Threatended miscarriage :(

[Phillipa]

Thank you all for your kind and supportive words, it means a lot to me.
I've decided to hide away in bed now, I feel so emotionally and physically drained and I now feel sick as well

I need to tell my mum what has happened, it's going to be hard for her as she had 3 miscarriages, that and she also started buying baby stuff
She also found out that her birth mother died a couple of weeks ago (just before mothers day I think), so I hate the fact that I have to tell her this as well now.

 

[Shanivy]

So sorry to hear this Phillipa just do whatever you need to do and take care of yourself xx

 

[hopeful1976]

So sorry sweetheart , don’t really know what to say, this is so hard, sending you lots of hugs and wishing you quick recovery. Xxx

 

[Pearl81]

I am so sorry to read this today. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I had a missed miscarriage at 6 weeks which was discovered at 8 weeks and I recall how devastated I was. I had no bleeding like you but as my body refused to reject the dead embryo by 10 weeks I had a D&C to surgically remove it.

You will feel like this for a while but know and accept that you are grieving a terrible loss. Take as much time as you need. I promise you things will eventually get better. You wont believe this now as I didnt when people told me the same thing.

My D&C was recent in October last year - only 6 mths ago. But now I am 13 weeks pregnant and all seems well. Don't lose faith..it took me 2 years to get this far but it has been worth it. When the time is right it will happen to you too.

Good luck and be kind to yourself xxx

 

[Phillipa]

I am so sorry to read this today. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I had a missed miscarriage at 6 weeks which was discovered at 8 weeks and I recall how devastated I was. I had no bleeding like you but as my body refused to reject the dead embryo by 10 weeks I had a D&C to surgically remove it.

You will feel like this for a while but know and accept that you are grieving a terrible loss. Take as much time as you need. I promise you things will eventually get better. You wont believe this now as I didnt when people told me the same thing.

My D&C was recent in October last year - only 6 mths ago. But now I am 13 weeks pregnant and all seems well. Don't lose faith..it took me 2 years to get this far but it has been worth it. When the time is right it will happen to you too.

Good luck and be kind to yourself xxx

Thank you Pearl81, it's so weird because it hasn't quite sunk in, I feel so normal and then suddenly it hits me and I can't control my emotions
I'm so sorry for your loss, but congrats on your new tiny person, I hope you have a good pregnancy x

I have told my mum about my miscarriage and she was just a devastated as me, but because she had 3 herself, she can relate and offered to help me through my recovery.

 

[WolfMamma]

I'm sorry hunny.

It'll definitely be an emotional roller coaster for a while but you will come out the other side.

We're all here for you

 

[claire_louise9]

I'm so sorry to hear this phillipa, your husband sounds amazing and have great support from him. It's such a horrible thing to go through . I wish you all the best in the future whatever you decide . Xxxx

 

[BabyWomble]

I am so sorry sweetie. I know nothing anyone can say will make this feel any better, but never blame yourself, nothing you did would have caused or prevented this from happening. Take time for yourself now, give yourself love. We’re all here if you need us x

 

[Sunflower1]

I'm so sorry you are going through this Phillipa. Sounds like a good idea to take time for yourself and grieve. x

 

[BunnyN]

So sorry for your loss. How are you doing today? We had a loss at 10 weeks and it was devastating. I will never forget but the unbearable pain eventually fades. It does take time though and not something you can rush. I am sorry your mother went through MC but I am glad you have someone to talk to. Talking helps a lot. Hugs.

 

[Phillipa]

Hey everyone, thanks again for the kind words and support.
Been OK so far today, apart from a small breakdown this morning when my husband asked how I was when I woke up (I thought it was all a dream).
I busied myself and went to town to see a friend who was very supportive to me and we had a chat.
I treated myself to a new photography lens for my DSLR, so I can focus on my photography and I have been thinking of doing some self portraits or something as a way to help me grieve.

I also bought some little bits and pieces to make a keepsake box of whatever I have of the pregnancy, my tests, 2 progress photos my husband took, some cards people gave me. It seems silly but it's a way to help me heal and to remember that even though I never knew the gender, didn't have a name etc, I still carried a baby even for a small amount of time.

Coping OK for the moment but we'll see how the rest of the day goes.
Still got cramps and back ache, so gonna rest up in bed now I think.

 

[BabyWomble]

Lots of love to you Phillipa, you’re constantly in my thoughts today. Do whatever you need to do to heal my darling. It doesn’t matter how long you carried your baby you were it’s mummy so I think a keepsake box is a lovely idea x

 

[BunnyN]

I have some keepsakes from my MC. Some of them seem a bit random but they are things that mean something to me and have a connection with the pregnancy.

 

[MoominGirl]

So sorry that this has happened to you Phillipa. I hope you can take all the time you need to look after yourself and grieve. Thinking of you.

 

[Phillipa]

Thank you again everyone, I feel too human right now, not even numb, I feel normal. So to help me through this I've been doing a personal photography project and I would love to be able to share these phots with you all if that would be OK? Xx

 

[tootie]

That is a lovely idea, I’m sure we would all love you to share it xx

 

[Phillipa]

I apologise in advance if these upset anyone, it is not my intention. Photography is my only creative outlet and it's helping me through this painful time. I don't need to say much about these photos, apart from that even though my little flower was only with me for a short time, they will never be forgotten and be in my heart always.

The teddy bear was mine when I was younger, and I had planned to give it to our child when they were born, that is not to be anymore.

Having a good cry now writing this, and again thank you for letting me share this with you all, I'll be moving out soon.

xxx

 

[WolfMamma]

Those are beautiful Phillipa. Such simple images really speak volumes

 

[BabyWomble]

Beautiful photos x

 

[BunnyN]

Lovely pictures. Are you thinking of doing something special with them like an album?