Everything just seems to be getting worse. After all the stress and the pregnancy losses and then to lose our son at a week old to a virus similar to the common cold I have just had the massive shock of being told I have Severe dyskaryosis on my smear which means the cells on my cervix are severely abnormal. I know this is routine and good that they are dealing with it and my last one was just over 3 yrs ago but I am so stressed and so scared. Our 1 glimmer of light in such an awful heartbreaking time was that I might have another child and maybe start trying soon and now im scared that that is all going out the window.