back of my mind for a few more months before I decided he was right and we both agreed it was the right time for us. I couldn't have even thought about it before I was really and how I was approaching it was far more positive. Just because the NHS offer it to you after trying for a certain amount of time, doesn't mean you are ready. You can wait a bit longer if that feels right. Although we would have only had one shot, they would have been prepared to treat us after a year. For me personally, that was too soon.

 

[MoominGirl]

Today was tough ladies. The latest mat leave goer brought her baby in. Everyine had a good of the baby and baby chat and everyine talked about their babies while I was the infertile failure in the corner. I felt awkward as hell and It was torturerous.

As for talking about it being the women's fault I feel like that all the time het I hardly drink, I don't smoke I look after must. I'm not over weight yet hubby is on the e cig...he drinks loads beer , he stays up late and drinks so much coffee and even though we are due to hit 2 years trying in December and start IVF between Dec-Jan theres no commitment with making improvement. The doc told him to take supplements luke zinc and multi vits just as an added help but he hasn't. We have our screening test appt 23rd and protocol bloods. We didn't even try last cycle. AF is just about gone and then it's count down to one of our last month's naturally ttc.

I hope everyone is hanging on in there..this will be my 3rd xmas ttc as we started just before Xmas 2016 but was 1st cycle across dec/Jan.

I have almost got 20k for my friends charity and I've raised 1k for a homelessness spincership sleep out in December ! Keeping busy with jewellery orders and our new rescue dog from Serbia comes over and of Nov.

Well done for raising so much for your friend's charity.

As for the vitamins, could you get into a routine with it? OH used to take his when I took mine. We always took them with evening meal as neither of us would have been any use in the morning. That way it was just part of the day and my OH said it was easier to just take them if it meant less grief from me!! If I'd left him to take them, it never would have happened.

They always say any lifestyle change takes 3 months to take effect so you have an opportunity to make that argument now. When we were at this point, I needed to feel like we were both in 100% so that we could have no regrets regardless of the outcome. I think I'd have found it so much harder to deal with a bad outcome if I hadn't felt OH had given it his all too.

Rooting for you as always and I hope you're as ok as you can be.

 

[Alexis2017]

Today was tough ladies. The latest mat leave goer brought her baby in. Everyine had a good of the baby and baby chat and everyine talked about their babies while I was the infertile failure in the corner. I felt awkward as hell and It was torturerous.

As for talking about it being the women's fault I feel like that all the time het I hardly drink, I don't smoke I look after must. I'm not over weight yet hubby is on the e cig...he drinks loads beer , he stays up late and drinks so much coffee and even though we are due to hit 2 years trying in December and start IVF between Dec-Jan theres no commitment with making improvement. The doc told him to take supplements luke zinc and multi vits just as an added help but he hasn't. We have our screening test appt 23rd and protocol bloods. We didn't even try last cycle. AF is just about gone and then it's count down to one of our last month's naturally ttc.

I hope everyone is hanging on in there..this will be my 3rd xmas ttc as we started just before Xmas 2016 but was 1st cycle across dec/Jan.

I have almost got 20k for my friends charity and I've raised 1k for a homelessness spincership sleep out in December ! Keeping busy with jewellery orders and our new rescue dog from Serbia comes over and of Nov.

Well done for raising so much for your friend's charity.

As for the vitamins, could you get into a routine with it? OH used to take his when I took mine. We always took them with evening meal as neither of us would have been any use in the morning. That way it was just part of the day and my OH said it was easier to just take them if it meant less grief from me!! If I'd left him to take them, it never would have happened.

They always say any lifestyle change takes 3 months to take effect so you have an opportunity to make that argument now. When we were at this point, I needed to feel like we were both in 100% so that we could have no regrets regardless of the outcome. I think I'd have found it so much harder to deal with a bad outcome if I hadn't felt OH had given it his all too.

Rooting for you as always and I hope you're as ok as you can be.

