dont know what i'm expecting from anyone, just needed to say this to someone as i cant talk to my mum about it atm! and its going to be along one so well done if you make it to the end!
so after all the worries i've had about Flynn getting enough milk, the lengths of his feeds and how long he's sleeping for i'm starting to feel like i cant do it any more (breastfeeding that is!)
i noticed a few days ago my left nipple looked really sore, now the sore patch has turned into a really big deep crack, that literary looks like a third of the top of my nipple will fall off if the scab came away have spoken to two midwives and they both said he was latching on properly so it should heal, but it hasn't and i cant even put any pressure on it without almost crying out in pain so i've been hand expressing from that boob but can never seem to get much out!
Flynn was feeding from the right boob fine, but yesterday and today he's not wanted to take it, he latches perfectly sucks and then drops the latch! so now my right nipple has got sore and i noticed a small crack after he bit down on the middle on my nipple before i had a chance to get it into the right position!
AND to top it all of, i get this really horrid pain every time he feeds, from either boob, like an unbearable pulling sensation from under my armpits, (tried to talk to midwife about this yesterday but she ignored me, as per usual!) so have had a read online and think it could be mastitis as they feel really warm and i have sections that feel rock solid and others that are spongy!
i really don't know what to do, we went out and brought some formula as i cant express enough to keep him satisfied (we have an electric pump but my nipples are so sore i can't use it ) but i really don't want to give up on breastfeeding! i feel like a failure, i want him to have the best but i know i can't give him enough of it to keep him satisfied my OH has been really hard on me today too, he can't see why i want to put myself through the pain to keep breastfeeding, his opinion is that he needs to look out for both me and Flynn and that me being unhappy and in pain is not good for any of us. i really don't want to give up completely on breastfeeding but i don't know how i'm going to cope. i'd honestly rather go through labour again than feel all the pains i am now and while breastfeeding . . . and Flynn was twisted in a odd way so i had a back to back labour!
like i said, really don't know what i'm asking here but thank you x