Thanks for your lovely messages. I'll be okay. Its just going to take a bit of time to get our heads around it. It doesnt really feel real at the moment. Like i said i have to think of the positives...having 2 beautiful kids already and i cant wait for them to come home so i can give them a hug. Im so relieved i didnt tell them or anyone else for that matter. I guess its strange to think it is unlikely we will have anymore kids now. Best wishes to you all for your pregnancies xx