Hi, i posted this to a friend of mine so i've copied and pasted it here to, hope no-one minds
Most of you have probably read my other posts i put in here but i apologise if you have not and this starts off not making any sense
I'm feeling good, well i was, i'm just so confused at the moment.
When i had the miss, i felt ok, i think i had come to terms with it b4 it actually happened cause i knew it was pending and i didn't see anything on the scan.
When i had the actual phonecall from the hospital i came off the phone and cried, i kept having bouts of crying that day and the next day i felt the odd sadness at diffrent things but i wasn't as upset as i thought i 'should' be if you understand. I just felt well its over and done with now its time to move on. I hope i haven't offended any of you by saying that but its just how 'I' felt, i know it affects all people differently but i just wanted to get back to ttc, i think cause i didn't see a heartbeat it helped enormously.
Right well now this is why i' m getting confused...
I asked my doctor when should i expect to get a negative pregnancy test, she said 2 weeks. When the hospital rang to say my numbers had dropped, i asked her lots of questions etc and she said to do a test, either home, doctors or go to her and she'd do one for me in 2 weeks (same as doc said) and it should be negative, if it wasn't then to go back and see her.
My numbers were 489, then 48 hours later they dropped to 390. I've been reading loads on the net (maybe i shouldn't have bothered now
) and they seemed low for 7 weeks but i guess if i was earlier than that say 4/5 weeks they could have been about right. I also read that nothing is generally seen on the U/S till numbers are at leat 1000, was this why nothing was seen?
When i bled it wasn't as heavy as my usual periods, it was mainly when i wiped but sometimes there was quite a lot there on wiping, i never needed a pad, only a liner and it was very dark and sticky. The liner was never full only medium/light marked. I passed 1 clot the size and shape of a sultana, quite firm in texture and looked like liver would and another which was more like a raisin size piece of dark purply red chicken skin sort of thing. I never had much pain neither, a little ache more so and aches in the top of my thighs and hips.
Bearing in mind i started spotting on the mon night which was watery pink then brown, lasted about an hour (we also dtd the previous night) monday there was nothing but i had the vagnal scan, tuesday i had the bleeding wednesday the clots and thursday bleeding which nearly stopped but started again friday and was finished by saturday...does this sound like a miscarriage to you??
Saying i missed on the wednesday when i passed the clots, i did a test sat and it was positive, tested again on tuesday and it was positive again but slightly darker, even my mum said so, tested again tonight and again its positive either the same as the last one or (i think ) slighly darker, its a definate positive though, basically the same colour as the control line.
Could it be i lost a twin? would that make my numbers drop and go up again, i so want my numbers re-checked or a scan just so i have piece of mind.
When i 'missed' i felt that looking back my symptoms had slowly dissappeared but this last week its like they (some or even different ones) are coming back. I Haven't been thinking about maybe still being pregnant so i don't think its 'psycological' as it wasn't till today i've been obsessing over it all again.
Am i trying to hold on and not letting go properly or could i still have reason to believe i 'might' still be in with a chance?
I feel so silly but there is part of me that won't rest till i 'know for sure'.
Another thing is if my hcg is still in my system then would that stop me from ovulating untill its gone back to normal?
I have started getting niggles down below and wonder am i still pregnant or am i about to ovulate but i really don't think i would ovulate if my body still thinks it pregnant.
Oh boy this is so confusing, can u see where i'm coming from or do i sound mad?
Also doc said by my LMP(3 feb) i was 7+3 when i had my scan (27 mar), if i went by Ovulation day, ( 26 feb) would i have been 4+1 or 6+1 weeks when i had the scan? i said six cause i still added 2 weeks onto the O date, now i'm wondering if i would have only been 4 weeks, this would make a lot more sense with my numbers etc wouldn't it.
Oh well i'm sorry if this just seems a rambled mess, i know i feel confused so i don't doubt this will sound confusing to you.
have a good Easter everyone
take care
xxx
Most of you have probably read my other posts i put in here but i apologise if you have not and this starts off not making any sense
I'm feeling good, well i was, i'm just so confused at the moment.
