Long termers 6 months or more

[Nikkibiscuit]

Thanks moomin and Alexis. He didn't say it would rule him out completely as such he just said that if we get referred to the QE then they wouldn't look at treatment due to him being a smoker. But he also said they won't check so if you say you have stopped they will crack on. I think perhaps I might have muddled treatment and test in my head. Either way he def seemed keen to check me first.

Only day 21 bloods mentioned at this point along with the one to check for general health diabetes thyroid etc. So guess will just go with that and take it one step at a time. My cycle averages 28 days but often isn't bang on so I will be def looking to book in for next cycle probably on the Friday or the Monday depending on when AF arrives. Glow is predicting my day 21 to fall on a Tues next cycle so must be predicting longer or shorter based on my data. And she's better at maths than me lol.

Pretty sure I had ov pains last night but may have all been in my head. We trying to be more relaxed about sex but I'm struggling not to kick hubby lol. We have DTD 4 times in 9 days so it's not off the agenda but I think ov has been in the last couple days and most of the sex was a few days ago. I know in theory we probably still covered. Just don't want to take our foot off the gas completely x

 

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Morning Nikki. I'm so glad, even if it seems slow, that blood tests an investigations are starting for you now.

Saw this this morning and thought I'd share it with you all.

http://www.scarymommy.com/hilarie-burton-instagram-baby-infertility/?utm_source=FB

Xxx

 

[Wilson14]

You would think yet it has never happened.

Can you not try IVF? There is lots to do to improve sperm .. I think life has a way of surprising us. I am just trying to hope there will always be a chance.

We don't have the money for IVF and my husband just won't do it, he says if it doesn't happen naturally then it's not meant to be and he refuses to jump through anymore hoops.

AF due today but I'm pretty sure I'm out this month as been having usual pains, loss of appetite and lost a bit of weight in the last week which is normal for me before.

Hang on in there chick, we've decided to get his SA results and then leave it regardless of what they say, unless they can give him some medication to help boost his swimmers. Think maybe everything telling you to see the doctor after a year puts pressure on you both and then it doesn't happen because you are stressed about it. I'm going to take a step back from "trying" so hard as it hasn't worked so far.

 

[Alexis2017]

Morning Nikki. I'm so glad, even if it seems slow, that blood tests an investigations are starting for you now.

Saw this this morning and thought I'd share it with you all.

http://www.scarymommy.com/hilarie-burton-instagram-baby-infertility/?utm_source=FB

Xxx

I think thats so nice for her to share that. It's true what she says that you Don't know this exists until your suffering it.

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So true Alexis....lovely honest post.

Staff member announced her daughter is pregnant today. She only got married 6 months ago and had 12 week scan today so she fell within 3 months. Yes I stood and worked that out in my head. That's my first though now when someone tells me....how long did it take them to conceive....that and the crippling pain of being kicked in the guts and wanting to cry. But smiling through it all x

 

[Alexis2017]

So true Alexis....lovely honest post.

Staff member announced her daughter is pregnant today. She only got married 6 months ago and had 12 week scan today so she fell within 3 months. Yes I stood and worked that out in my head. That's my first though now when someone tells me....how long did it take them to conceive....that and the crippling pain of being kicked in the guts and wanting to cry. But smiling through it all x

Yup I have that smile on my face on a daily basis. It's wearing thin these past few months but we must keep going !

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Yep. Somehow just when I think I'm running out of strength I find another reserve from somewhere.

2ww starts for me today. But I have tbh I'm not even sure I'll test other than to go through the motions. Don't think we have had enough sex at the right time to even be in with a shot. So cycle #11 here we come.

Let's hope Spring brings some new life for us all x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Ah moomin I'm so happy for you. You have given me a desperately needed boost of hope that persistence pays off.

I am loaded with cold today. Someone at work passing it round I think. Sore throat yesterday and got a face full today. Missioning on nonetheless. We launch spring summer on Monday so loads on. Although that's a joke with snow forecast lol.

Hope everyone else is doing ok x

 

[MoominGirl]

Ah moomin I'm so happy for you. You have given me a desperately needed boost of hope that persistence pays off.