Thanks Mooomin. I hope you and bump are doing well?
I am about 2-3 montjs away from starting my injections and then egg reterival. I am so scared about it all and I can't seem to accept it all. I don't think I ever will I just have to go with it now and try..I am 35 ,.no kids and been trying 2 years in December so it's time to move forward , it's not that I don't think it's time but I just don't think anyone could ever feel truely 'ready'for ivf...it's a mind fuck and just a real tough situation.. I mean some point dpwn this road we could have actual embryos in the lab which is a cell that's half me and half my husband, the start of life. Then that small tiny miracle is implanted into my body and I have around 33% chance of it being our baby or just disappearing. I mean who can ever be ready for that? I am going to get my head in the zone next week get out jogging and try and feel better in my own headspace. I just keep reading so much stuff about other women having IVF who do the heat packs and eat Brazil nut and drink pom juice and all this and I tie myself up in knots worrying about what if something I don't do is enough to make it fail.

I've told hubby to not drink alcohol or drink coffee from when I start my injections. We need to do it all as a team. I hate saying this but how do I shake this feelibg its not going to work... is that a bad sign I feel so negative from the start...I mean I just knew I would struggle...right from the start I said to DH that we would need IVF and he said don't be silly
...now look at us...

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

@Alexis I really do empathise because although we haven't been told we need ivf yet i know I will feel exactly like you are saying. How can you ever be ready for something so invasive and so consuming. I find it really scary the thought of having to do injections and pump my body full of hormones all with such a low chance of success.

In your case though Alexis maybe because you feel that you always knew it would come to this...maybe that was some sort of foresight and it will work quickly for you.

I hope you can keep the picture of your family in your minds eye. Mine has definitely gone from Technicolor to black and white fuzzy x

 

[MoominGirl]

Today was tough ladies. The latest mat leave goer brought her baby in. Everyine had a good of the baby and baby chat and everyine talked about their babies while I was the infertile failure in the corner. I felt awkward as hell and It was torturerous.

As for talking about it being the women's fault I feel like that all the time het I hardly drink, I don't smoke I look after must. I'm not over weight yet hubby is on the e cig...he drinks loads beer , he stays up late and drinks so much coffee and even though we are due to hit 2 years trying in December and start IVF between Dec-Jan theres no commitment with making improvement. The doc told him to take supplements luke zinc and multi vits just as an added help but he hasn't. We have our screening test appt 23rd and protocol bloods. We didn't even try last cycle. AF is just about gone and then it's count down to one of our last month's naturally ttc.

I hope everyone is hanging on in there..this will be my 3rd xmas ttc as we started just before Xmas 2016 but was 1st cycle across dec/Jan.

I have almost got 20k for my friends charity and I've raised 1k for a homelessness spincership sleep out in December ! Keeping busy with jewellery orders and our new rescue dog from Serbia comes over and of Nov.

Well done for raising so much for your friend's charity.

As for the vitamins, could you get into a routine with it? OH used to take his when I took mine. We always took them with evening meal as neither of us would have been any use in the morning. That way it was just part of the day and my OH said it was easier to just take them if it meant less grief from me!! If I'd left him to take them, it never would have happened.

They always say any lifestyle change takes 3 months to take effect so you have an opportunity to make that argument now. When we were at this point, I needed to feel like we were both in 100% so that we could have no regrets regardless of the outcome. I think I'd have found it so much harder to deal with a bad outcome if I hadn't felt OH had given it his all too.

Rooting for you as always and I hope you're as ok as you can be.

Thanks Mooomin. I hope you and bump are doing well?
I am about 2-3 montjs away from starting my injections and then egg reterival. I am so scared about it all and I can't seem to accept it all. I don't think I ever will I just have to go with it now and try..I am 35 ,.no kids and been trying 2 years in December so it's time to move forward , it's not that I don't think it's time but I just don't think anyone could ever feel truely 'ready'for ivf...it's a mind fuck and just a real tough situation.. I mean some point dpwn this road we could have actual embryos in the lab which is a cell that's half me and half my husband, the start of life. Then that small tiny miracle is implanted into my body and I have around 33% chance of it being our baby or just disappearing. I mean who can ever be ready for that? I am going to get my head in the zone next week get out jogging and try and feel better in my own headspace. I just keep reading so much stuff about other women having IVF who do the heat packs and eat Brazil nut and drink pom juice and all this and I tie myself up in knots worrying about what if something I don't do is enough to make it fail.

