my baby jess is now with the angels and watching over us all.. i have asked her especially to watch over all u ladies and may u all have H&H babies ..
at 11 am i was given 2 tablets to start of labour.... the contractions stared at 12 ish not to bad at first but then by 1pm they were very bad and i had to be given some morphine..
at 2pm i had to have another 2 tablets to help move things along.. i was also still on morphine..
at 4.10pm the midwife examined me and told me i was fully dilated and ready to deliver..
4.15pm the midwife broke my waters and i began to push
jess came out "breech postion" but then she had her head stuck and i cudnt push her out as my body thought it had done its job.. i was put onto another drip to help my cervix open up again as it had started to close..
jess was born at 4.45pm exactly
she was fast asleep and perfect in every way...
she weighed 1 pound
i didnt see jess until after about 1 hr after i had delivered her.. all the family came in to say there goodbyes and then we spent the evening with her...
i told her everything that i held in my heart... all the things i wanted to say to her i got to say.. told her all about u ladies on the forums aswell..
i left the hospital this morning and it was the hardest thing in my life that i have ever had to do... i watched all the other mummys take there babies home.. full of happiness and full of joy.. when deep inside it was tearing me apart just knowing that i had to leave my little girl behind..
here are a few pics of jess.. (i hope they dont offend anyone)
i will update u all later with some more pics..
