Depression support thread

[cherrybinky]

Thanks Helen, yes I guess it was really, I just found myself in a dip at times and got grumpy, upset and pushed people away. Ive left jobs, dumped people and been mean etc too. But I met my OH and felt confident enough after a while to come off them thanks to him and me being happy. x

 

[Toonlass]

Hi Cheryl! I used to take seroxat too. Bloody awful tablets them. I used to feel like someone was sitting on my feet in bed at bight when I took them. Freaked me right out! Sounds like your doing really well. If you ever need a chat and your feeling down, you know where to come xx

 

[cherrybinky]

Thanks Toonlass, same goes to anyone here, Ive been through it so if anyone wants a chat Im here. Seroxat got banned i think as someone in the US killed his family after taking them for only 6 days, was awful. Took the UK a while to catch on though!

 

[MrsR]

Gosh they sound awful! I've always been too afraid of anti-deppressants to take them x

It's great that you've found someone like your OH! That confidence is a massive step! x

 

[cherrybinky]

I couldnt cope without my anti depressants as I suffer with major anxiety and paranoia so they were required. The citalopram were only a low dose but just kept me level headed and rational and smiling. I luckily weaned myself off them and managed the side effects well and now Im good again

 

[MrsR]

That's brilliant!

I didn't mean to belittle anyone who does need them. I just never felt I was in need of them. Looking back I probably should have accepted them. Sorry if I upset or caused offence.

 

[cherrybinky]

Oh god not at all, Ive always been quite happy to admit I needed them. My OH hates tablets and he works in mental health like me and thinks theyre not needed as there are other means but I felt I had to have them to get by. I so admire anyone like you who doesnt X

 

[Elfs Mummy]

I've been thinking ... about sh all bloody day and im home alone ... 1 cut wont matter ... wtf is wrong with me !!!

 

[MrsR]

It wouldn't stay at one cut though. One would turn into two, three, four until you've lost count x x

What's wrong honey?

 

[pinkymum]

Hey girlies,

Monkie I hope you're ok! I agree with Helen, once you give in to one cut its easier to make it 2,3,4....... whats happening?

Cherry nice to see you here and well done on the four months

Social services want to see me with my midwife because of the mental health problems I have. I knew this would be the case no matter when I got pregnant. The midwife said it's nothing to worry about and they'll just want to see how I am and if I need any extra support. Doesn't stop me worrying though. I know I'm alot bette, no SH, no suicide attempts or thoughts, mood is stable and if they need more info about me I know my therapist and psychiatrist will explain how well I've been for about a year. I'm still worried though
My friend had a social worker when she was pregnant because of mental health problems and nothing bad happened to her.....I've spoken to toon in PM too. She suggested I call the midwife and let her know that I'm stressed about it. Might give her a call on Monday. Just hope they see me soon so i know exactly what they want.

x

 

[leanne1b]

Hi,
Sorry I disappeared again. Up and down and now bub is I'll again. Christ.
Anyway. As of today, I have deferred from Uni.
I know that it's harder at home toon, Christ I was nearly demented with the older one. But I also wouldn't have changed it. Was a dif setup with her tho.
Anyway, just with all my issues I know I'm not ready to e out all the time, and still not have the time to spend with him when I am home. I also decided, quite morbidly, I could get run over any day. I don't want to regret not having time with him for the sake of a career. I can go back, if I don't, I'd do what it takes to make sure were okay financially.
I just feel so relieved knowing that I get to raise my son for a while. Oh I know he'll drive me mad sometimes. But it was literally killing me leaving him 5 days a week plus coursework from just 6 weeks old. I wish I hadn't gone back. I already regret losing the last 9 ish weeks.

Am I really stupid? Xx

 

[MrsR]

No honey you're not stupid x it's hard but so so worth it and I know what you mean regarding the fact that you could get run over, it's not morbid it's the truth (and it hurts believe me-cars are hard *******s!) and you definately should do what's right for you and LO now x hope you're ok x

 

[pinkymum]

You're not stupid Leanne, you have to do what you feels right. Hope you're ok!

I feel really tearful tonight, haven't cried but feel like I'm about to burst into tears at any moment. Probably a combination of hormones, the stress of moving house and feeling a bit alone

Feels a bit strange in the new house, I've always lived in flats (lived on my own since I was 16) so the house feels like a bigger responsibility. Love having a house, its just gonna take a while to get things sorted. I have no bloody carpets yet and only have the livingroom bought which will be laid on Monday. Anyway sorry for going on.

 

[MrsR]

You're not going on hon! And if you were, heres the place to do it! x I found attempting to carpet and decorate the house we live in now so difficult and stressful that there's still a couple of really unfinshed rooms! x

Hugs x x hope you feel a bit more upbeat soon x x

 

[ria__x]

hey all, sorry i've not been on for a while. quite depressing really. i go through phases of not trusting anyone at all. i love talking to everyone on here but i get a bit depressed because i'll never realistically meet any of you! and that makes me sad because i don't really have many friend. my fasult really, due to the trust issues mentioned above.

i have a really good life, but i still end up finding something negative about myself/life. feel like i'm my own worst enemy.

i am just rambling sorry. how are you pinkymum, has the social worker come yet? i would be, understandably, worried too!

hope you are all happy and in christmas spirits!

xxxxxxx

 

[Toonlass]

ria, bless ya. I kinda understand where you are coming from with trust issues. I find it hard to talk to people because i'm scared they will think i am a weirdo.

Did you ring up to ask what would be happening pinky? Or have you heard anything else?

Hows everyone else? Helen, you coping ok at the moment? xx

 

[MrsR]

Hugs Ria x I understand the trust issues too x we'll have to arrange a major meet! Lol!

I'm coping ok at the minute I think thanks toon x I took a big step today by joining facebook, something that scares the shit outta me because of my past but I took the plunge anyhow! The more involved I get with church the more positive I become and it sounds corny but I truly believe my faith gives me strength at times I need it most x I did think about sh recently but I prayed for the strength to refrain and I managed not to do it x

How're you doing Toon?

Pinky, did sw come or get in touch yet? x

 

[Toonlass]

Im alright chick, keeping busy. The thought of Christmas is killing me inside. I keep putting it all off but when I allow myself to think about it I get stressed that I've done nothing for it yet. I wish I had money for a personal shopper to do everything for me, even the money to afford presents would be nice lol. It's just the shops are so busy and my anxiety goes mental, Urghhhh bah humbug lol xx

 

[MrsR]

I did it all online this year as I'm the exact same as you! Nipped into borough on Saturday to print some digital pics off and nearly ended up killing several people! I hate crowds!

Glad you're doing ok x busy is good x

 

[pinkymum]

Thanks for asking ladies,

I had stopped worrying about it but after reading something about someone elses experience with sw on here I really got freaked out. Called my midwife straight away and asked how difficult was it going to make things and she said not difficult at all. They just want to get a backround from me and see if there is anything that I can get help with. They know I have a good support network up at the hospital. She said the support worker that would be seeing me is really nice. She gets back on Tuesday so midwife is going to get an appointment sorted before new year so its not looming over me.
Tbh its silly I was worrying so much because I know for a fact if my therapist and psych thought I wasn't going to cope they wouldv'e have said, they're very honest with me.
So I'm not worrying now

Ria, trust is a huge thing, I find it easier to say things on here because people don't know me IRL.
Helen I'm glad that your faith helps you and glad you didn't SH!
Toon is christmas a bad time for you or is it mostly the expense of it all? I hate shopping at this time of year, I don't get anxious in crwods but I defo feel like pushing people out of my way