I've told hubby to not drink alcohol or drink coffee from when I start my injections. We need to do it all as a team. I hate saying this but how do I shake this feelibg its not going to work... is that a bad sign I feel so negative from the start...I mean I just knew I would struggle...right from the start I said to DH that we would need IVF and he said don't be silly
...now look at us...

Yes me and bump are doing well thanks. I still can't believe we've got this far. I read back some of my old posts around the time we were preparing for IVF and I remember just how miserable and alone I felt at that time.

I always knew in my heart it wouldn't be easy for us too. I don't know why but I always knew though that didn't make the situation any easier. I had a lot of trouble accepting IVF as I didn't want to accept such invasive treatment when it comes so easily for others. After some time, my approach did change as although I could never have said I was OK with it, I did find a place where I could accept that this was the path we had chosen to go down in response to the unfortunate circumstances we had found ourselves in. That did feel very different emotionally to the initial feelings of being forced down this path by the doctors and feeling like we had no other option. We did have an option. We could choose not to do it. But we were choosing to try. Because we were choosing to try, we would be giving it everything we had so we knew we could come out the other end regardless of the outcome. I hope that makes sense but the loss of control really was a big thing for me. As I've said before, I absolutely had to be ready and no one was going to force me there faster. Although I agree with you that I'm sure no one ever feels 'ready' but at the beginning of the year, I really felt like I was as ready as I could have ever been.

Although financially you're so much better off in Scotland in that you get 3 full cycles funded but that means it could take several attempts including frozen transfers to get your baby and I can imagine that feeling like an endless journey. We would have got one fresh transfer and that was it. I think that meant that the end was much closer one way or another so much less daunting in some ways as we would have had to fund any further treatment privately which meant there would have been a very strict limit on what we could have afforded as I never would have wanted to bankrupt us on what is essentially a gamble.

One thing that someone told me that really helped when I was only focusing on the poor odds of success was about how much you will learn about how your body behaves. How well you stim, how well the eggs fertilise, how many good quality embryos etc. I was always a bit more interested in this sort of thing as there was always a bit of questioning over OH's sperm in our case but there are lots of things a basic sperm analysis can't see. I always notice that most of you lovely ladies on here who fall into the unexplained category are often so harsh on yourselves on the basis that your OH's sperm sample has been normal. Remember all your tests have been normal too. I do realise it was much easier for us to feel in it together as there were issues on both sides.

I've rambled a bit but hopefully some of this helps. Although at no point was it easy, it felt so much more manageable for me once I'd sorted my head out a bit.

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So appt today felt like a waste of time we saw the 'nurse practitioner' who told us essentially that as nothing appears to be wrong we have to go away and keep trying until the 2 year mark (which they are classing as May 2019)

It was completely expected yet I felt incredibly sad as just feels like we are not moving forward.

She is going to book us an appt for March so that if I'm not pregnant by then they can start the ball rolling for IVF. On a more positive note the wait time should be minimal if we get to that point she said we would be seen within 12 weeks for start of treatment.

So back to beat the doctor. I've been a bit of a mess today but talked a little more with hubby than usual and trying to be open as I tend to just shut down when I'm under emotional stress.

I really hope one of us gets some good news soon....we all surely deserve some x

 

[Alexis2017]

So appt today felt like a waste of time we saw the 'nurse practitioner' who told us essentially that as nothing appears to be wrong we have to go away and keep trying until the 2 year mark (which they are classing as May 2019)

It was completely expected yet I felt incredibly sad as just feels like we are not moving forward.

She is going to book us an appt for March so that if I'm not pregnant by then they can start the ball rolling for IVF. On a more positive note the wait time should be minimal if we get to that point she said we would be seen within 12 weeks for start of treatment.

So back to beat the doctor. I've been a bit of a mess today but talked a little more with hubby than usual and trying to be open as I tend to just shut down when I'm under emotional stress.

