Oh Simone, I am so so sorry - there are no words, there was nothing anyone could say when we lost our little one to make it any better. Don't worry too much about the future just yet, just get through today - little steps. My little girl was 3 when we lost her brother, she was devastated, that was the hardest part knowing my child was so upset and I felt like it was all my fault for daring to have another baby.
I too was put on a delivery ward, everyone around me having babies but luckily I got a private room.
Big hugs to you my darling, you can do this. Get as much time with your beautiful baby as you can, lots of pictures, make some memories. We got hand and footprints and gave our boy a bath and dressed him beautifully. We also went to see him again in the chapel of rest just before his funeral.