My IVF journey

[Blueflower]

Its hard when you do everything right though and it still doesn't work. Hopefully it will work for you first time Lisey.

 

[lisey]

Thanks Blueflower, I hope so and I do know it must be hard when you do everything right and it not work out

Charlie, I am obv being OTT, my smaller dog is similar size to your dog and I haven't picked her up, although there hasn't been need to, its the bigger dog who often needs picking up cos he is a cuddle monster but have managed not to so far.

So I am 4dp3dt...nothing to report really, the odd twinge, I have noticed last couple of nights have felt a bit queasy at night time, I think its too soon for anything like that though. I have had queasiness early in some bfp cycles but also in non-bfp cycles too, I think its just how my hormones affect me.
Its so hard to find a balance between positivity and staying realistic to ensure there is not massive shock if we don't get a good outcome. I feel bad if I don't feel positive though. There is a job I could go for but I feel like, if I apply I am pretty much saying the IVF won't work xx

 

[xxcharliexx]

Ahh blueflower I think no matter what if it doesn't work it would be so hard. But in my head I just didn't wanna blame myself for anything I might have done wrong. It really is a rollercoaster ride, I think that's the best way to describe it, one day convinced it's gonna work, next day convinced it won't.

I was negative as you know so I'd have probably gone for the job myself and just turned it down if I couldn't do it. Everyone copes differently I suppose but I geared myself up to expect a fail so that I was prepared.

God it's so hard. Some people really have no idea what Ivf is really like I felt like people I told I was having it were like it's defo gonna work because all they see is movies where it works every time when unfortunately the reality isn't like that. I'm sure that little embie was getting snugly when you had those cramps and sharp twinges. I remember those feelings well. Everything crossed firmly here for you really rooting for you and those embies xxxxx

 

[lisey]

Yeah I am in two minds about the job, I am thinking I could do that. Apply and if I got it then got a bfp, I could be honest and not take the job. I don't think it would be fair to lie to them and take the job. I just don't know.
You're right, people don't understand. My Mum was saying to me "I wonder when you will feel sick" I had to tell her that there are no guarantees and I don't want her to get too excited...I haven't told her I have had any nausea cos she would be planning baby shopping trips lol
Thanks so much Charlie, I really hope the twinges are the embies getting comfy Its so hard not knowing whats going on in there xx

 

[xxcharliexx]

I really feel for you when I think back to how I felt that week after transfer. It's so so difficult. Your body has done amazing so far so is obviously a very good time for this you should be very proud of yourself xx

 

[lisey]

I really feel for you when I think back to how I felt that week after transfer. It's so so difficult. Your body has done amazing so far so is obviously a very good time for this you should be very proud of yourself xx

Thanks Charlie, I am very proud of my body, I really felt for a long time that it had failed me and I honestly thought the IVF would be cancelled or we wouldn't produce good embryos so in that respect I am very happy xx

 

[Blueflower]

Yes that’s true, people assume its going to work because they can’t see why it wouldn’t, you get a ‘test tube baby’ made for you, it gets put in and so you must be pregnant! My acupuncturist asked me if it was my first pregnancy and I had to tell him that I wasn’t pregnant yet and my manager even said “its your big day tomorrow!” when I took the day off for testing on the first round. And my sister and sister in law were horrified that after all the embryos we had, I wasn’t actually pregnant. Its partly why we didn’t tell many people, to avoid them being disappointed as well.



Lisey, why don’t you tell your mum your % chances of being pregnant? Not sure how old you are but its probably 35% or 25%. It might seem cruel but that way she will be realistic and hopefully won’t get excited until you actually are pregnant!