I really hope one of us gets some good news soon....we all surely deserve some x

It was 2 years for us to join the waiting list hense why at 1.5 years I told a white lie and said was 2 so we have been trying 2 years the time we are at the top of the list...I didn't want to wait longer and I just knew I would need IVF. Even when your at top of the list ( 6 week wait on average) then it's about 3 more months till you actually start so it's 9 months or so from you ing waiting list after 2 years trying so almost 3 ! We just decided to distort the truth a bit to save us another year waiting for the ball to roll!

I am so fed up waiting now... 2 years on it feels forever. You could still catch before March so don't give up and keep trying. I have given up and missed 3 cycles in past wee while but going to try this cycle and next as its our last shot before IVF starts.

Hope your okay , this don't easy I wish one f us could get a bfp before Xmas x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So appt today felt like a waste of time we saw the 'nurse practitioner' who told us essentially that as nothing appears to be wrong we have to go away and keep trying until the 2 year mark (which they are classing as May 2019)

It was completely expected yet I felt incredibly sad as just feels like we are not moving forward.

She is going to book us an appt for March so that if I'm not pregnant by then they can start the ball rolling for IVF. On a more positive note the wait time should be minimal if we get to that point she said we would be seen within 12 weeks for start of treatment.

So back to beat the doctor. I've been a bit of a mess today but talked a little more with hubby than usual and trying to be open as I tend to just shut down when I'm under emotional stress.

I really hope one of us gets some good news soon....we all surely deserve some x

It was 2 years for us to join the waiting list hense why at 1.5 years I told a white lie and said was 2 so we have been trying 2 years the time we are at the top of the list...I didn't want to wait longer and I just knew I would need IVF. Even when your at top of the list ( 6 week wait on average) then it's about 3 more months till you actually start so it's 9 months or so from you ing waiting list after 2 years trying so almost 3 ! We just decided to distort the truth a bit to save us another year waiting for the ball to roll!

I am so fed up waiting now... 2 years on it feels forever. You could still catch before March so don't give up and keep trying. I have given up and missed 3 cycles in past wee while but going to try this cycle and next as its our last shot before IVF starts.

Hope your okay , this don't easy I wish one f us could get a bfp before Xmas x

It would be so fantastic if one of us could get BFP before Xmas! We have all put in the effort on this thread and would just be lovely yo have some happy news to lift us all a little.

I went through the rollercoaster of emotions yesterday...sobbing after hospital and wondering how much longer I can keep doing this....to not wanting to quit....to a quiet acceptance that this is our lot right now so we have to keep thinking forward.

We have worked really hard to clear some debt over the last 18 months (post wedding and Oz trip for a family wedding) and whilst I'm not quite at ground zero yet as have horse debt....we are in a much better place so I keep telling myself that maybe it wasn't meant to happen too soon to give us time to be in the best possible position.

I told hubby yesterday that when we have some time off together in Nov I want us to thinking about planning a holiday next year. We haven't been away this year cos we went to Oz in Jan 2017 but I feel like we need something to look forward to now a few months down the line.

So hope you get your miracle alexis it would be simply amazing if you caught before IVF. Xx

 

[Alexis2017]

So appt today felt like a waste of time we saw the 'nurse practitioner' who told us essentially that as nothing appears to be wrong we have to go away and keep trying until the 2 year mark (which they are classing as May 2019)

It was completely expected yet I felt incredibly sad as just feels like we are not moving forward.

She is going to book us an appt for March so that if I'm not pregnant by then they can start the ball rolling for IVF. On a more positive note the wait time should be minimal if we get to that point she said we would be seen within 12 weeks for start of treatment.

So back to beat the doctor. I've been a bit of a mess today but talked a little more with hubby than usual and trying to be open as I tend to just shut down when I'm under emotional stress.

