Emmak no matter what age or situation we are all scared I promise AND given your gynae history this is an absolute blessing. The fact that you are worrying already about being a good mum tells me youre going to be enough parent for your little one to make up for the other one that doesnt want to know. Get all the help you can, seek advice on working/uni/benefits/financal/living etc etc and keep talking on here. The girls are a great support.
I was petrified when I had my little boy, but i love him beyond anything else i have ever experienced, then I was told I wouldnt have anymore kids, but fell pregnant with this little miracle and guess what...IM SOSDDING PETRIFIED ha ha darlin Im 38 yrs old and I still scared. YOu are not alone take care of yourself sending you a massive hug xxx