I am loaded with cold today. Someone at work passing it round I think. Sore throat yesterday and got a face full today. Missioning on nonetheless. We launch spring summer on Monday so loads on. Although that's a joke with snow forecast lol.

Hope everyone else is doing ok x

Thanks Nikki. I've always been someone who believes that persistence and hard work pays off. Obviously TTC doesn't follow the rules and I really felt I was out of luck this time. I still remember how I felt in your position. You only have to read back some of my posts (some from not that long ago) just to see what a pit of despair I was in.

As tough as it is to take that first step towards seeking help, know that you're starting to take control of a situation where you feel like much of what you do has little influence. Be patient. Mostly I mean with the system as the NHS, as great as it is, really can be painfully slow. I'm generally a patient person but I was forced to find levels of patience I never knew existed. Also trust your instincts and don't be afraid to stand up and be counted. There were a couple of points where I really had to fight for what I was entitled to and that I knew was right for me. So do your research and be brave.

Get your OH involved - I really can't stress that enough from our experiences. Men tend to be pushed to one side in all of this (wrongly in my opinion) as at the end of the day, it's the 2 of you together that are going to ride out this journey right to the end. Yes you'll draw the short straw physically but you'll need his support and he'll need yours so it's important he understands what's going on. See each appointment/procedure as one step closer. I had more investigating and prodding than most before reaching fertility treatment and honestly nothing was particularly traumatic physically.

Try not to be consumed by the whole thing, easier said than done I know. I'm not saying it had any bearing on the outcome but I can say that my mental health has been better in the last 3 months or so by a long way and that definitely changed once I was able to let go.

Make plans. Even if its's just booking some annual leave to make some last minute plans so you know there's something in the diary. We've got a holiday coming up that I ummed about booking but now I'm so glad I did. Of course I've got some smaller things later in the year that might not play out but I knew that when I booked. I would have regretted it more if I'd missed out for nothing.

Keep trying so you know you've done all that you can do and keep praying for a miracle. I never thought it would happen to me. To me this was the sort of thing I always said I'd read about. Good luck and be kind to yourself.

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Thanks moomin. I am feeling a lot more upbeat today. Just figure this may be a long road but I have my lovely hubby and we will face it together. I am so glad that I have managed to keep my horse as much as it is a financial strain he is worth every penny for my sanity. I think hubby is also warming to the idea that we might book a last minute hol in the summer too fingers crossed. I think a week in the sun would do us the world of good esoeically if we get to that point and are still ttc.

You are so right about needing to think forward and keep planning...you can't put life on hold it's too precious x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Odd one for you ladies. Trying not to read anything into it. For 3 days now I have had a pain on and off....altho twinge is probably more accurate description just inside my right hip at top of my bikini line where I imagine my ovary to be. It's not sharp pain just aware of a twinge on and off. I thought it was ov pain as I'm 3dpo today so would tie in. But it would not still be twinge surely? I don't think it's anything sinister as isn't painful enough. Plus being loaded with cold now means I could just be falling apart lol x

 

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Odd one for you ladies. Trying not to read anything into it. For 3 days now I have had a pain on and off....altho twinge is probably more accurate description just inside my right hip at top of my bikini line where I imagine my ovary to be. It's not sharp pain just aware of a twinge on and off. I thought it was ov pain as I'm 3dpo today so would tie in. But it would not still be twinge surely? I don't think it's anything sinister as isn't painful enough. Plus being loaded with cold now means I could just be falling apart lol x

It's so bloody frustrating not having a fucking clue what's happening inside OUR OWN bodies isn't it. Try as best as you can to ignore it or it'll drive you mad with wanting answers. Xxx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Odd one for you ladies. Trying not to read anything into it. For 3 days now I have had a pain on and off....altho twinge is probably more accurate description just inside my right hip at top of my bikini line where I imagine my ovary to be. It's not sharp pain just aware of a twinge on and off. I thought it was ov pain as I'm 3dpo today so would tie in. But it would not still be twinge surely? I don't think it's anything sinister as isn't painful enough. Plus being loaded with cold now means I could just be falling apart lol x