 

[lisey]

Yeah people don't really understand everything else involved in pregnancy. They think embryo, in womb = pregnant!
My Mum does get it now, I think she just got carried away. I am 31. I think they said chances are 40-50% but can't really remember, 40% was mentioned though (could have been 30%-40%). We haven't told many people for the same reason, I don't want constant questions and I would feel extra pressure too xx

 

[louielly]

My mum is convinced that there's going to be a baby. She's already knitting a blanket and got all my old bodysuits etc out of the loft! I'm 36 so our chances are not that high. It definitely adds more pressure. She's desperate for a grandchild xx

 

[lisey]

They just get so excited don't they. My Mum hasn't said too much since as I nicely said I didn't want to feel any added pressure as want to stay as relaxed and calm as possible xx

 

[Blueflower]

Yeah people don't really understand everything else involved in pregnancy. They think embryo, in womb = pregnant!

Oh of course, they wouldn't know about implantation or anything like that! We know so much we assume everyone else does too! That reminds me about my acupuncturist as well kept calling it 'implantation' instead of 'transfer' and I kept having to tell him that its up to the embryos whether they attach or not, the doctor just puts them in the right place! Maybe I'll get an acupuncturist specialising in IVF next time!!

I am 31. I think they said chances are 40-50% but can't really remember, 40% was mentioned though (could have been 30%-40%).

Yes I think it is about 45% for your age, that's great!

 

[Blueflower]

My mum is convinced that there's going to be a baby. She's already knitting a blanket and got all my old bodysuits etc out of the loft! I'm 36 so our chances are not that high. It definitely adds more pressure. She's desperate for a grandchild xx

Oh no that is pressure! Hope she's right though! My dad was disappointingly realistic but I didn't tell my mum as she'd worry too much and make herself ill making added pressure for me!

 

[lisey]

Yeah people don't really understand everything else involved in pregnancy. They think embryo, in womb = pregnant!

Oh of course, they wouldn't know about implantation or anything like that! We know so much we assume everyone else does too! That reminds me about my acupuncturist as well kept calling it 'implantation' instead of 'transfer' and I kept having to tell him that its up to the embryos whether they attach or not, the doctor just puts them in the right place! Maybe I'll get an acupuncturist specialising in IVF next time!!

I am 31. I think they said chances are 40-50% but can't really remember, 40% was mentioned though (could have been 30%-40%).

Yes I think it is about 45% for your age, that's great!

Thanks Blueflower. I think seeing an acupuncturist who specialises in IVF would be better, mine does and she is a fountain of knowledge in everything fertility related and really knows her stuff xx

 

[lisey]

Feeling quite sick I really do think its too early to be related but am noting it down anyway. It feels like I have drunk loads of full fat milk and its sitting on top of my stomach, curdling (it doesn't agree with me to drink full fat milk). I hope I am not getting any kind of bug, that won't be good for my embies and plus its my sons bday tomorrow xx

 

[lisey]

My sick feeling subsided after I ate a slice of cake-cake is the solution It came back when I was in bed though. I think the progesterone can cause nausea so maybe that's what it is.
My ovaries have been feeling a bit sore and left one really really hurt when I coughed yesterday. Could they still be tender from the egg collection? I am assuming it can take a while for them to heal after having lots of eggs taken?
Having acupuncture tomorrow, can't wait, feeling a little anxious so that will relax me again xx

 

[Lucyboo]

Blueflower where abouts in Sussex are you as I can highly recommend an amazing acupuncturist in hove... Not fertility specialist but so amazing and supportive... As well as good at what he does... Don't give up hope you will get there, xxxxx

 

[Blueflower]

Yes I'm sure your ovaries would be sore after all they've gone through. Your embryos should be blastocysts now, is that right?

Thanks Lucyboo, Hove is where our clinic is so fairly easy to get to. Could you PM me the details?

 

[lisey]

Yes they should be blastocysts, all going well. I am 6dp3dt now xx

 

[xxcharliexx]

Ooh it's going quite quick lisey! Me being inpatient I was testing at this point haha! Everything still firmly crossed here xx

 

[lisey]

Thanks Charlie, it actually does feel like it has gone quite quickly, I imagine it will start to slow down now! I am not even tempted to test as too scared of bfn. Feeling nervous now.
Did you have any early signs or symptoms? xx