Long termers 6 months or more

[SugaryIris]

Loads of creamy is a good sign isn’t it? I had it before my bfp.

I’m cd43 and still no af either! It’s so frustrating! I am pretty dry cm wise though so I’m sure she’ll arrive tomorrow. I bought some more frer and I’ll test tomorrow if she doesn’t show. Now officially my longest ever cycle and I’ve neber not had spotting before she arrives either, the latest I have started spotting is cd37 before so I have literally no idea what is going on!

 

[DeeDeeAbi]

Are you going to test Nikkibiscuit? So so hoping this is it for you, fingers crossed!!x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Thanks ladies i really feel like i cant test again after 3 bfn. I have ordered some internet cheapies so maybe when they arrive if still no show then ill test again. I have 2 clear blue at home but i was always saving them to be my test for a test if i ever get a bfp. So have a bit of a mental block with them.

Really dont know what to think. Sorry to keep going on but i think hubby doesnt really know how to help and i cant help myself lol x

 

[DeeDeeAbi]

When did you last test? It must be a really frustrating place to be in right now!! But lack of period and white cm....and never being this late before...all looks good �� xx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

When did you last test? It must be a really frustrating place to be in right now!! But lack of period and white cm....and never being this late before...all looks good �� xx

I tested on 9dpo then CD30 and then CD37 and BFN so not filled with hope as no other symptoms at all x

 

[SugaryIris]

Tomorrow is the 10 month mark for us, I’m feeling a bit rubbish as I really hoped I’d be pregnant by now. I’m cramping a lot so I know af will arrive tomorrow. Of course she would show up the day we are going on holiday!

 

[MoominGirl]

When did you last test? It must be a really frustrating place to be in right now!! But lack of period and white cm....and never being this late before...all looks good �� xx

I tested on 9dpo then CD30 and then CD37 and BFN so not filled with hope as no other symptoms at all x

Keeping my fingers crossed for you Nikki. I'm not sure how much you're tracking your cycles but do you have a good idea of when you actually ovulated? Really hope this is it for you. I wouldn't think too much about not having other symptoms. I literally had none.

 

[Alexis2017]

Tomorrow is the 10 month mark for us, I’m feeling a bit rubbish as I really hoped I’d be pregnant by now. I’m cramping a lot so I know af will arrive tomorrow. Of course she would show up the day we are going on holiday!

I feel your pain. I am on month 18 of trying....I thought I would have a 6 month old baby by now. Instead all I have is a leader from fertility clinic and a plave on the IVF 6 month waitong list. Marvellous

 

[Alexis2017]

When did you last test? It must be a really frustrating place to be in right now!! But lack of period and white cm....and never being this late before...all looks good �� xx

I tested on 9dpo then CD30 and then CD37 and BFN so not filled with hope as no other symptoms at all x

Hoping this is it for you. Xx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Thanks ladies but it most def is not. Willpower caved tonight so took one of my precious clearblue digi tests. Figured CD40 gotta show something if it was. Big fat NOT PREGNANT I've never taken a with before and I think those words hit home harder than expected.

So I shall just sit and wait and see when AF rocks up. I track cycle pretty closely although haven't temper this month. I needed a bit of a relax. I usually ovulate more like CD17 than CD14. So would def still be showing by now.

Just getting slightly worried body has totally switched off on me x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Another day another pregnancy announcement. Feel a little differently about this one. Quite complicated but an old friend from back home had a baby who is now 6 I think. Dad was never involved...complicated story but he left the country.

She decided to have another one. Went through several rounds of IUI I think we'll low grade I think cos basically turkey baster. She used a private clinic and basically donor goes in cup in one room and you syringe in the next room.

I love my friend to bits but with her first daughter I always felt odd as she fell pregnant carelessly and pretty much on purpose. Which I felt was a bit unfair on the dad and her daughter. But actually her little girl wants for nothing and is so loved my opinion has changed a little over the years.

Now I am happy for her as she miscarried back in Feb with her first successful insemination after several gos at it. She fell again straight away and is expecting another little girl.

I think the only crushing thing for me is that she has fallen. Miscarried and is now 12 weeks and I'm still no further forward.

Hope everyone is lined up for a good weekend. Phew it's hot!! Sending cool glasses of Prosecco everyone's way! Xx

 

[SugaryIris]

Oh Nikki, those are some confusing feelings, I don’t envy you at all.

I just found out another of my sisters is trying for her second, I know the first was a very very difficult and long journey for her that ended in ivf and now she’s remortgaging their house just so that they can afford ivf this time as they won’t be able to get it on nhs. My other sister has been trying for nearly 4 years, she’s has two miscarriages the last one two years ago. They have stopped ivf on the nhs in my area but she is very lucky as she got on the waiting list before.

Now I’m sat here, 10 months in and wishing very deeply that I won’t have problems like them although I know it’s likely and also not wanting the guilt of falling pregnant whilst they are going through this.

The important thing is whilst everyone’s journey may be different, they are still incredibly important to that person so try to fill your mind with positive thoughts for them, that’s what I’m trying to do.

Right now, I’m on holiday in a cottage with an incredible husband, and two perfect puppies and a bottle of prosecco chilling in the fridge in readiness. Whilst I know I want a family, I’m taking a minute to appreciate what I have, because it is very very special indeed xxxx

Sending all of the love to my long term ladies xx

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Much love sent back your way too iris.