I really hope one of us gets some good news soon....we all surely deserve some x

It was 2 years for us to join the waiting list hense why at 1.5 years I told a white lie and said was 2 so we have been trying 2 years the time we are at the top of the list...I didn't want to wait longer and I just knew I would need IVF. Even when your at top of the list ( 6 week wait on average) then it's about 3 more months till you actually start so it's 9 months or so from you ing waiting list after 2 years trying so almost 3 ! We just decided to distort the truth a bit to save us another year waiting for the ball to roll!

I am so fed up waiting now... 2 years on it feels forever. You could still catch before March so don't give up and keep trying. I have given up and missed 3 cycles in past wee while but going to try this cycle and next as its our last shot before IVF starts.

Hope your okay , this don't easy I wish one f us could get a bfp before Xmas x

It would be so fantastic if one of us could get BFP before Xmas! We have all put in the effort on this thread and would just be lovely yo have some happy news to lift us all a little.

I went through the rollercoaster of emotions yesterday...sobbing after hospital and wondering how much longer I can keep doing this....to not wanting to quit....to a quiet acceptance that this is our lot right now so we have to keep thinking forward.

We have worked really hard to clear some debt over the last 18 months (post wedding and Oz trip for a family wedding) and whilst I'm not quite at ground zero yet as have horse debt....we are in a much better place so I keep telling myself that maybe it wasn't meant to happen too soon to give us time to be in the best possible position.

I told hubby yesterday that when we have some time off together in Nov I want us to thinking about planning a holiday next year. We haven't been away this year cos we went to Oz in Jan 2017 but I feel like we need something to look forward to now a few months down the line.

So hope you get your miracle alexis it would be simply amazing if you caught before IVF. Xx

We always have to look at the small positives but it's so hard. I went to Six in 2016 and it was the best holiday I've ever had. I started in Melbourne then I flew to east coast amd travelled down the east coast. Where Did You go?

I really hope it happens soon for you. I can't believe I am about to hit the 2 year mark with not even a sniff of a 2nd line. All this time ...I hardly know anyone on tbese boards now ..everyone had got preggers and left.

I am so fed up of ttc and waiting. I've got a smear test tue right in middle of fertile time and can't dtd 24 hrs before test so prob miss best chance this cycle and I've kinda given up on it all. I've put on a stone so ce my 1st appt at the fertility clinic so that's not good..I am back in the diet tmrw a d going back out running as I feel yuk. I have 're started my vitamins and supplements and need to just start preparing myself for this rollercoaster ride. I think at a guess we will be back mid Nov for protocol results and to sign paper work then I think we will not start in December due to it running across xmas so prob start mid January? It will be here so soon.

 

[Peony1]

Could you not put off your smear test for a couple of weeks alexis? I know my docs are pretty good with rearranging smears or swabs etc.

In a way I’m glad I don’t get ivf until I’ve been trying for 3 years... im now at the 2 year mark and I can’t imagine that I would feel ready for it yet! But then again, if I don’t get pregnant naturally, the thought of waiting another year sucks!

I’m on cycle day 25 today... 2 years ago I found this part of the cycle exciting - I wish I could somehow pretend I’d just started trying and so find it exciting again!!!!

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

@Alexis my brother in law got married in Byron bay....so we spent a few days in Sydney....few in Byron and a week in cairns doing the reef and rainforest etc. It was amazing. I would love to go back. Brother in law and sister in law are moving out there permanently (she's from.sydney originally) in November time So we may yet get another visit.

What a bugger about your smear....Hope u can rearrnged for a diff day
I know what u mean about vitamins etc I honestly couldn't say when I last took my folic acid....bad i know but it just feels like it's for nothing
Must get back in the habit though just in case.

We were at a wedding yesterday so nice lazy hungover day today which meant plenty of sex. I'm due to ov Thurs but with work for both of us this week we will struggle to line up the best days. Gonna just have to do what we can.

I've got another reflexology appt on Thurs to coincide with ov. Will see if that helps relax things a little.

@peony I remmebr that excitement..and knickers obsession
Now it's just more like resigned sadness when the AF symptoms kick in.

