ourlovebump
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I don't know what is happening to my body! I had a scan last week Friday (6weeks 2 days I think) and heartbeat was found, but the bleeding has never stopped and since then it became heavier and I am passing clots (not too big ones, a few blobs each time I go to the loo (sorry for TMI!), I have been feeling exactly as if I am on my period (period pains, moody, irritable, and the same flow (so quite a lot of red blood) and I have no idea what is happening to my body!
I am such a squeamish person, can't watch horror films or see blood as I feel faint immediately, so the thought of m/c and a fetus passing just makes me feel faint! If that is what's happening will I really see a little fetus covered in blood? really don't think I could handle that! My pregnancy has been one hell of a ride from the get go, bad news after bad news...I'm just losing faith in a healthy pregnancy, as with all the findings I think it will never be easy for me
It broke my heart initially, and I was feeling devastated, but I have become a little clinical to distance myself, so to help me cope I keep telling myself that I am going through a medical condition as thinking of it as pregnancy just breaks my heart! I had such high hopes for a baby, but I am almost letting go of the idea all together...how very sad is that
I really hope I haven't upset anyone with my 'cold' post, I am very alone and slightly upset as I have plenty of friends with kids that had wonderful healthy pregnancies and births and I just don't want to talk to them as I feel (ashamed to admit!) slightly resentful at the moment...even though I know it is not their fault, it is just so hard right now!


I am such a squeamish person, can't watch horror films or see blood as I feel faint immediately, so the thought of m/c and a fetus passing just makes me feel faint! If that is what's happening will I really see a little fetus covered in blood? really don't think I could handle that! My pregnancy has been one hell of a ride from the get go, bad news after bad news...I'm just losing faith in a healthy pregnancy, as with all the findings I think it will never be easy for me

It broke my heart initially, and I was feeling devastated, but I have become a little clinical to distance myself, so to help me cope I keep telling myself that I am going through a medical condition as thinking of it as pregnancy just breaks my heart! I had such high hopes for a baby, but I am almost letting go of the idea all together...how very sad is that

I really hope I haven't upset anyone with my 'cold' post, I am very alone and slightly upset as I have plenty of friends with kids that had wonderful healthy pregnancies and births and I just don't want to talk to them as I feel (ashamed to admit!) slightly resentful at the moment...even though I know it is not their fault, it is just so hard right now!


