stupid stupid body!

[jojo3972]

I'm so pissed off with my body why can't it just do as its meant to and recognise my bby has died and miscarry it instead of me having to go through this torture of knowing wat is in my tummy! Last year the same thing my body just would not let go even after medical management help all day I was in agony at hospital but still my body refused to let go ,I keep thinking its happening after I get cramps and feel wet but still my body has pregnancy cm and lots of it and each time its a reminder of wt has happened inside my body,I would so prefer a natural mc but I just can't wait for it to happen it could be weeks.just a rant realy of how I am feeling angry upset pissed off empty its horrible it realy is xx

 

[cosmicgirl]

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[Esoames]

I'm so sorry you're going through this lots of hugs xx

 

[cornishfairy]

It must be awful for you jojo. My thoughts are with you. Xx

 

[CARNAT22]

Darling,

I totally understand that it must feel awful having this happen again after last year and I hope Tuesday is more fruitful than the initial medical help you received last year.

I had a natural m/c last year and it took 3 weeks to occur. I wasn't given the option of any medical assistance. For 3 horrible, lonely, soul destroying weeks I walked around with a dying / dead fetus inside of me and I had to live with that knowledge every waking second.

Granted the actual process of miscarriage was at home, it was without any medical intervention and I am grateful for that.

I think you should take any positives you can from Tuesday - at least it will (hopefully) all be over with that day and you can begin to mental process of getting through this.

Sorry that as well as dealing with the actual loss you are so worried about the actual prodecure after your past experience.

I hope come Tuesday evening you have a little bit of closure, although the hard part of course comes afterwards as the grief doesn't "go away" in a day or a week or a month

xxxxxxxxxx

 

[tinselcat]

Ah jojo you poor love

I know how horrid it is to know you're carrying a dead baby inside you with no indication of how much longer it'll stay like that

At least i think your erpc is scheduled soon so you can get closure on this soon.

I felt like i mentally forced my natural m/c into action once i knew, i laid on my right hand side (never did during pregnancy) & with legs stretched out straight and willed body sending messages to abdomen (like i do to tell period to get on with it sometimes) to let go & it obliged. I could be talking rubbish but that's just how it felt and i only mention this in case it could be of any help to you.

How horrible that your medical management didnt work last time, tbh i found the natural mc a lot less painful than this by a massive amount so i only hope you dont suffer this time xxxxxxxxx

 

[MrsCow]

So sorry ur going through this lovely, nature can be so cruel, sending you lots of love and hugs xxx

 

[jojo3972]

Hi thnk you for sharing ur experiences,its ironic how last week I was so worried about seeing blood and this week I'm willing it on and checking cos had a few cramps but nothing I realy wish it would do it naturaly and I'm doing a lot of willing tinsel but its just not happening I have read that it can take weeks and weeks sometimes I realy don't think I could wait that long it would mentaly kill me don't know how any one could do that tbh,and I think the erpc tuesday should go fine it did last year was hardly any pain or bleeding realy its just the run up to it I'll be very nervous but also want it over with and I'll be home by tea time hopefully and in my own bed with lots of maddison cuddles :-D xxxxx

 

[TORino]

Thinking of you hun. The same happened to me and I found it extremely difficult to deal with. I felt that my body had failed me somehow, twice.

I hope it can all be over quickly for you

 

[Gayle30]

I bet it feels like the longest weekend of your life. Take care sweetie xx

 

[jojo3972]

thank you both ..... gayle it is honestly and im willing my body to do wats right but its not bloody listening to me grrrr,torino did u ever get an answer as to y it happened twice for you? im hoping i get some answers least that way i can understand more..xx

 

[Gayle30]

I hope Tuesday comes round quick for you. Xxx

 

[TORino]

thank you both ..... gayle it is honestly and im willing my body to do wats right but its not bloody listening to me grrrr,torino did u ever get an answer as to y it happened twice for you? im hoping i get some answers least that way i can understand more..xx

I only had the one mc, I just felt as though my body had failed me in that it couldn't grow a baby, and then it failed me again because it couldn't recognise that the pregnancy had ended and was clinging on to a dead baby

Those few days were torturous when I was deciding what to do about it. I got incredibly stressed that my body wouldn't let go. I couldn't bear it in the end and after a week had the medical management to get it out.

I hope the physical side of this can be over very quickly hun. Thinking of you x

 

[jojo3972]

ahh ok sorry mis read, i had the medical managed last yr and that didnt work i was in hospital all day in total agony bleeding and losing little clots but that was it my body still would not let go so no problem holding onto a pregnancy just the problem of the baby staying alive thnx for sharing with me, opting for the dnc is the best option for me after last yr i aint gonna put myself through all that again it was horendous so by tuesday dinner time it will hopefully be all over xx

 

[dyscochick]

You will at least know that Tuesday will be suvcessful. I'm so sorry you had to wait. I was offered medical management last year and luckily it worked for me, but I'd gave had to wait 2 or more weeks for a surgical option. I'm sure these days have been agony for you xxxx

 

[lisaloo]

My body refuaed to let go too. When i went for my 12week scan there was no heartbeat and baby had stopped growing at 7/8weeks. But my body just hadnt regestered anything was wrong. I had to go into hospital to have baby removed. Was horrific. My heart goes out to you xxxx