what a day lol.
yesterday i had a show in the morning. i was really happy that things were progressing
i called the m/w just to let them know (as she asked me to) and she said it was fine and ring back if i had any more bleeding.
i had some in the evening, but waited to see what it happened in the morning.
so i got up today. and i had yet more blood. so i rang them back.
they asked me to go in for observation. just in case.
so off i trot, after texting adam.
i get there and get strapped to a machience. happy with that.
she comes back and says she is going to call the doctor to see what she wants to do.
adam arrives with reinforcements i.e some luckazade (sp) and a paper.
says he called in at my parents on the way and that mom was coming up.
so there i wait, and mom arrives. i appologise for waking her (she done a night shift last night)
i felt abit silly about all the fuss i caused.
doctor comes down. asks the same questions lol.
then asks the m/w to do an internal
my heart dropped.
id not had one before. and dont like people messing with me. so i was petrified.
i go to the loo to undress and out i come with just a cover thing wrapped around me.
i was morifyed. i wanted to crawl under a rock.
was so uncomfortable. im glad my mom was there to hold my hand lol.
she then inserted a finger to check the cervix. and said she could feel the baby's head. so im guessing thats a good sign labour is close.
they then brought in a scanner, to check the placenta wasnt blocking the baby or something. i thought yay. a reward for what ive been through, i get to see my baby
well i did see the baby. but he asked if he could do an internal scan. i was almost about to burst into tears, as i thought that sort of thing was done with.
so i lay there and thought 'well if hes gna do that, im gonna ask if he can see the sex of the baby'
as at my 20week scan, the bloke was horrid, and didnt really seem to care.
he had a really good look for me. and said he 'thinks'
it is a .............................Girl
but he wouldnt commit. he pointed out to me on the screen what he thought was her lady bits
so i might get my girly after all
they ummed and arr-ed about keeping me in. but thankfully let me go home, under the instructions i had to ring back if i had any more bleeding or any abdo pains ect.
so. that was the most humilliating day of my life lol.
please dont think im petty for taking it so hard, im just a very private person. and anything like that mortifies me.
going to go to bed soon. its been a VERY long day. but i wanted to update everyone before i went to bed.
been getting some crampy pains still occasionally. mom and adam seem to think baby wont take long to appear. im not so sure. i think it might be a while yet.
hope you are all well. and that my tmi post hasnt been too bad lol
bye for now