well it seems one of my best friends from primary school isnt so supportive.
My other best mate turned up at my door last night and just listened to me, and cuddled me through the tears, it was what i needed tbh. My best mate from school who now lives in aberdeen cam on msn and asked how i got on, so i told her and she seems to think that im bullshitting!!
then made me feel bad for feeling like crap, she said you have your son which is more than what she has so i should count myself lucky! (apparently she cant have ne kids)
I then told her that my sister text me asking how i got on, bearing in mind i havent spoke to her since before xmas cos she no longer wanted a sister (long story) so she randomly text me saying no matter what she would have a baby for me (WTF), so my mate was like oh she shuldnt have said that over text, but then totally stuck up for her saying well cos shes got PND she prob wont be thinking! I was like no u dont get it, i do not want her having a baby for me, some1 who can say im no longer there sis, ruin my xmas and refuse to let me see my nephew then all of a sudden offer to have a baby for me?? I dont think so! So i told my sis carrying a baby isnt the problem its concieving that is so it looks like im gonna hvae to pay some sort of money and in doing that i would rather pay to carry MY own baby....does that seem selfish??
Just seems the only people that have been supportive at all are my friend that came around yesterday, OH and you guys.......I at least thought my mate of 20+years would atleast show some sort of remorse....
Well i didnt last long away from you guys lol xx