When i had the miss, i felt ok, i think i had come to terms with it b4 it actually happened cause i knew it was pending and i didn't see anything on the scan.
When i had the actual phonecall from the hospital i came off the phone and cried, i kept having bouts of crying that day and the next day i felt the odd sadness at diffrent things but i wasn't as upset as i thought i 'should' be if you understand. I just felt well its over and done with now its time to move on. I hope i haven't offended any of you by saying that but its just how 'I' felt, i know it affects all people differently but i just wanted to get back to ttc, i think cause i didn't see a heartbeat it helped enormously.
Right well now this is why i' m getting confused...
I asked my doctor when should i expect to get a negative pregnancy test, she said 2 weeks. When the hospital rang to say my numbers had dropped, i asked her lots of questions etc and she said to do a test, either home, doctors or go to her and she'd do one for me in 2 weeks (same as doc said) and it should be negative, if it wasn't then to go back and see her.
My numbers were 489, then 48 hours later they dropped to 390. I've been reading loads on the net (maybe i shouldn't have bothered now
) and they seemed low for 7 weeks but i guess if i was earlier than that say 4/5 weeks they could have been about right. I also read that nothing is generally seen on the U/S till numbers are at leat 1000, was this why nothing was seen? When i bled it wasn't as heavy as my usual periods, it was mainly when i wiped but sometimes there was quite a lot there on wiping, i never needed a pad, only a liner and it was very dark and sticky. The liner was never full only medium/light marked. I passed 1 clot the size and shape of a sultana, quite firm in texture and looked like liver would and another which was more like a raisin size piece of dark purply red chicken skin sort of thing. I never had much pain neither, a little ache more so and aches in the top of my thighs and hips.
Bearing in mind i started spotting on the mon night which was watery pink then brown, lasted about an hour (we also dtd the previous night) monday there was nothing but i had the vagnal scan, tuesday i had the bleeding wednesday the clots and thursday bleeding which nearly stopped but started again friday and was finished by saturday...does this sound like a miscarriage to you??
Saying i missed on the wednesday when i passed the clots, i did a test sat and it was positive, tested again on tuesday and it was positive again but slightly darker, even my mum said so, tested again tonight and again its positive either the same as the last one or (i think ) slighly darker, its a definate positive though, basically the same colour as the control line.
Could it be i lost a twin? would that make my numbers drop and go up again, i so want my numbers re-checked or a scan just so i have piece of mind.
When i 'missed' i felt that looking back my symptoms had slowly dissappeared but this last week its like they (some or even different ones) are coming back. I Haven't been thinking about maybe still being pregnant so i don't think its 'psycological' as it wasn't till today i've been obsessing over it all again.
Am i trying to hold on and not letting go properly or could i still have reason to believe i 'might' still be in with a chance?
I feel so silly but there is part of me that won't rest till i 'know for sure'.
Another thing is if my hcg is still in my system then would that stop me from ovulating untill its gone back to normal?
I have started getting niggles down below and wonder am i still pregnant or am i about to ovulate but i really don't think i would ovulate if my body still thinks it pregnant.
Oh boy this is so confusing, can u see where i'm coming from or do i sound mad?
Also doc said by my LMP(3 feb) i was 7+3 when i had my scan (27 mar), if i went by Ovulation day, ( 26 feb) would i have been 4+1 or 6+1 weeks when i had the scan? i said six cause i still added 2 weeks onto the O date, now i'm wondering if i would have only been 4 weeks, this would make a lot more sense with my numbers etc wouldn't it.
Oh well i'm sorry if this just seems a rambled mess, i know i feel confused so i don't doubt this will sound confusing to you.
have a good Easter everyone
take care
xxx
, good luck with getting it sorted. I'm here for you if you wanna PM me 
i also had some internal bleeding and fluid. They said another 1 to 2 days and it would have ruptured. 
