I am p***ed off once again!
Okay.....I don't care about porn! I don't give a toss but the thing that REALLY REALLY REALLY and I can not state how much it does annoy me that IF YOU ARE GOING TO LOOK AT PORN...THEN ADMIT TO IT!
I have just seen my boyfriend got a email from a forum....so me being nosey and also admittedly insecure, searched the name.....basically its a forum with loads of girls on all getting naked and having one handed typing with guys.
Fine if he is on their to look (as there is pictures) then do but I would be pished if hes actually typing to these girls.....I know its just words but thats how we fell in love (obviously not in such a seedy way). And that would upset me....but if he could just tell me then I would now know if he is or isnt talking to these other girls or if he was just curious. But he hasnt told me and he has always denied it and says he doesnt like porn. But I know he does as I know about "his cousins" stash of dvds.
FFS I just feel like if he feels he has to lie to me about something as stupid as porn then what else is he lying about. I have been here before I'm so fed up of being treated like a clueless bint.....I just think I am owed a little more respect than that. But if it was just porn he was looking at then why try and hide it and this is why I am in a state because now in my stupid fecked up head I think he might be talking to other girls.
I just think great heres me getting fat and ugly having his baby feeling like sh*t and getting up at 9am to go to work. And he can go and talk to a whole bunch of women that can offer him so much more and he has jumped at the chance.
I'm so sorry if this makes no sense all I seem to be doing today is crying and this was the last thing I expected to see.
Okay.....I don't care about porn! I don't give a toss but the thing that REALLY REALLY REALLY and I can not state how much it does annoy me that IF YOU ARE GOING TO LOOK AT PORN...THEN ADMIT TO IT!
I have just seen my boyfriend got a email from a forum....so me being nosey and also admittedly insecure, searched the name.....basically its a forum with loads of girls on all getting naked and having one handed typing with guys.
Fine if he is on their to look (as there is pictures) then do but I would be pished if hes actually typing to these girls.....I know its just words but thats how we fell in love (obviously not in such a seedy way). And that would upset me....but if he could just tell me then I would now know if he is or isnt talking to these other girls or if he was just curious. But he hasnt told me and he has always denied it and says he doesnt like porn. But I know he does as I know about "his cousins" stash of dvds.
FFS I just feel like if he feels he has to lie to me about something as stupid as porn then what else is he lying about. I have been here before I'm so fed up of being treated like a clueless bint.....I just think I am owed a little more respect than that. But if it was just porn he was looking at then why try and hide it and this is why I am in a state because now in my stupid fecked up head I think he might be talking to other girls.
I just think great heres me getting fat and ugly having his baby feeling like sh*t and getting up at 9am to go to work. And he can go and talk to a whole bunch of women that can offer him so much more and he has jumped at the chance.
I'm so sorry if this makes no sense all I seem to be doing today is crying and this was the last thing I expected to see.