Lovely day for me today stewarding at Belsay horse trials. Lots of watching gorgeous horses in the very hot sticky cloudy sunshine.

So that's CD42 done and dusted still very creamy white CM. Nothing else to report!

Hope everyone has a good Sunday x

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

@sugaryiris did you AF show yet?

Have a lovely holiday x

 

[Alexis2017]

Much love sent back your way too iris.

Lovely day for me today stewarding at Belsay horse trials. Lots of watching gorgeous horses in the very hot sticky cloudy sunshine.

So that's CD42 done and dusted still very creamy white CM. Nothing else to report!

Hope everyone has a good Sunday x

Hmmmm very strange. ... could you go to the docs for hcg blood test ? You could be pregnant of af hasnt showed up.

Glad you had a nice day sounds good. I just found out hubby is away on our next fertile period - cd#12-15 for a stag do. What's the point, I give up. I doubt there is any point in trying in June now. That means we have 5 months to try before IVF. I woukdnt have taken a break in May if I had known that. It was the 1st month we took a break since starting ttc. I sometimes feel like I am putting everything in and hubby is putting in 60%. He started taking vitamins today after the doc told him too at our last appt. At least that is something. He is moaning about the size of the tablets...am like really? I just feel like there is always something every month in the way...like it just means it's not going to happen and just the universe telling me to give in now. I am not ready to give in but I am also ready to end the misery. I have brown discharge today and for 1st time I didn't care cos we didn't ttc...I didn't even know what cycle day I am....what is this freedom?

 

[SugaryIris]

@sugaryiris did you AF show yet?

Have a lovely holiday x

No af for me yet, my cramps have stopped too but cd46 and I have a brown tinge to my cm which is how it normally starts so I suspect she’ll be here in the next day or so.

I hate it when I have a long cycle, when I’m waiting for af, I just think about all those girls with their 28 day cycles and I get annoyed that they get more chances to try than me because I have to wait so long in between cycles! Oh well! Taking the pooches to the seaside today!

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

Much love sent back your way too iris.

Lovely day for me today stewarding at Belsay horse trials. Lots of watching gorgeous horses in the very hot sticky cloudy sunshine.

So that's CD42 done and dusted still very creamy white CM. Nothing else to report!

Hope everyone has a good Sunday x

Hmmmm very strange. ... could you go to the docs for hcg blood test ? You could be pregnant of af hasnt showed up.

Glad you had a nice day sounds good. I just found out hubby is away on our next fertile period - cd#12-15 for a stag do. What's the point, I give up. I doubt there is any point in trying in June now. That means we have 5 months to try before IVF. I woukdnt have taken a break in May if I had known that. It was the 1st month we took a break since starting ttc. I sometimes feel like I am putting everything in and hubby is putting in 60%. He started taking vitamins today after the doc told him too at our last appt. At least that is something. He is moaning about the size of the tablets...am like really? I just feel like there is always something every month in the way...like it just means it's not going to happen and just the universe telling me to give in now. I am not ready to give in but I am also ready to end the misery. I have brown discharge today and for 1st time I didn't care cos we didn't ttc...I didn't even know what cycle day I am....what is this freedom?

Sad for you feeling like there is always an obstacle Alexis. But pleased you are more relaxed about cycle. Maybe just take pressure off for a couple months and let what will be will be. Then if IVF is meant to be so be it. And slap hubby for moaning about tablet size lmfao

I don't know whether to call docs tomorrow and book an appt. I have never had cycle this long even coming off birth control. But equally I'm bit frightened they will just tell me to piss off. Nhs website seems to say you have to have 3 months without period before they will do anything. Maybe they would see it different as we are actively ttc I really don't know.

After my digi spelling it out just feel I can't leave myself open to anymore heartbreak x

 

[Peony1]

Hi everyone, I think it was MoominGirl who recommended this book on here (and if it was, thank you so much!), but I’ve just read Izzy Judd’s book ‘Dare to dream’. I honestly can’t recommend it enough! I feel so different about the struggle ttc now and have such a different attitude towards it. Although I have to wait until I’ve been trying for 3 years until I can have IVF, it was something I feared and she also helped me understand a lot more about IVF. I hope in the meantime I do conceive naturally, but I’m starting to feel better now that I’m accepting this situation I’m in, rather than feeling resentful towards it.
After my last period I felt great, because the sadness didn’t overwhelm me this month. Then a few days later, I had a colleague who talked about me being pregnant and me having children for most of the day and I felt awful - I felt like it was a big setback. So I’m so glad I read this book when I did. She’s so open and honest in the book and although she had it a lot worse than I have, I could relate to her so much. I read it in two days which I think is a record for me

 

[MoominGirl]

I'm really glad you got a lot out of reading it. For me, there was a chapter before she actually has her first IVF cycle which talks about the emotional struggle that we ladies go through with every failed month. I gave that chapter to hubby to read and he really felt a different level of insight into what I was going through. He was always very understanding anyway but she put it in much better words than I could ever manage!! I also read it in about 2 days!!

 

[Nikkibiscuit]

So Brown wipe before bed means no docs will be needed. She will no doubt be in full flow by morning.

That's me officially 12 cycles down and really questioning now how much longer I can continue on this rollercoaster. I think I may need a break So if you don't here from me for a while it's cos I've logged out to try and have some down time.

Xx