It's so bloody frustrating not having a fucking clue what's happening inside OUR OWN bodies isn't it. Try as best as you can to ignore it or it'll drive you mad with wanting answers. Xxx

Thanks GG this horrible cold is not helping with feeling myself at all. So I'm sure it's just related to that. I don't think I have ever been so aware of my body as when going through this ttc process x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

How's everyone doing? Hope u have all had nice weekend. I was working yesterday but lazy day today of doing horses stuck in thanks to the snow again but also some snuggle time with hubby on the sofa which is helping me break the back of this stupid cold. Been loaded for 4 days.

Trying to keep mind busy throughout 2ww. Who was I kidding...obvs will test just to break my heart as usual. But also need to pass the time until bloods hopefully next month x

 

[Alexis2017]

Hey everyone. I had accupunture yesterday and was telling her all about the brown bleeding at 5dpo. She seemed to think its either a failed implantation or my body responding to the accupunture and trying to re set itself. I've had to buy more opks as no idea when I will ovulate as no idea where I actually am in my cycle. Still having some very pale brown bleeding. I am prob aroubd cd#7 at a guess but coukd be further who knows.

She left my pulse had picked up and was keen to treat me around ovulation if it falls this wknd but if not shes awsy forn1 month to India and then time she is back I am away so no accupunture for 6 weeks which is making me sad as I think I was just starting to get somehwere with the treatment. She wants me to keep a hot pack over my uterous during ovulation too

Went for lunch today with my mum and she kept going on about how she thinks it's stress thats stopping me and I am so sick of ppl saying it to me now its unreal. Hopefully I will figure out where I am in my cycle soon ! Never in my life have I not known this so feels a bit alien!

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Hi Alexis. What a shame if you thought treatment was helping. It's awful when you feel lost in your cycle. My log and short extremes a few months ago left me feeling like that.

Did u used to temp? I'm doing ok with mine altho pattern seems a little erratic at the moment so guess I need to keep it up for couple months and get some patterns down.

How long until Thailand? Xx

 

[Wilson14]

On CD37 today no AF some spotting but BFN, fed up with this now xx

 

[Alexis2017]

Hi Alexis. What a shame if you thought treatment was helping. It's awful when you feel lost in your cycle. My log and short extremes a few months ago left me feeling like that.

Did u used to temp? I'm doing ok with mine altho pattern seems a little erratic at the moment so guess I need to keep it up for couple months and get some patterns down.

How long until Thailand? Xx

Yeah I temp now and again but because of the flu I couldn't temp so no idea when I ovulated last cycle and where the hack I am right now. It's a total guess. I ordered nore opks which I didn't plan to do but only because of this irregular cycle I need to see if I can try pin point my LH surge but they havent arrived yet so who knows ... I think I should ovulate around this wknd at a total guess! Thailand in 5 weeks on Sunday!

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Hi Alexis. What a shame if you thought treatment was helping. It's awful when you feel lost in your cycle. My log and short extremes a few months ago left me feeling like that.

Did u used to temp? I'm doing ok with mine altho pattern seems a little erratic at the moment so guess I need to keep it up for couple months and get some patterns down.

How long until Thailand? Xx

Yeah I temp now and again but because of the flu I couldn't temp so no idea when I ovulated last cycle and where the hack I am right now. It's a total guess. I ordered nore opks which I didn't plan to do but only because of this irregular cycle I need to see if I can try pin point my LH surge but they havent arrived yet so who knows ... I think I should ovulate around this wknd at a total guess! Thailand in 5 weeks on Sunday!

How exciting....think you should see be looking forward and focussing on that. All this ttc stress will wait for when you come back!

I've been full of cold so think my first attempts at temping are a little erratic for that reason. Doc said keep doing what I'm doing as any data is all useful to them when it comes to it x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

On CD37 today no AF some spotting but BFN, fed up with this now xx

Aww Wilson I feel your pain I had a 36 day cycle a few months ago and I was willing AF on after about 32 days as I just wanted an end to the misery. Hang in there. Mother nature loves to test us to the limit x