I'm so sorry, I know how this feels, lost at 11 plus 5 days. Noone should have to go through losing their baby like this.
It does get easier, may not feel it now, take some time off, get your iron back up, as you will be really tired and sleepy right now, just tick away the days. You will have bad days and good days, but talking about it, esp on here to us really does help, don't disapear from pf, this is a time you will need it the most, it got me through it. Hang in there X