Congrats Esperanza on this exciting, and also nerve wracking time. And Lucy and MissJ im so sorry it hasn't worked out for you. One of my closest friends here has just had ivf, all grade D worse quality, she tested yesterday 12dpo and BFN and had a bright red bleed but only for few hours then stopped?? Anyone have any idea? She said her nipples are very sore, shes got her BETA tomorrow, she had 3 put back but all bad quality.
As for me, well what can I say, I had my D&C tue, I didn't like it one bit, I was heavily sedated so felt nothing but afterwards was dying to pee but couldn't go on bedpan ended up having a catheter, and I was so spaced out but at the same time adrenalin pumping through my body, we left hozzie at 3pmbut it got worse, teeth chattering, muscles spasms, shaking....went back to A&E they were so uncaring had to wait for 3 hours to be seen, by whichpoint it was midnight and Id been up since 6am I was exhausted but couldn't relax was horrendous, eventually I had a massive panic attack in ther hospital and abit of a breakdown....they think the whole thing was the start of a breakdown as my bloods etc all shown ok. The next day I had another panic attack and ended up at the docs and now im on anxiety medication....they did give me anti depressents too but I only took 1 and it knocked me for six so I came off them I don't think im depressed just extremely upset and angry. Ive been feeling aloit better the last few days, haven't needed to pop one of my anxiety tablets thankfully, its been a scary week.
I think the tipping point was whern they came to administer an anti D jab and the nurse said 'This is because you are Rh - and your baby was Rh +, it just made the whole thing seem so real, I had a baby who had there own blood group and now that baby is dead and been removed from me. This experience has been the worse Ive ever had and I even said to DH the other day im not trying again, obviously ive now decided other wise haha, but wont be for a good while as I really feel I was so close to a breakdown these last 4 years have obviously just took its toll x