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[Danti]

I feel so down, I know it's the hormones but I suffer with depression and it's horrible, I feel like I want to cry all the time and I get so paranoid about the most stupid things! I constantly need reassurance from my OH and I'm so scared he's going to get fed up of me. We had our first ever argument the other night because I was feeling touchy and got my back up over nothing.

I feel like I can't cope already and this upsets me so much because I'm ecstatic that I'm pregnant after being told I wouldn't be able to have kids naturally. I'm constantly worried that I'm going to be a bad mum because I get so self involved when I have episodes like this, I think every ones either out to hurt me or are lying to my face. I don't feel I can reach out to anybody close to me about this either because why would they want to listen to me going on and on about myself??

I hate this... I feel so alone and I know I'm being completely ridiculous but I can't help thinking like this and it's driving me crazy!

I'm sorry, I just needed to vent.

 

[Maria1977]

Hi,

I don't normally post on here, but have read the forum a lot since I found out I was pregnant last may. I now have my beautiful baby boy, almost 5 months old.

Your post reminds me of when I was first pregnant, I suffered with depression most of my life, came off anti-depressants when we tried to get pregnant. I had so many negative thoughts and constantly worried that I wouldn't be a good mum, how would I cope? And felt so ungrateful, which made me feel worse. I promise you it gets easier. The first few months are so so hard, hormones going crazy and it's so daunting knowing you'll be bringing anothe life into this world. But as the months go by, even though all the doubts and fears are still there, feeling your baby grow and the bond that you develop makes it easier and at the end I got really scared and then my baby was in my arms and I knew life was right.

Not sure what made me post after all this time, but I guess I just wanted to say that you'll be fine, what you're feeling is normal and when you see you baby on a scan you will feel amazing

 

[Lilelephant]

remember ur hormones r all over the place so it is normal to feel up and down especially when u are prone to depression!
You.ll be a great mum so don't worry about that!
I went spoke to gp a couple of weeks ago cos I was feeling unable to cope with the fear of mc again and it helped just to off load x big hug

 

[Susanne]

I am so sorry you feel so awful - I've had depression in the past and know what a horrible, lonely feeling it is. But like all the other unpleasant aspects of pregnancy it will pass in the very foreseeable future - hold on to that thought! I am sure your OH will understand, and all your family and friends will be happy to listen to you, because whether or not you can believe it right now, they actually do love you! And I think the very fact that amidst feeling so down and depressed you still worry about whether or not you'll be a good mum shows that you will be a brilliant one! So chin up!!

 

[Danti]

Thank you so much ladies! I've managed to pull myself out of it for now, listened to some sad music, had a little cry and got a big hug off the OH when he got back from work. He came back really excited today, he had been thinking of different names all day and said he couldn't wait to get back and discuss them with me which cheered me up so much I started crying again, bless him he thought he'd upset me but when I explained why I was crying he just gave me a massive hug and told me I was being silly ='] Baah hormones! Who'd have them ;P

 

[BabysMomma]

Glad to hear you're feeling much better today. What a sweet, supportive OH you have. A hug can solve a lot x

 

[Sleepy sue]

Oh Hun glad you feeling better, just blame everything on the hormones that's my plan for the next nine months, no wait I mean 18years lol

Take care Hun xx

 

[Lilelephant]

Glad ur feeling better hun!!!

 

[NinjaKitty]

I'm glad you're feeling better. I think Tri1 sends folks a bit barmy anyhow as there is so much new stuff to think. about. I've only just started to calm down a bit. We're always here if you want to let off steam

 

[Danti]

Thank you again ladies! =] and yes I do BabysMomma, I count my lucky stars everyday that I have him, I truly think he's going to be my rock through out the pregnancy. He's amazing ^_^