I really feel like TTC has now developed this deep sadness within me....seeing pregnant bumps....wedding yesterday made me think back to ours and how I saw such a different future back then x

 

[Peony1]

So now I’ve officially hit the 2 year mark and I’m out again! Day 26 and the spotting has started. I’m distraught... I genuinely don’t know how to cope with this anymore

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So now I’ve officially hit the 2 year mark and I’m out again! Day 26 and the spotting has started. I’m distraught... I genuinely don’t know how to cope with this anymore

Aww peony sending many hugs your way. Nothing can take the pain and frustration away but we are all in this together and together we will get there in the end. Whenever that end may come.

Hang in there....crack open s bottle of wine...hot bath...cry...scream...shout...whatever you need to do to let it all out xx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So now I’ve officially hit the 2 year mark and I’m out again! Day 26 and the spotting has started. I’m distraught... I genuinely don’t know how to cope with this anymore

Aw peony my heart breaks for you. This road is just beyond brutual. So many downs and a rare up to just keep us from giving up.

Hang in there....we all have to believe that one day some how it will happen for us all.

In the meantime I can only send hugs and love your way and remind you that you have a huge support crew here to help you get through xx

 

[Alexis2017]

Could you not put off your smear test for a couple of weeks alexis? I know my docs are pretty good with rearranging smears or swabs etc.

In a way I’m glad I don’t get ivf until I’ve been trying for 3 years... im now at the 2 year mark and I can’t imagine that I would feel ready for it yet! But then again, if I don’t get pregnant naturally, the thought of waiting another year sucks!

I’m on cycle day 25 today... 2 years ago I found this part of the cycle exciting - I wish I could somehow pretend I’d just started trying and so find it exciting again!!!!

I need the smear for the ivf..It's got to have been done in 3 years a d mine was due 6 months ago so needs must.

I don't have time on my side to wait another year to start IVF as I feel 2 years is long enough to know I need the help. I am 35 now and I want to try and have 2 babies before I am 40 if possible ...wow prob not going to happen but I don't think waiting another year would make ivf any easier for me being 35.

I know I would be in the same place in 1 years time. Even once your at the top of IVF waiting list it takes about 3 or 4 months after that before you start ...so say you join after 3 years...then you have a wait on a waiting list 6 months or longer then another 3 or 4 to start so it's going to be 3 years ttc then another 9 months waiting...that's why I am ready to try ivf as if it took 3 of our rounds that's a lot of time in itself and we would still try ttc inbetween cycles where possible. I'm at the point I want a baby and I don't want to wait any longer now ...I want to just try everything available to us now. Ttc is no longer enjoyable and I just need to move on to the next chapter of my life already

I really hope you have more luck then me !

 

[Alexis2017]

So now I’ve officially hit the 2 year mark and I’m out again! Day 26 and the spotting has started. I’m distraught... I genuinely don’t know how to cope with this anymore

So sorry just seen this.

I hope so much 1 of us get preggers soon -naturally or with IVF

I'm done waiting

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So now I’ve officially hit the 2 year mark and I’m out again! Day 26 and the spotting has started. I’m distraught... I genuinely don’t know how to cope with this anymore

So sorry just seen this.

I hope so much 1 of us get preggers soon -naturally or with IVF

I'm done waiting

Surely by the laws of averages one of us is due some luck soon. I'm due to ov. On Thurs and OH is away tonight with work and I'm late shifts tomorrow and Wed so other than some DTD over the weekend (which was probably too early) we will probably just get one other crack at it on Thursday this month.

I'm booked for another reflexology session Thursday to coincide with ov. And will try and have a session around ov the next couple of months see if it helps me relax about it all.

@Alexis when does the hormone injections etc start for you? I'm still uneducated with iVF only just started reading up about the exact ins and outs....medical stuff doesn't tell you the real story does it...x

 

[Peony1]

Today I feel very differently about it- I wish more than anything that it was 2 years trying to get ivf for us now... the difference a day can make!...the thought even crossed my mind that we should pay for it privately cos I’m not sure how to cope with another year of this. I wanted a child 2 years ago, that want has only got stronger. I feel so fed up of it all and it seems every month there’s another person I know pregnant and asking me when I’m next. Someone met me for the first time today and asked if I had children. I just no, one day.