Im really trying to be positive about not being pregnant but its so hard. Our neighbours on either side of us have babies and it really rubs salt into the wound whenever you hear them cooing and talking to them, they sound so happy. I say that once Im pregnant I will never complain about morning sickness or take the child for granted. Im ready and prepared for all the sacrifices Ill have to make! However the other evening I was sitting in the garden on a comfy sun lounger with a cider and a book, it was bliss! Then on one side I heard the small baby screaming and the parents having to cope with it. Then on the other side I heard the older baby screaming in the bath upstairs and I laid back on my sun lounger, took another sip of cider, smiled to myself and thought ha!